.::kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan::.

walaupun saket org tgk pada luarannya

tp kite tau yg kita berdua mula bahagia...

p/s:yeay!!shahir menang....dpt lagu tema baru..wink2~~

.::transitional phase::.

i hate when i can't hate you~~

p/s: ouch,tersepak kerusi..terkena kat jari kaki yg cedera tuh...ouch!!ouch!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

.::final vacation::.

Last Saturday,unintentionally I was landed at PD..after sending the car at Serdang,someone told me to get prepare for a short holiday in PD..it was 2pm at the time we moved. so that i left kL with my only shirt and slack i worn plus my only back-pack (laptop + notes + make-up)..at least,xlah sehelai sepinggang~~

i was there for twice before..but only now i knew the detailed way to go..hee,sebab kitorg due2 xtau jalan,so main redah jelah..skrg da tau!!we reached there about 3pm and i was invited by his family members to do sauna..even though i ever did sauna before,but this kind of sauna almost killing me..haha!!selama ni i selalu buat sauna dalam box je,kepala kat luar..this time,i went into sauna room with very hot vaporized air and i can feel all the heat burning up my face receptor sensory..it was damn HOT!!biasanya boleh tahan 30minutes,this time i only can bear up to 15minutes~~

huhu,padan muke i!!

right after oversweating session and 10minutes rest,i enjoined the rest of them get down into the pool..i tibai his niece punye track suit..huhu...i thought the pool was filled up to my level of height,once i jumped in,haha...the funny thing is i almost get drown~

seb bek dok main tepi2 saje,sempat gak berpaut..selamat!kantoi xpandai berenang,only tau menyelam!!bak kata dia lah..huh~

i swam about an hour only..ikut kan ati xmaw naik lagi,but he insisted me to get out of the pool since the pool was crowded by many handsome and tough guys..(diorg datang utk kursus kot)..ehee jeles la tu!

it was time to take a nap in the room..1 thing i wanna share with all of u.the room was facing right to the sea with breathtaking view..rase macam xnak balik kL je bile dok kat situ..emm~~

its only a while for me to enjoy the scenery as i still have paper on Monday to sit..i pun study lah dengan bersungguh2 nye...while he left me and go for the sea with his bro-in-law..sampai ati xajak~~

ni view right from the front balconi..

ni another view..sgt tenang.tp daylight time je la,malam penuh sesak yg amat!!

after maghrib,we went down to the nearest shop to get some rice and a mat..since we were having an unplanned BBQ that night,we only have chickens,cencaru/ikan jaket and ikan merah..cet,mcm la kenal sgt ikan..tu pun i tau sbb his sister told me...lalala~~

while waiting for them prepare all the foods,i myself walked down through the beach and,and it was very pleasant feeling..pheww..walking with bare foot on the beach sand,hear to breeze of night air and looking far to the endless point of the sea~

the calmness flew all the tensions in my head away...

there are kids running around,creatively trying to build a sand castle,couples having a nice walk and chats,teens doing camping and not forgetting,majlis perbandaran giving fine to whose setting a burn for BBQ in the hole of the sand..hehe,we overheard the discussion,they have to pay for RM150 for that..xpasal2 je membazir..serve them right..you've polluted the environment you know!!seb bek kitorg ada BBQ set tuh..huhu

we returned to the apartment by 10.30pm..everyone looks tired..setakat ni,everything sounds good and nice right??no,it won't last..selalu mcm tu,bila sy nak gembira,mesti ada benda yg bunuh kegembiraan sy tuh..sy xsuka..sgt xsuka!!

he brought me to a such place..instead he has another one he adore the MOST!!!

the worst part,he knew I knew it..

menjengkelkan~

horrible~

frustrating~

he bought me a shirt to change..

people do say,kalau kita bagi hadiah baju,means the relationship will be end up very3 s0on..he ignores me!!

i don't know~

in the middle of the night,we were out to the sea for a walk and hopefully for a nice chatting after a long while we always arguing each other...

we have steamboat and syrup for that..

PD is just like Bukit Bintang for kL..the people enjoy the night most!

some of them play beach ball,some of them get fish and some of them try to catch a crab..i xtau la betul ke x penggunaan catch kat sini..sbb diorg bukan pergi tunda pun,diorg g tangkap..so,u know~~

(^_^)

pic credited to google..

we sat and try to REbuild the dreams we once hold in the back and make everything clear...

tp bila pagi,he's not stay long with the mood..pagi2 lagi da kena marah..so,i yg kepala batu ni pun nk tunjuk degil jugak..i xbreakfast..ingatkan nk pujuk,die smbung tdo pulak lpas tu..huh..so,im starving for the day up to 12pm..sgt menyakitkan perut i taw!!da la emosi xstabil,lapar pulak tuh..

after checking out,we stopped at R&R seremban to have lunch..thank God,at last dapat jgk makan~he sent me home at Subang and that was the end of a good memories to hold...

this is Kak ti-his eldest sister..i curik gmbr ni kat facebook syatila..

to his eldest sister,Kak ti..sy mintak maaf and i understand you've sacrificed a lot all these while..your kids are all very nice t0o...thank you for treating me just like your own blood last night and yes,it's true..God've shown me many times..i have a long journey yet to go..all this 'pain' will be my good teacher for me..i'll be strong enough in future..

love and life can never be separated..but you choose your life rhythm and you are the one who are able to pick up the right love to color your life...

.::the third::.

orang kata,

critical point for those who were married is after 5 years in relationship.

orang kata,

critical point for those who are in love pulak, is after 3 years in relationship.

emm,

betul kot.

cet..

=))

today is our anniversary for the 3rd year

and there's a lot to tell(if only I wanna..)

joy and laughter

not forgetting pain and cry..

up to yesterday,

we are not g0od though.hoho

sblm ni i da planned dlm kpale otak nk g jenjalan today kununnye

tp cancelled

first:because we're not in a real stable emotions yet

second:esok i OSCE,nak membaca la kununnye

third:kaki i maseh tidak sembuh..

so,i went out ptg td g kua cari card..

ingt senang ke?byk kdai i pergi..semua xmemenuhi citarasa mak taw..ehee

da la dgn kaki terdenc0t2,

seb bek tade pape jadi masa i merempit td..

at last,i jumpa kat POPULAR je..huhu

pastu g membeli belah kt secret recipe cket

plus cuci gambar kat kdai yg ada bluetooth machine tu.

maka bergegas la i g jumpa si dia..

ingtkan die xnak berbaik ngan i

sangkaan i meleset..

mmg la agak dingin and cool...tp xde la ribut2 taufan cm smlm..

alhamdulillah~~

disebabkan smlm die dah campak 'crystal' to me,(refer pada blue vs crystal)

so,arini die just tnye psl study i

and preparation i yg terakhir

harap2 everything will be even smoother day by day..

i hope he'll text me early in the morning tomorrow

to wish me the best of luck..hmm.

and i know umie,mak n abh i sentiasa doakan yg terbaik utk anak die ni..

call kekti esok ye~~(biasa lah,dasar anak yg kedekut kredit)

so,semua yg tgh baca post ni pun

jangan lupa doakan i eh..

maseh,jasamu dikenang

hanya Tuhan yg dapat membalas segala~~

go0d nite every one!!

salam..

.::the blue vs the crystal::.

sebenarnye topik kali xada kaitan langsung dengan piala liga Perdana England atau sebagainya yang seangkatan..tapi apa2 pun,yeayyyyyyyy!!!Chelsea akan terus berkuasa~~

biasalah,Allah ada berfirman yang semua benda diciptakan-Nya mempunyai pasangan..malam ada siang.bulan ada bintang.panas ada sejuk.saya,ada dia..ehem2..so,kat sini sy nak cerita sikit pasal "blue" di kaki dgn "crystal" di tangan..=))

apekh yg 'blue' tu?

sblm ni sy ada laptop compaq..tp telah dipindah hak milik kepada org kesayangan sy di atas beberapa faktor.yg pertama adalah kerana screen nya yg tlh rosak.yg kedua disebabkan saiznye yg gabak besar,sgt menyukarkan sy mengangkut nye ke sana ke mari.dan yang ketiga sbb mak sy nak belikan sy laptop baru...huhu..

oleh itu,si dia telah pergi ke kedai dengan harapan memulihkan semula screen yg telah jahanam itu..dan akhirnye laptop itu mampu berfungsi seperti sediakala.namun,malang tidak berbau.laptop yg baru dibaiki itu telah dipijak sesuka hati diluar batas pemikiran sedar..makanya,lcd itu telah crack buat kesekian kali nye..so,sudah lebih sebulan laptop tu disembunyikan dibucu bilik..tgk habuk td,macam lebih setahun xusik..tihihi..=))

so,abg saya nak ambik n baiki laptop tersebut..sy pun bergegas ke rumah sang die yg disayangi..namun,menurut firasat sy,sang die sengaja menghidupkan api dalam hati ni..so,masa die pass laptop tersebut,die xperasan yg sy belum pun sempat menyambutnya..maka,terjatuh dan terjunamlah lptop yg maha berat itu tepat mencederakan jari tengah kaki kiri saya..memula,ingtkan tade pape..smpai je kat kolej,biru!!!xleh nk pijak pun..siksa gila nk g mandi td tau!!that's the 'blue' story...

nampak x blue ring kat jari tengah tu..saket gile masa nak turun tangga..cane nk OSCE ni..sembuh la wahai kaki~~

finish!!

esok adalah anniversary sy dan sang die yg disayangi ke-3..sy cuma ingatkan die,but then die kata,'ah,buat apa nk sambut anniversary2 nihxde mknenye.'..so,sy sgt tidak mengharapkan apa2 drpd sang die yg disayangi..alih2,masa ribut taufan melanda kat rumah die td tu tibe2 die campak something..that was the 'crystal' comes into my life...sangat tragis..sy sedih ni...

ni pun saya bukak masa da sampai kat bilik..huhu,sangat terharu..dulu pernah ada,tp..jangan dikenang kisah yg lama~~

everything went so fast..i cant even imagine if he left me out there..because he once asked me to go out and never return back..but everytime i tried to stepped out,he mumbling something that sounds to me like."oh my love,please stop and come back to me.love me for me..".haha,perasan!!

after some times,his eldest sister get me and we talk..sgt syahdu..she made me to think..she even dont go to any parties..even sang die yg disayangi adalah adik nye,she try to be nice to me t0o~~

even the 'blue' makes me sigh for the pain now,but the 'crystal' makes me smile for the rest of my life!!thanx sang-die-yg-disayangi!!

im sorry...we both need time to heal..i'll pray the best for you and please pray the best for me t0o..for all,i love you~~

cantik kan..first time die beli benda2 mcm ni,tanpa sy menemani..tQ abg~

...mood jiwang tamat...

.::kekasihku::.

padamu kuharap

kau hadir dalam hariku

agarnya kau tahu betapa kucinta padamu...

setiap masa

seolah ada di sisi

kasih padamu takkan pernah padam

sayangku hanya engkau di hati

jiwaku ini kosong tanpa pelukanmu

oh belaianmu...

kasih kita ditakdirkan

bersama takkan engkau ku persiakan

walau terkadang hatimu dah terusik olehku

selagi ada nyawa seluruh daya

kan ku pastikan kau gembira

segala cinta dan saat bahagia

oh ibu...ke akhir hayatku...

by:azzam idola kecil

creditted to google image

as i'm far down in Cheras,waiting for the exam just in a few days coming,i give this big hug and cuddle through the air to my beloved and undying love materials - Umie and mak with lots of love to both of you..thank you for giving me a chance to live and raised me up very well...

Umie: walaupun Kekti xtinggal dengan umie,the bond and connectedness-feeling in me and you cannot be denied..you know why?because you gave me uncounted prays and love through all this years..really,at the moment i'm writing this,the crystal balls has fallen out onto my lap for missing you..(T_T)

Mak: we've been through all sorrow and joy together..and im pretty sure that you're kind of very tough and has limitless capabilities to care on others..i adore u and i love you for raising me up very well..even though you hardly show it,but i can feel your love surrounding me.strong enough that i can believe.and you hold me together.always~~

happy mother's day Umie..mak..

i love u two with all my heart till my last breath..may Allah bless your life now and then..ameen~~

.::hi-tea farewell party::.

ikan bilis apa yang mempunyai kepala yangbesar??

teka dulu tau,baru scroll down ke bawah utk tgk jawapan..

last weekend (Sunday-2nd May10) my classmate and I were attending our final year farewell hi-tea party...it was held at Swiss Garden Kuala Lumpur,Jln Pudu..not much to say,the party was FUN!!a lot of jokes..a lot of puzzles(prepared by MC yg sangat kreatip)..=))

a lot of memories to hold...

there i am,in the black dress and maroon scarf..we captured a photo with the surprise birthday cake and farewell cheese cake..

this is US,the seventeen of us.has been caricatured..which 1 was me??even i can't predict myself at the first glance..ok la,im in blue scarf,in the second line and second from the left!!anyway,that was superb~~

ada satu lagi surprise yang kitorg dapat during the hi-tea..Kak Jenny bought us a special choc delight from coffee bean..delicious!thank you kak!!!love you and wish you the best in life~

this is Kak Jenny...our lecturer and good friend!!=))

haa...ingat lagi x teka-teki yang org bagi mula2 tadi?da dapat jawapan dah??

jawapan die - ikan bilis pakai helmet..wakakak..(^_^)v