.::la tahzan::.

Kenapa aku selalu di uji??

Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam2 kan??

Kenapa ujian yang aku dapat ni berat sangat??

Kenapa aku rasa frust sgt ni??

Bagaimana harus aku hadapi masalah ni??

Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ni??

Aku dah xtahan!!

Kepada siapa aku harus berharap??

and sometimes, we even asked more questions that may be hard to answer by any..

but remember that Allah have known His creature than any other does...

He answered it in Al-Quran for an ages before we were born yet and only those who were given His blessed knew it..

and surely able to meet the peaceful He gave..

sejak kebelakangan ni,saya selalu bersendirian sampai saya sendiri pun xtau kenapa saya jadi begitu stress..

pic source from google image

friend..

everybody has their very own friends...even they might have a million of friends...

but only those who are lucky will make a true friendship..

1 of my buddy said:

tak akan ada sorang pun manusia dalam dunia ni yang jalan hidupnya xberliku..

bila kita dilanda masalah, jangan sesekali menyalahkan kejadian yang dah berlaku tu..

cuba muhasabah,cari di mana silapnya...

menyesal pada kesalahan yang telah dilakukan,tapi ingat!!

janagn menyesal yang kejadian tu pernah berlaku dalam hidup kita..

hargai nya..

dan yang penting,

jangan sesekali ada "KALAU" dalam hidup ni...

SABAR..

is the most repeated word she told me just now..

when you are trying hard to be patience,it doesn't mean you do not have to take any action..

make a plan and move on exactly like what you've planned...

never deny anyone...

they might be your most helpful person later in life...

thanks all~~~

and tonight i'll try to put an end to all this..

too much assumptions doesn't make a good profit though for me!!!

pray for me...(^_^)")

.::cantik dan tak cantik::.

benda ni maybe korg da biasa baca..

tp nak jgk post kat cni sbb nak bg seseorg tu sedar!!

hahaha...amek ko nk sgt..aku post kat cni jgk..

sbb prangai ko mcm ni~~

Kalau perempuan cantik pendiam

lelaki akan kata: wow!ciri2 isteri idaman...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik pendiam

Lelaki akan kata: tak reti berkomunikasi agaknyer...

Kalau perempuan cantik berbuat jahat

Lelaki akan kata: mst ada krisis nih...kesiannyer...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik berbuat jahat

Lelaki akan kata: dah la tak lawa,perangai plak mcm sial!!

Kalau perempuan cantik menolong lelaki yg kesusahan

Lelaki akan kata: wow!heroin sejati...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik menolong lelaki yg kesusahan

Lelaki akan kata: hmm...taktik nak ngorat la tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik dpt lelaki handsome

Lelaki akan kata: ok la...bagai pinang d belah dua...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik dpt lelaki handsome

Lelaki akan kata: kesian...mst dah kena bomoh lelaki tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik d tinggal kekasih

Lelaki akan kata: buta kayu btol mamat tu!!

Kalau perempuan tak cantik d tinggal kekasih

Lelaki akan kata: patut pon kena reject...

Kalau perempuan cantik bawa BMW

Lelaki akan kata: ntah dato' mana bela ni...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik bawa BMW

Lelaki akan kata: mesti anak org kaya ni

Kalau perempuan cantik menuang air ke gelas lelaki

Lelaki akan kata: wah...caringnyer...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik menuang air ke gelas lelaki

Lelaki akan kata: eleh,gedik la tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik bersedih hati

Lelaki akan kata: don't worry,i will make u happy forever...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik bersedih hati

Lelaki akan kata: ckit2 nangis!!gembeng tol..ngade2 la...

Kalau perempuan cantik pandai masak

Lelaki akan kata: dah la lawa,pandai masak plak tu...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik pandai masak

Lelaki akan kata: ntah sedap ke tak tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik main2 miskol

Lelaki akan kata: syoknye!!rindu la tu...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik main2 miskol

Lelaki akan kata: ko ni takde keje lain ke??!sibuk ni tau tak!!

Kalau perempuan cantik hantar email hari2

Lelaki akan kata: sukenyer...!!

Kalau perempuan tak cantik hantar2 email

Lelaki akan kata: asyik2 email dia...boring!

bukan nk kutuk kaum adam,sama jgk ngan pompuan pn sbenarnye..

so,be fair and honest..

jgn mainkan perasaan org..

oklah..da nak tdo dulu..

to all my friends yg nak exam,wish u all the best..

may your efforts get paid...

with Allah's will,u'll pass..

ameen..

.::when we can see others::.

hard to tell that ourselves kinda selfish one..always him as the most special person until he walks away then I can see the kindness of others around me..they never leave me alone even when im in happy or down...

then I realized, I've neglect them for so long...im sorry~~

now I can see clearly who are always standing right with me...thanks~~

its been a while from the last post that i wrote about my life..exception for those lyrics..its not that i've nothing to be posted but no words may best describes the whole thing i've went through all this while..the best part of these despair moment of my life is, I still have those people who are always being by my side when im in need..especially to my Anie and my two little girl,supporting me in bright and darkness!!

i need no such long advice nor a shoulder to cry on..because all of us have our own business to manage as well...only a few minutes we've spent a day would be enough for me...

to my beloved Umie, even though i din mention any to you,you looks like being so much aware of my pain...thanks to ym video call..looking at your lovely face fade my burdens away...

not to mention,it is,yes,all students regardless of what field you are in,students are always have a reason to make themselves forget on those petty things..its weird for me when I find myself free with lots of time to rest,I hate it..it is not what I'm used to be before...where I always find it tough to go through lately..i hate leisure time,utmost!!but running away is not the best way to free myself from a mess!!

hope this coming weekend,my plan to follow my buddies for convoy to Sg. Gabai will not be cancelled...

to my tears,please keep yourself locked in the place..i dun need you to clean up my sclera everyday.. I do have an eye mo solution if my eyes get dry!!!

sometimes,I don't really understand why should I laugh out loud when my heart broke...

whatever it is, he did made me smile and cheers once!!

terima kasih~~

.::harga diri::.

di dirimu aku menemukan

yang mencintaiku

yang menyayangiku

di dirimu aku ketakutan

kau biarkan ku

kau tinggalkanku

bila kamu tak lagi denganku

ku tak tahu apa tuk jalani hidupku

bila memang kau pergi dariku

ku tak ada lagi di dunia ini

mengertikah kau siang malamku

pandang aku pandanglah hatiku

aku tak mampu melangkah tanpamu

bila kamu tak lagi denganku

ku tak tahu apa tuk jalani hidupku

bila memang kau pergi dariku

ku tak ada lagi di dunia ini

bukan ku tak punya harga diri

tapi dirimu begitu berarti

kaulah nafasku engkau harga diriku

mengerti aku

bila kamu tak lagi denganku

ku tak tahu apa tuk jalani hidupku

bila memang kau pergi dariku

ku tak ada lagi di dunia ini

-wali band-

.::under estimated::.

bila org layan kita baik,kita ingt dia suka kita..

biar ape pun kita buat,konon nye mesti die xkesah..

tapi hakikat nye??

xbanyak org yg jujur dalam dunia ni,termasuklah aku sendiri..

tapi ape niat org tu sbnr nye?

bila kita nk buat something,selalu dia ada utk bg advice

saye xperlukan nasihat awak tu..

sbb sy tau,awk bukan bersungguh pun nak jaga saya

apa niat awak sebenarnye??

kite selalu nak yg terbaik..

tp pernah ke kita jadi yg terbaik utk org lain??

kite selalu berdoa utk kebaikan

tapi selalu jugak kita lupekan Dia...

nape asek mengeluh ni...

tak elok sungguh perangai~~

haish!!

arini da daftar utk nursing dinner..

hope it will be the ever happiest last dinner i've attend throughout this 4 years program..

insya-Allah..

.::get well soon::.

dah 4 hari demam baru nak pegi klinik??

kan da kena marah dgn doc..

eleh,tp bg MC sehari je p0n..

next time tggu 4bulan k..

smbil menyeringai..

nasib baik die nampak baik...

so redha je la...

mcm biasa..

PCM, Maxolon ngan Dulcolax..ooops!!

ada masalah pembuangan juge..

so alang2 tu mintak je lah..

bukan bayar pn..

smlm da cuti..

arini dpt lah bekerja dgn sempurna...

lgpn mlm tadi

injected with high-dosage unbearable spirit..wink2

oohhh

da sehat

walaupun still ada mslh olfactory and taste..

its occay

start to think tentang research!!

research74x~~~

\("(^_^)")/

.::janganlah::.

for 6 days,i never asked

but i know you are somewhere in the world

for 6 days,i never asked

but i know you are healthy

for 6 days,i never asked to come

because you did promise me to come by Sunday

~~on Sunday~~

i do not even ask you anything yet

but

you said you at home

you feeling bad with all those flu and cold

you said you cannot make it...

tQ

for made my day..

do not worry..i did understand you very much!!

.::sendiri::.

Saujana-Sendiri

terasa tersisih sendiri di pinggir sana

kau tiada lagi disampingku berbicara menyalakan api

tika kau disampingku tutur mu ku anggap bisu

tingkahmu untukku sumbang bagi diriku

harapanmu padaku tidak kuendahkan

nasihatmu madu penyembuh luka

pabila bersamamu hilang dukaku

lewat kusedari nilai cintamu

pabila kau tiada lagi disisiku

belaianmu kini masih terasa

restu darimu membawa ku ke syurga

lewat ku sedari nilai cintamu

pabila kau tiada lagi disisiku

andai dapat ku kembali mengubah yang terjadi

pasti xkan ku ulangi walau hanya sekali

namun hanya doa yang bisa ku kirimkan

ku kan cuba tempuh hidup sendiri

kerna kita kan akhirnya sendiri...

p/s: missing my umie, abah, mak and ahmad syatila....=(((

.::love heals the wound::.

what LOVE is actually all about??

it is not about taking something from, but giving something to..

it is not making something into, but letting something to be..

it is not about MY wish, but always be OUR wish

nape tajuk xsama dengan entry pun??=)

i were raised as the only kid in a family...

never share things,never give things and always be "i want it!!"

love

always made me out of sound mind

i want it to be that way

i push it to be that way

for me, people's expectation is the most gratitude

always neglect the other party's feeling & thinking

and you never realize it unless when you were punished

if you were happy

be at moderate

if you were gloom

be at moderate too

jangan sesekali menyesal

it is fated

go on with your life

there must be something better for you in future for sure!!

mistakes is always when it is the first

on the second, it is called STUPID...

abg,i learnt from it..you know the whole story but you never be in my foot-steps...tapi org xpernah salahkan sesiapa..i know,we are healing...

we are here for each other,i knew it..be strong,jaga kesihatan..

we could be separated thousand miles away but the soul is just next to each...

forget the past..let love heals the wound..live the life to the fullest~~

.::a message::.

"kalau malam ni nak org teman g makan,bgtau lah..

org datang ambik sol.."

(^o^)"))

xbalas..

"kalau pnat sgt,xpe..weekend nnt jelah org bwk

sol jenjalan..rest=)"

(^o^)"))

sorry~~

"org xsuka sol tension2,senyum tu kan sedekah..

mlm nt on skype ye..tc..=)"

p/s: saya harap "die"(tukang message) xbaca blog saya...sbb sy xnak gangguan dr mane2 pihak buat masa sekarang..sy tau,ramai yg baik..very concern about me..thanks a lot dear...

but

im not ready yet...

.::mid night feeling::.

i miss u

sorry for being too much "dependent & immature"

i've tried to focus on my work

but i couldn't

help me out!!

i miss u..

is that i'm not forgiven forever??

.::nothing is wrong::.

Kebelakangan ni, my entry seems to be in the mood of kesedihan and frustration maybe. what has happened to me?? nobody knows except me myself and the Only God. yesterday, I've read one article about types of burden from Islamic aspect. The writer divided it into 4 from the lightest to the toughest started from:

1. wealth

2. relatives & neighbors

3. a son

4. soul-partner

kalau lah beban tu boleh digambarkan??

Penulis tu explained very nicely the reason kenapa susunan penderitaan manusia ni macam ni.. semakin tinggi tahap burden (no. 4 tu paling berat) yang kita tanggung, semakin banyak masalah yang kita kena hadapi dan ia turut mengganggu-gugat perkara2 yang lain. contohnya, kalau kita ada mslh jiran yg suka mengumpat or jaga tepi kain orang, kita akan jadi tension and lama2 tahap kerja kita boleh jadi merosot. dah ganggu punca rezeki keluarga kan...

macam tu jugak lah, kalau pasangan hidup kita curang atau buat hal, hati mula terganggu. akal xdapat berfungsi dengan rasional. so, mula timbul konflik dalam keluarga, jiran asyik dok mengata. sanak sedara xnak mengaku keturunan sbb kes cerai berai ni xpernah berlaku dalam family kononnya. pastu ,mula lah xdatang kerja. ambik EL....

Sbnrnye kat cni, reason saya nak kongsi benda ni sbb kebelakangan ni saya selalu rasa tertekan... kalau kita tak buka minda kita, tertumpu pada masalah kita sorg je, sampai bila2 pn xkan puas hati. padahal ramai lagi yang ada masalah yg lebih berat and they all tau source mana yang perlu dituju dan apa yg terbaik perlu dilakukan so that tak lah hidup dalam keadaan miserable sepanjang hayat kan...

Ok lah. kepada diri sendiri and semua yg baca entry ni, cuba letakkan semula semua hal pada tempatnya & not forgetting, it must be prioritize. so kita nampak apa yang penting dan patut didahulukan.

jaga diri and smile always.

sometimes, kita kena buat sesuatu untuk menggembirakan diri... and saya tengah mencuba!!!