.::the horrible car crashed::.

Last Monday was my first time to be in Batu Pahat, as I'm following my eldest brother and his chomeyl wife plus little cute prince Shafiq Nazhan utk daftar diri as a staff in one of the university kat situ..and we just get back home in Kajang on the next day..

masa on d way nak balik,one of my friend text me and ask samada I nak join die pergi visit our old friend (kawan masa sekolah dulu) who was sick in HKL or not..and I agreed as I really wants to be with my friend since I sgt merindui mereka..and we set to meet up at HKL on Wednesday..

when the day comes,I pun keluar rumah about 10 in the morning and heading to Desa Baiduri to pick up Syatila just to accompany me..kitorg smpai HKL about 1pm and it was fun to meet them it again..i mean Anie and Faiz..we do chat a bit about the past and a bit about each current doing...everyone has grown up really well and amazingly there's some of our schoolmates who had been married...jealous I..calon pun masih samar2..T_T

after visiting hours is over, I planned to have further chit-chat with Anie, tapi masa tgh2 jln,she lost our path..she get into another direction and I just having a nice lunch with Syatila at Station 1..lepas da puas I menghabiskan duit die (eee,teruk nye I), I pun hantar la Syatila pulang...

like everyone said,cerah xselalunye sampai ke petang,ke mcm mana tah.tap lebih kurang la tu bunyik nye...lepas da happy2 tu datang la bala pulak membontoti I..I nak balik rumah kat Prima Saujana and mmg da dekat sgt da pun dgn rumah, suddenly I was bumped into horrible car crashed with some kind of stupid van...

I was in the fast lane and this stupid van from siput lane tiba2 masuk lane I..it was ok to change the lane..but it was clearly to state that the van driver is stupid as he make it real super slow..no,its not slow,instead he drove his van just right on the line between the two lane...I honked him but pity him,he was deaf!!he don't move and in super fast meter..100km/h..sama je kelajuan dgn kete2 kat depan pun..cuma si stupid tu je yg stupidly masuk depan I..

at last ni lah jadi nye...


tgh tu teruk sbb betul2 kne bucu van and die dalam posisi nak masuk lane I and I pulak da pusingkan steering ke kiri sikit yg konon2 nye nk mengelak dr van stupid tu...I tekan break pun da lambat n dgn klajuan yg super tu,I pun xterkata...terasa mcm main bumper car masa accident tu..alhamdulillah I xde kecederaan berat..cuma proximal ankle I jela yg terseliuh cket plus bengkak kat 2 jari kaki as a result from tekan break kuat...and of course,it wa very traumatic...

i xtau nak call sape instead of Syatila to come and see me..while waiting for him to come,call man tow kete g IPD Kajang and i made a police report..si siput the driver van tu blah dulu sbb die bawak budak sekolah and nak hantar before gelap..xtau la samada die pergi report ke x..sbb police xde call I pun..I tau,kalu ikut law,I mesti kne fine punye sbb I dok blakang..tp I tetap xpuas ati ngan siput ina tu..pakcik tua!!!Cina tu sendiri tau dia salah n xberani nk bcakap dgn I..walaupun at first,he try to show off his "lelaki"ness dgn I..jgn harap..I know how to drive and I was in the right position...

lepas da settle semua,Syatila sent me back...I called Jojo (the owner of the car.my second brother) to ask him what to do..he settled everything the day after and we still waiting for the workshop to repair the car..my eldest brother(dia outstation kat Pahang) pun risau...kesian die..I hope everything will be fine and back to normal again...sy sangat trauma and really pray to Allah so that such incident won't ever happen again to me or any of my family members..it was creepy and horrible experience to hold...

p/s: good for me to learn on how to drive slower...

.::return::.

each sentence in the essay,will meet it's full stop..

everything was solved and has return to the normal state..

alhamdulillah..

.::the craps you create::.

some people might find easy for them to express their feeling and opinion as they wish and like..but it isn't so much suit to my style of expressing my emotions.normally I would go and find 1 trusted people of mine and then I will start to tell everything plus all the tears..ehee~~~

because of ignorance of the issue, it gives me deeper wound in the end of the day as I won't talk about my feeling to people.and the troublemaker,won't let me live happily as they really hate my way..I don't know why...


and most of the time I think I don't need to explain the reason for my action..because,for the certain thing it wasn't happened due to my wrongdoing..it is because people don't like me..so,was it my problem to solve it on behalf of THEIR hateness???

hey,out there..if you think that you don't like me,I HATE you either..
for those yg xtau apa2,don't judge.keep your mouth shut.if you cant resist from talking about me,ask me yourself.I'm not like you,telling people all the waste and craps...I won't tell you as I think it is none of your business!!

p/s:sometimes,kesedihan dalam hati ni xada siapa yg tau..rumah terbakar,org blh panggil bomba utk padamkan api tu..kalau hati?

.::something that I missed for the mean time::.

since my last paper as a student last June,I think I wasn't that much productive at home..I'm not a free flying young bird anymore since I was bound to my new task-nanny thingy..yes,it was fun undeniably..taking care of my little nephew Nazhan ain't boring at all and it gave me a new kind of experience in further understand baby's need and language..


down deep in my heart,I miss my list-to-do thing..I love to go out and see people's doing and going back home only when I'm feeling to.I could stay in a coffee house up to 8 hours watching people while surfing internet..its a waste isn't it?but I do not mind as my heart pond of it rather than being at a proper place but have to face and deal with someone who I don't wish to be with..


oh ya,could you imagine.there is 'money-eye' people in our society,keeping a relationship nice and good if they are bundled with money and things..and this kind of people too would suddenly terminate the relationship just because there's nothing more you could give to them..huh!never ever sincere of what they're doing..



syatila always remind me on this type of people but ignorance always be my first choice.."jangan senang sangat bagi duit kat org,bila awak xada duit nanti awak akan faham maksud saya"..I gave away everything I could and she's doing good to me.and when I have nothing to give,she throw me a harsh words..yet,she beat me up..what the world served~~


anyway,I don't mean to brag over here.or asking you to kill that person for me or what..hoho..just a few nice words for Allah to open her heart and make it even softer.sometimes I got jealous of other's but just in a time I realize that I have all that I want too~~