.::surat untuk kayangan::.

Dear hubby,

its been such a bad day for me today..my boss had mis-interpret the shout i just posted in fb wall yesterday..she felt disappointed and very angry with the shout(instead of me)..but i swear dear,i don't mean those words for her.even though i have witness to stand for me,they couldn't say a thing when she throwing such a nasty words to me.because,you know.when she's mad nobody can try to defend unless when she's cool edi..

1 of my colleage ask me to make clear of the thing with her..but,you know me well rite?i'm not that kind of person who's really mind of what do people think of me..because for me,it's a waste to spend my time on someting i

eby,i really feeling unwell.i want ur big warm hug and calming chest to rely on..i want to cry so that u can cool me off..i love working here.but i don't find peacefullness in my doing.

even you are my hubby,but we rarely could see (walaupun sy xtau pn sape awak masa ni) to pamper each other...so that i hope my worry-some may get away as the letter reached you..i'll waiting for you to come back.

then kita pergi jalan2 and as life is JUST short,please come back soon ya sweetheart...

.::penangan merempit::.

kisah gaji ni pun da satu hal..aku xtau apa masalah diorang yang nak melambat2 kan paymet we all yang temporary and trainee ni..kalau gaji korang,lambat sehari pun da membebel kan.kitorg da 15 hari kot.bukan mintak duit ko pun.tu duit aku kot..haish..nak cerita kisah sakit ati ngan company ni,xtau bila abes menaip.huhu...so,cukup lah smpai sini je..

helmi (office-mate) nk pinjam external dvd player..seingat aku,benda tu ada kat umah kat Jln Kuching tu..dari pukul 6ptg smpai 7.30mlm aku geledah umah tu.bukan semata2 mencari brg tu je.siap belek2 lg brg2 masa study dulu..sgt rindu~

sbb da pnat sgt,aku pun keluar lpas maghrib..where should i head to?back home?my heart don't feel like to go back yet..i rode my motorcycle to kedai mamak Desa Baiduri..having my dinner there until 8.30pm..what am i doing there?actually,i miss him..

sblm balik,aku lalu depan umah dia.dia ada!!ding3~

tiba2 dtg idea.nak mintak camera lah.tunggu punya tunggu tetiba anak buah dia (along) lalu kat tmpat aku tunggu tu..so,aku mintak tlg dia carikan camera aku atas almari pak andak die.tp xjumpa.so,she asked me just to meet him and ask myself.she'll be there to accompany me if i'm afraid..but i refused to see him.no,not because of i hate him.but i'm afraid of being insult (hu?betul ke word ni?) for i still love him..i don't know why.

so,after telling his niece that i need the camera before i leave for Kelantan by the end of this month,i leave..and,i can see him staring at me from his house.and looks like he do wants to talk to me as well.(walaupun cam ayat perasan,biarlah.lalala~)

nak dijadikan cerita,aku pun balik ikut federal..tiba2 moto meragam.jadi cam masa aku nak g lepak ngan kawan kat TTDI Jaya 2minggu lepas..ngam2 sampai kat laluan moto tepi plaza tol 5posen tu,terus mati enjin..xmo idup2 da..so,tunda la masuk dalam area plaza tol tu..disebabkan aku xada sape2 yang aku knal kat situ EXCEPT him,aku pun call die.lucky me he wants to come..surprise me,he know the point and he fixed the lose plug.in just 20minutes,aku da boleh gerak balik subang.we chit-chatting all the way sampai kat mid valley sbb kat situ je ada tmpat utk dia nk u-turn..nak aje ckp,'i'll miss u'..haha..

smpai je kat pintu gerbang selangor kaler kuning tu,BANG!!!!!!!!

bunyi kaca pecah kuat gila kot.tau2 aku dah terduduk atas jalan yg kat laluan motor tu.i try to wake up myself.xboleh.aku nangis and ada org tlg aku berdiri kat tepi jalan.ramai gila kot org benti tolong.thanx Malaysians.kebetulan ada polis traffic lalu.diorang bagi tisu.pelik lak aku.buat apa?banyak gila.diorg kata ada darah mengalir dari tangan aku..huhu...banyak nye..terus pekak telinga aku.xdgr apa yg org ckp da..diorg tman aku g kat bus stop(safer place),kat dpan cket.in my head,he is the only person i can hook up on by now.i asked him to come again.mmg la dia ada bebel kata jauh la nak pusing balik and all.tp dia still datang.em,nape la aku salu sgt nyusahkan org..im sorry.i don't mean to do this.

bila dia smpai,dia pun tkejut tgk darah kat tgn aku.so,die smbung bebel lagi..dari td aku rasa sgt2 sakit.tp bila dia ada kat dpan mata,aku tgk dia je kot.lupe sgale sakit.die tgk lutut aku.sbb baju kurung aku tekoyak.dia kata kne jahit ni.aku dgr sipi2 je.and aku xlayan pun.aku tgk dia je..bila lagi.ni je kot masanye..=))

dia suh aku relax,ilangkan gabra dulu sblm we all gerak balik..kaki aku terseliuh kat lutut.tketar2 aku jalan..mngalir tiba2 air mata.dia lap air mata aku...sgt rindu dia~

tp leh kawal diri lagi..kita kan kawan.not more than that.and aku mintak tlg dr kau pun atas dasar kawan..dia teman aku balik.tgn aku cramp.yela,bayangkan luka kena angin kuat masa bawak motor..mengalir lagi la air mata aku kan..huhuuu..minah rempit da tersadung..inilah penangan merempit.moto pun tau pnat..sampai da ltih nk bawak aku kot.sbb tu dia tbaring atas jalan...ngeh3~

byk dia psan kat aku.yg aku dpt tgkap,msg die suruh aku hati2..ok,insya-Allah i will.tp kalau kat kawasan umah kau,maybe aku akan 'ter'lupa ur pesanan.kalau x,xadalah alasan for me to see u..walaupun sakit,sanggup kot...weeeeeeeeee~~

yang paling aku xpaham,nape aku hulur tgn salam ngan die?like we used to,in our old days??

and him!!nape die cam tunggu aku salam die??(ke,die sambut sbb xmo malukan aku?)tp die tunggu..nk je aku ckp,"jgn tinggal aku lagi boleh x??"tp control2..

dia kata:kalau ada pape,msg je kt inbox fb.aku dgn bengapnye tanye.'boleh ke sy msg awak?kite bkn friend kat fb pn.'..haha,bong0k.PM mmg la blh..adoi..die kata die mmg saje xnak block aku dr profile die..anyway,aku harap kau xbuat benda2 pelik yg menyebabkan aku meroyan xtentu arah occay..sbb,aku stalker kau yang tegar!walaupun im d one yg remove ko dr friend aku..ngee~

sampai arini(post day-3),luka aku still sakit..and lutut aku still x betul2 lagi..nak g mengurut..tapi kat mana nak carik..special for post-accident massage..i really need 1.badan rasa cam lebam2 and sakit..anyway,xtau nk classify happy ke,sedih for this incident..haha,sakit da Soleha ni..

tp tu xbermakna,aku xboleh pergi SACC mall utk jumpa Shahir..he's here for ABPBH roadtour.after zohor nt,insya-Allah aku gerak..Shahir,tunggu saye!!!

.::apa lagi ni Soleha::.

ada org tanye aku.

ni 1st time kerja ke?

aah..

nodding and I can read that he's surprised.

dalam pale aku:alien ke aku ni slama ni.umur da 23 baru nk start kije.tp,aku bru je grad.ok kot.lantak lah..

bila org tanye:

awak suka dok umah ke,suke jenjalan?

with my facial expression: dua2.i'll be any which depends on who's by my side.

soalan seterusnye:

mana best.study ke,kerja?

dua2 juge..lalala~

study best sbb tym class xlah strict mcm kerja.then blh pergi lepak bila2 masa saje sbb kawan2 always there.tp tym exam-sape suke?

kerja pulak best sbb thrill kot.its all on ur wise thinking decision.tp yg trase sgt sengal bila dah mcm robot.g kije 8-5.pstu balik.dok diam2.nk g jln,nk pergi mne n dgn sape?ada kengkawan yg ksian kn diri ni pun,duk jauh kot.nk lepak pn,xberbaloi.dak opis,diorg ada gak ajak join men futsal ngan badminton.aku yg xnak..ke aku yg xreti nk men-so-sial-kan diri..huh.

aku cuma rindu..but really cant live with it.moto hidup skrg:

""buatlah apa pun,asal happy.jgn mengelamun walau sminit.haha""

anyway,

not forgetting.ada la jugak org yg sudi nk tman aku spanjang 4bulan aku dok kat shah alam tu.thanx to Nu'man and Fakrul.malas nak pk apa korg pk.hihi..kalu korg tade,tau x mana moto aku bwk aku?jauh xingat wooo..

xlarat nak list tempat2 yg maha banyak smpai moto pn meletup cdi-nye..haha..thanx3~

smlm aku nek bas,balik klantan.

umi ngan abah kurang sehat.sedih sgt masa dengar suara umi dalam fon mintak aku balik.kalau blh,ari sabtu lagi die nak aku balik.tp ada wedding reception abg Adrian kt Bangi.balik pun da mlm.dgn ujan yg sgt lebat.sorry umie~

and yg happy nye.aku sampai je umah,diorg nampak segar sgt.tinggal batuk2 cket lagi.hope to be here for longer.but got to go back in shah alam.i promise u both my darling-ckup bulan 'kekti' balik semula neh..sedia berkhidmat.

sunyi sgt ke idup aku ni?zarif ada,kak iela ngan jojo pn ada.adek ngan amah ada.umie ngan abah pun salu call.Allah pun ada.apa lagi ni Soleha??

.::nak bukak buku baru::.

Salam tahun baru and salam semangat baru uols..

Fuh2..banyak nye habuk kat sini..da berkulapuk..eeuwww!tu menandakan,sy da lama gila xdtg jenguk dashboard blog sy ni..bukan da malas nak berkongsi cerita.tp banyak sgt benda berlaku smpai nk capture dengan tulisan sgt2 lah xsempat..hanya org2 terdekat ngan saya je tahu every-single-thing that’ve happened to me.especially to my dear adek2 and lovely-umie..i heart all of u darlingssss~

As they say: “Let bygone be bygone”

He had chosen to break up and go on with our own path without attaching to each other parties. Ever again..and sy xada choice lain even though it hurt me like a thousand stabs of a sword in the heart.. it’s true, I’ll answer people that I’m tough enough and doesn’t care as he left. And the real truth is, just don’t ask me more or else, you have to attend me until I finish with the tears matter.done!

I really love into business. But like my umie said,I’m not that ‘kind of business’ person. Huh! With the stone-head and rebel-attitude of me says: just do what you wanna do. Otherwise, you’ll be in terrific regret..haha,macam kanak2 xcukup umur kan ckp macam ni. just imagine, there’s a giant genie popped up in front of your face and talk to you.karOt!

Sedar x sedar, sy da kerja kat Transwater,Glenmarie ni for almost 4months. Yela, it’s better for me rather than not doing something good kan– xproductive nye hidup.xsuke.xsuke. baru2 ni tibe2 dtg smangat nak start bisnes online. Ada la juga bcakap dgn beberapa org kawan.

Some of them said:
-Business can’t be parallel done with any other kind of job in the whole world. take it serious and be serious with it. Only then you’ll succeed.
-If it’s just an online business, plus I’ve just started with the thing, make it relax. Do it as a side –income first. Jangan benti kerja lagi.

What I think is:
-Betul. Sebab nak main ngan IT-thingy ni, sy bukan cekap sgt lagi. So, really takes longer time. Kalau kerja 8 to 5, memang xsempat lah nk update and pantau everything. Mmg la kat tempat kije ada access internet, tp xbest la pulak kan kalau buat kerja lain masa working hours. Haish,jujur la kononnye ni. Tp bukak jugak kan.lalala~tp,what if online bz ni xbg pape income?nak makan apa??haaaa..
-Statement kedua ni ada ramai jugak yg ckap kat sy. And agak betul jugak. Kalau pandai arrange masa semua, insya-Allah the bz will go smooth. The important thing is, I have to be tough enough! And the fact is, I was just tough enough occay~hehe..

peace!!

So, after this I won’t say much about my relationship-thingy until I recover and ready to share in here. Just support me whatever I do. And please remind me if I look like slipping from the right course..ur care is much appreciated!

-xoxo-

.::the horrible car crashed::.

Last Monday was my first time to be in Batu Pahat, as I'm following my eldest brother and his chomeyl wife plus little cute prince Shafiq Nazhan utk daftar diri as a staff in one of the university kat situ..and we just get back home in Kajang on the next day..

masa on d way nak balik,one of my friend text me and ask samada I nak join die pergi visit our old friend (kawan masa sekolah dulu) who was sick in HKL or not..and I agreed as I really wants to be with my friend since I sgt merindui mereka..and we set to meet up at HKL on Wednesday..

when the day comes,I pun keluar rumah about 10 in the morning and heading to Desa Baiduri to pick up Syatila just to accompany me..kitorg smpai HKL about 1pm and it was fun to meet them it again..i mean Anie and Faiz..we do chat a bit about the past and a bit about each current doing...everyone has grown up really well and amazingly there's some of our schoolmates who had been married...jealous I..calon pun masih samar2..T_T

after visiting hours is over, I planned to have further chit-chat with Anie, tapi masa tgh2 jln,she lost our path..she get into another direction and I just having a nice lunch with Syatila at Station 1..lepas da puas I menghabiskan duit die (eee,teruk nye I), I pun hantar la Syatila pulang...

like everyone said,cerah xselalunye sampai ke petang,ke mcm mana tah.tap lebih kurang la tu bunyik nye...lepas da happy2 tu datang la bala pulak membontoti I..I nak balik rumah kat Prima Saujana and mmg da dekat sgt da pun dgn rumah, suddenly I was bumped into horrible car crashed with some kind of stupid van...

I was in the fast lane and this stupid van from siput lane tiba2 masuk lane I..it was ok to change the lane..but it was clearly to state that the van driver is stupid as he make it real super slow..no,its not slow,instead he drove his van just right on the line between the two lane...I honked him but pity him,he was deaf!!he don't move and in super fast meter..100km/h..sama je kelajuan dgn kete2 kat depan pun..cuma si stupid tu je yg stupidly masuk depan I..

at last ni lah jadi nye...


tgh tu teruk sbb betul2 kne bucu van and die dalam posisi nak masuk lane I and I pulak da pusingkan steering ke kiri sikit yg konon2 nye nk mengelak dr van stupid tu...I tekan break pun da lambat n dgn klajuan yg super tu,I pun xterkata...terasa mcm main bumper car masa accident tu..alhamdulillah I xde kecederaan berat..cuma proximal ankle I jela yg terseliuh cket plus bengkak kat 2 jari kaki as a result from tekan break kuat...and of course,it wa very traumatic...

i xtau nak call sape instead of Syatila to come and see me..while waiting for him to come,call man tow kete g IPD Kajang and i made a police report..si siput the driver van tu blah dulu sbb die bawak budak sekolah and nak hantar before gelap..xtau la samada die pergi report ke x..sbb police xde call I pun..I tau,kalu ikut law,I mesti kne fine punye sbb I dok blakang..tp I tetap xpuas ati ngan siput ina tu..pakcik tua!!!Cina tu sendiri tau dia salah n xberani nk bcakap dgn I..walaupun at first,he try to show off his "lelaki"ness dgn I..jgn harap..I know how to drive and I was in the right position...

lepas da settle semua,Syatila sent me back...I called Jojo (the owner of the car.my second brother) to ask him what to do..he settled everything the day after and we still waiting for the workshop to repair the car..my eldest brother(dia outstation kat Pahang) pun risau...kesian die..I hope everything will be fine and back to normal again...sy sangat trauma and really pray to Allah so that such incident won't ever happen again to me or any of my family members..it was creepy and horrible experience to hold...

p/s: good for me to learn on how to drive slower...

.::mute::.

senyap bukan bermakna mengalah!!

i was in Bangi (at my sis Ain's rent house) with my little nephew Nazhan..we are here only for a week,then insya Allah we'll move to a more comfortable and convenient place in Prima Saujana, Kajang for almost 2 months..

what did i do with all this "nomadic" lifestyle??

im a nanny..full time nanny..hoho..it was fun!!really fun!!

then?

sementara tu,i still have to sit for exam LJM..all nursing students have to sit for this exam as we have to have license to practice before we could be hired in any institutions..this will be held on 23rd June..

then?

my graduation day...yeay!!

on 7th August (Saturday)

xsabar sbb ada someone yg akan datang!!tihihi..

then?

planned to apply for temporary job maybe at clinic or..eemm.

does anyone needs employee to be employ for only 2months before i was called off for the staff nurse post...

anyway..

life at home with new kind of environment.

with beloved peoples around

with new hopes..

wish you will be blessed by god and i will never regret of anything~~

.::transitional phase::.

i hate when i can't hate you~~

p/s: ouch,tersepak kerusi..terkena kat jari kaki yg cedera tuh...ouch!!ouch!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

.::the third::.

orang kata,

critical point for those who were married is after 5 years in relationship.

orang kata,

critical point for those who are in love pulak, is after 3 years in relationship.

emm,

betul kot.

cet..

=))

today is our anniversary for the 3rd year

and there's a lot to tell(if only I wanna..)

joy and laughter

not forgetting pain and cry..

up to yesterday,

we are not g0od though.hoho

sblm ni i da planned dlm kpale otak nk g jenjalan today kununnye

tp cancelled

first:because we're not in a real stable emotions yet

second:esok i OSCE,nak membaca la kununnye

third:kaki i maseh tidak sembuh..

so,i went out ptg td g kua cari card..

ingt senang ke?byk kdai i pergi..semua xmemenuhi citarasa mak taw..ehee

da la dgn kaki terdenc0t2,

seb bek tade pape jadi masa i merempit td..

at last,i jumpa kat POPULAR je..huhu

pastu g membeli belah kt secret recipe cket

plus cuci gambar kat kdai yg ada bluetooth machine tu.

maka bergegas la i g jumpa si dia..

ingtkan die xnak berbaik ngan i

sangkaan i meleset..

mmg la agak dingin and cool...tp xde la ribut2 taufan cm smlm..

alhamdulillah~~

disebabkan smlm die dah campak 'crystal' to me,(refer pada blue vs crystal)

so,arini die just tnye psl study i

and preparation i yg terakhir

harap2 everything will be even smoother day by day..

i hope he'll text me early in the morning tomorrow

to wish me the best of luck..hmm.

and i know umie,mak n abh i sentiasa doakan yg terbaik utk anak die ni..

call kekti esok ye~~(biasa lah,dasar anak yg kedekut kredit)

so,semua yg tgh baca post ni pun

jangan lupa doakan i eh..

maseh,jasamu dikenang

hanya Tuhan yg dapat membalas segala~~

go0d nite every one!!

salam..

.::kekasihku::.

padamu kuharap

kau hadir dalam hariku

agarnya kau tahu betapa kucinta padamu...

setiap masa

seolah ada di sisi

kasih padamu takkan pernah padam

sayangku hanya engkau di hati

jiwaku ini kosong tanpa pelukanmu

oh belaianmu...

kasih kita ditakdirkan

bersama takkan engkau ku persiakan

walau terkadang hatimu dah terusik olehku

selagi ada nyawa seluruh daya

kan ku pastikan kau gembira

segala cinta dan saat bahagia

oh ibu...ke akhir hayatku...

by:azzam idola kecil

creditted to google image

as i'm far down in Cheras,waiting for the exam just in a few days coming,i give this big hug and cuddle through the air to my beloved and undying love materials - Umie and mak with lots of love to both of you..thank you for giving me a chance to live and raised me up very well...

Umie: walaupun Kekti xtinggal dengan umie,the bond and connectedness-feeling in me and you cannot be denied..you know why?because you gave me uncounted prays and love through all this years..really,at the moment i'm writing this,the crystal balls has fallen out onto my lap for missing you..(T_T)

Mak: we've been through all sorrow and joy together..and im pretty sure that you're kind of very tough and has limitless capabilities to care on others..i adore u and i love you for raising me up very well..even though you hardly show it,but i can feel your love surrounding me.strong enough that i can believe.and you hold me together.always~~

happy mother's day Umie..mak..

i love u two with all my heart till my last breath..may Allah bless your life now and then..ameen~~

.::sometimes::.

sometimes...just really sometimes...you wonder what this other person is doing..

if they are thinking about you?

if they worry about you?

you keep wondering what they are doing at this exact moment.

if they are watching a movie or are out with friends.

if they are eating or falling sick.

if they are looking at the same sky and searching for the same falling star to make the very same wish as you do..

if they see a couple walking in the park and remember bout you and times you were walking together,holding hands and laughing just like this couple does.

sometimes you wonder if they are missing you like you miss them.

if they want to talk to you.

if they want to hold you.

if they just want to look into your eyes and find the answer to all the questions they may have in mind.

if they have any..

but then sometimes...just really sometimes...

they do not call you

do not mail you

and do not reply to your text messages

and the only things left for you is this wondering:

don't they miss you at all?

what might keep them so busy that they cannot find a minute..

just one minute to make you feel remembered,cared for,loved?

someone once said that

in each relationship one person always love more

maybe it is true.

there is always someone who loves a bit more.

a bit more passionate.

a bit more strong.

a bit more emotional.

a bit more....

sometimes...maybe not only sometimes..

you are the one who loves more

and then you want to see if they will miss you if you disappear

for a moment

an hour

a day

a week..

you might want to make them wondering.

BUT

what if it does not make any difference for them??

sometimes...just really sometimes...

it is better to stop wondering....

.::pernah x??::.

pernah x u all kena panic attack sebelum ni?

sgt memenatkan

pernah x u all buat salah and then u all nak cuba betulkan keadaan tu,

u all betul2 perlukan support

but then no one yg paham u all

the sad thing,u all xabes2 dipersalahkan atas kesilapan tu..

pernah x u all mintak maaf

tp maaf korg tu di anggap cam sampah je bg org tu?

pernah x u all try guna walau apa cara sekalipun

utk dapatkan semula apa yg korg pernah ada dulu

selepas korg kehilangannya??

pernah x korang geram sgt

sampai the whole body shaking..

pernah x korg rasa

yg korg tgh berada betul2 kat tgh2 persimpangan

and xtau nk decide which 1 is the right way to go..

pernah x u all rasa sesak nafas

padahal korg punye heart rate and respiration rate semua normal..

pernah x u all rasa u all da buat yg terbaik utk semua

tp pd pandangan mata org lain

semua korg buat tu salah

xada yg betul melainkan yg salah belaka...

pernah korg dok dgn org yg syg korg

die tgh sy0k bercerita

bertanya pasal korg,amek berat psl korg

tp dlm kepala otak

dok pk pasal org lain yg korang pernah sayang

and jerit SENYAPLAH!!!! kat dalam hati...

ah,ngar0t..

nk study tp topic respiratory system ni buat I rasa mual

nak tdo!

oh per0t,please benti berbunyik..

.::a girl::.

stupidity

aiyoo..apelah start blog dgn words yg sgt xsopan..

i appoint this to me,myself..

i want u to know

but i cant let you know..

is anyone out there ever feel the same way as i am??

im 23

im old enough to think and decide

im old enough to stand on my point of view

but why the hell

every single thing i did,will be questioned??

is that because im a GIRL??

small n powerless girl to you??

kalau macam tu

u live my life lah..

ambik2!!!

penat of U!!

hate it..

i miss Umie,abah & mak..

i want to go home..

really,please send me home.

(T_T)

.::if my heart says it,i really mean it::.

its quite been some time for me to come back here writing all i want..there's no class to attend to during day time..and no body special to date with during night time..but,still got no enough space to spend to write in this my imaginary diary...entahlah kenapa..

sometimes,

when the things doesn't go as smooth as we wish,we declared it as a waste..

after a time,

then we realized,

a soldier couldn't make a move without 'yes' command from the chief...

either communicated or non-communicated command...

..istikharah..

this words was repeated to me everyday

to convince me that i'm his istikharah

what??

why??

oh my God!!

how can i believe in him??

it isn't a joke..

im sorry

i know he is not reading this

i have another person that i put my trust in

there's another person that i put my hope in

for sure,

the person is not you

you have everything

everything a girl need the most

you are a loyal creature to our God - an ordinary one,but its quite good enough

car - not one but three

house - not one but three

career - you are an executive manager engineer + successful businessman

& the most important thing - m0ney..(0_0')

special features:

you played me guitar

you know jamming - even though i never see it yet

you do car drifting - i enjoy it!!really..

you love family a lot - ur mom is no. 1!!

and now,you said you love me..

how can i answer you?

if my heart say "there's only 1 space for a man,and it has been filled up with love from Ahmad Syatila"??

i need you,God..

release me from love life a while..

finish up my study first!!

.::la tahzan::.

Kenapa aku selalu di uji??

Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam2 kan??

Kenapa ujian yang aku dapat ni berat sangat??

Kenapa aku rasa frust sgt ni??

Bagaimana harus aku hadapi masalah ni??

Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ni??

Aku dah xtahan!!

Kepada siapa aku harus berharap??

and sometimes, we even asked more questions that may be hard to answer by any..

but remember that Allah have known His creature than any other does...

He answered it in Al-Quran for an ages before we were born yet and only those who were given His blessed knew it..

and surely able to meet the peaceful He gave..

sejak kebelakangan ni,saya selalu bersendirian sampai saya sendiri pun xtau kenapa saya jadi begitu stress..

pic source from google image

friend..

everybody has their very own friends...even they might have a million of friends...

but only those who are lucky will make a true friendship..

1 of my buddy said:

tak akan ada sorang pun manusia dalam dunia ni yang jalan hidupnya xberliku..

bila kita dilanda masalah, jangan sesekali menyalahkan kejadian yang dah berlaku tu..

cuba muhasabah,cari di mana silapnya...

menyesal pada kesalahan yang telah dilakukan,tapi ingat!!

janagn menyesal yang kejadian tu pernah berlaku dalam hidup kita..

hargai nya..

dan yang penting,

jangan sesekali ada "KALAU" dalam hidup ni...

SABAR..

is the most repeated word she told me just now..

when you are trying hard to be patience,it doesn't mean you do not have to take any action..

make a plan and move on exactly like what you've planned...

never deny anyone...

they might be your most helpful person later in life...

thanks all~~~

and tonight i'll try to put an end to all this..

too much assumptions doesn't make a good profit though for me!!!

pray for me...(^_^)")

.::when we can see others::.

hard to tell that ourselves kinda selfish one..always him as the most special person until he walks away then I can see the kindness of others around me..they never leave me alone even when im in happy or down...

then I realized, I've neglect them for so long...im sorry~~

now I can see clearly who are always standing right with me...thanks~~

its been a while from the last post that i wrote about my life..exception for those lyrics..its not that i've nothing to be posted but no words may best describes the whole thing i've went through all this while..the best part of these despair moment of my life is, I still have those people who are always being by my side when im in need..especially to my Anie and my two little girl,supporting me in bright and darkness!!

i need no such long advice nor a shoulder to cry on..because all of us have our own business to manage as well...only a few minutes we've spent a day would be enough for me...

to my beloved Umie, even though i din mention any to you,you looks like being so much aware of my pain...thanks to ym video call..looking at your lovely face fade my burdens away...

not to mention,it is,yes,all students regardless of what field you are in,students are always have a reason to make themselves forget on those petty things..its weird for me when I find myself free with lots of time to rest,I hate it..it is not what I'm used to be before...where I always find it tough to go through lately..i hate leisure time,utmost!!but running away is not the best way to free myself from a mess!!

hope this coming weekend,my plan to follow my buddies for convoy to Sg. Gabai will not be cancelled...

to my tears,please keep yourself locked in the place..i dun need you to clean up my sclera everyday.. I do have an eye mo solution if my eyes get dry!!!

sometimes,I don't really understand why should I laugh out loud when my heart broke...

whatever it is, he did made me smile and cheers once!!

terima kasih~~