.::the blue vs the crystal::.

sebenarnye topik kali xada kaitan langsung dengan piala liga Perdana England atau sebagainya yang seangkatan..tapi apa2 pun,yeayyyyyyyy!!!Chelsea akan terus berkuasa~~

biasalah,Allah ada berfirman yang semua benda diciptakan-Nya mempunyai pasangan..malam ada siang.bulan ada bintang.panas ada sejuk.saya,ada dia..ehem2..so,kat sini sy nak cerita sikit pasal "blue" di kaki dgn "crystal" di tangan..=))

apekh yg 'blue' tu?

sblm ni sy ada laptop compaq..tp telah dipindah hak milik kepada org kesayangan sy di atas beberapa faktor.yg pertama adalah kerana screen nya yg tlh rosak.yg kedua disebabkan saiznye yg gabak besar,sgt menyukarkan sy mengangkut nye ke sana ke mari.dan yang ketiga sbb mak sy nak belikan sy laptop baru...huhu..

oleh itu,si dia telah pergi ke kedai dengan harapan memulihkan semula screen yg telah jahanam itu..dan akhirnye laptop itu mampu berfungsi seperti sediakala.namun,malang tidak berbau.laptop yg baru dibaiki itu telah dipijak sesuka hati diluar batas pemikiran sedar..makanya,lcd itu telah crack buat kesekian kali nye..so,sudah lebih sebulan laptop tu disembunyikan dibucu bilik..tgk habuk td,macam lebih setahun xusik..tihihi..=))

so,abg saya nak ambik n baiki laptop tersebut..sy pun bergegas ke rumah sang die yg disayangi..namun,menurut firasat sy,sang die sengaja menghidupkan api dalam hati ni..so,masa die pass laptop tersebut,die xperasan yg sy belum pun sempat menyambutnya..maka,terjatuh dan terjunamlah lptop yg maha berat itu tepat mencederakan jari tengah kaki kiri saya..memula,ingtkan tade pape..smpai je kat kolej,biru!!!xleh nk pijak pun..siksa gila nk g mandi td tau!!that's the 'blue' story...

nampak x blue ring kat jari tengah tu..saket gile masa nak turun tangga..cane nk OSCE ni..sembuh la wahai kaki~~

finish!!

esok adalah anniversary sy dan sang die yg disayangi ke-3..sy cuma ingatkan die,but then die kata,'ah,buat apa nk sambut anniversary2 nihxde mknenye.'..so,sy sgt tidak mengharapkan apa2 drpd sang die yg disayangi..alih2,masa ribut taufan melanda kat rumah die td tu tibe2 die campak something..that was the 'crystal' comes into my life...sangat tragis..sy sedih ni...

ni pun saya bukak masa da sampai kat bilik..huhu,sangat terharu..dulu pernah ada,tp..jangan dikenang kisah yg lama~~

everything went so fast..i cant even imagine if he left me out there..because he once asked me to go out and never return back..but everytime i tried to stepped out,he mumbling something that sounds to me like."oh my love,please stop and come back to me.love me for me..".haha,perasan!!

after some times,his eldest sister get me and we talk..sgt syahdu..she made me to think..she even dont go to any parties..even sang die yg disayangi adalah adik nye,she try to be nice to me t0o~~

even the 'blue' makes me sigh for the pain now,but the 'crystal' makes me smile for the rest of my life!!thanx sang-die-yg-disayangi!!

im sorry...we both need time to heal..i'll pray the best for you and please pray the best for me t0o..for all,i love you~~

cantik kan..first time die beli benda2 mcm ni,tanpa sy menemani..tQ abg~

...mood jiwang tamat...

.::when we can see others::.

hard to tell that ourselves kinda selfish one..always him as the most special person until he walks away then I can see the kindness of others around me..they never leave me alone even when im in happy or down...

then I realized, I've neglect them for so long...im sorry~~

now I can see clearly who are always standing right with me...thanks~~

its been a while from the last post that i wrote about my life..exception for those lyrics..its not that i've nothing to be posted but no words may best describes the whole thing i've went through all this while..the best part of these despair moment of my life is, I still have those people who are always being by my side when im in need..especially to my Anie and my two little girl,supporting me in bright and darkness!!

i need no such long advice nor a shoulder to cry on..because all of us have our own business to manage as well...only a few minutes we've spent a day would be enough for me...

to my beloved Umie, even though i din mention any to you,you looks like being so much aware of my pain...thanks to ym video call..looking at your lovely face fade my burdens away...

not to mention,it is,yes,all students regardless of what field you are in,students are always have a reason to make themselves forget on those petty things..its weird for me when I find myself free with lots of time to rest,I hate it..it is not what I'm used to be before...where I always find it tough to go through lately..i hate leisure time,utmost!!but running away is not the best way to free myself from a mess!!

hope this coming weekend,my plan to follow my buddies for convoy to Sg. Gabai will not be cancelled...

to my tears,please keep yourself locked in the place..i dun need you to clean up my sclera everyday.. I do have an eye mo solution if my eyes get dry!!!

sometimes,I don't really understand why should I laugh out loud when my heart broke...

whatever it is, he did made me smile and cheers once!!

terima kasih~~

.::under estimated::.

bila org layan kita baik,kita ingt dia suka kita..

biar ape pun kita buat,konon nye mesti die xkesah..

tapi hakikat nye??

xbanyak org yg jujur dalam dunia ni,termasuklah aku sendiri..

tapi ape niat org tu sbnr nye?

bila kita nk buat something,selalu dia ada utk bg advice

saye xperlukan nasihat awak tu..

sbb sy tau,awk bukan bersungguh pun nak jaga saya

apa niat awak sebenarnye??

kite selalu nak yg terbaik..

tp pernah ke kita jadi yg terbaik utk org lain??

kite selalu berdoa utk kebaikan

tapi selalu jugak kita lupekan Dia...

nape asek mengeluh ni...

tak elok sungguh perangai~~

haish!!

arini da daftar utk nursing dinner..

hope it will be the ever happiest last dinner i've attend throughout this 4 years program..

insya-Allah..

.::life is short::.

LIFE is

too short to wake up with regrets...

So,

love the people who treat u right..

forget the one who's dont..

Believe,

everything happens for a REASONS....

.::falter::.

No matter

how strong one's heart is..

Sometimes

there are things

that happen in life

that will make

one's heart

...FALTER...

.::apekah::.

Sebenarnye xde ape pun nk tulis...

Cuma ada satu benda yg asyik sgt berlegar2 kt dlm pale otak nih...

I don't like people who never give anything but always ask others to do something he/she may benefit from...

Kind of jerk man!!!

Lagi satu kalau asyik2 nk org lain buat exactly like what she/he did...

If not, it is wrong.

No 3x.

Actually its not wrong, but totally wrong!!

Bagi die ni, biar apa pun reason org tu, die xnk tau..

Yang penting, dari segi pandangan 'die' ni, orang tu da buat 1 big mistake.

Stupid!!!

Korang pernah xrasa nak muntah bila someone is telling a story to u because they were telling a bad side of people, always.. like 24-7??

Im sorry, can't take it...

I have to avoid it...

I am avoiding u because u cannot be stopped...

Eby, u know everything...

Tq for listening to me...

.::insomnia::.

Salam n slmt sjhtera to all kawan2 semua...

I don't know what is actually happening to the chemical inside my body...do they have some kind of war??because lately aku susah untuk tdo on time...is that because i know that tomorrow i had no class to attend to and has no commitment/appointment that require me to wake up so early in the morning, or do my hormone has one kind of sickness called craziness...

Last week,aku ada jd respondent utk survey for sleep disturbance study...after filling up all the questionnaire, they found that i have some kind of problem with my sleeping pattern...i scored 9 which explained the severe stage of disturbance.YES,I DO!!!

This had happened twice...aku ngantuk tp mata xboleh nk pejam...maybe sbb ptg td byk sgt bermain perasaan...arini ari kiss sedunia...umie anta kiss kt aku...syg die..sweet sgt...i loiyke~~~dan mencatat sejarah..yg aku simpan surat utk abg for almost a year and 3months before i hand it to him just now..and you know what?the contents was still the same dgn apa yg aku nk bgtau kt die...is that because aku yg xberubah,atau aku yg xphm2 situasi die???ish,kompius suda!!!

Last2 g lepak kt d tebing...main teka2 bangunan...u make my day though u yg jahanamkan my day too....i love u~~~hoho...

Aaaaaaa...xnk pk dh..nk tdo lh...jerit sungguh2 karang,baru tau haaaa...anyhow,tq for everything u had done for me and i just need u...for no reason...yepp..for no reason baby!!!

Out...

.::understanding::.

Kita selalu nampak apa yang kurang pada orang lain sedangkan kekurangan pada diri sendiri ni lg banyak drpd yg dijangka....emmm..i bkn nk kate kt org lain,but though i'm talking about myself...apa yang org lain da buat untuk kita selama ni,susah kita nk nampak disebabkan dah tertutup dengan kesilapan yang dia baru buat sekali...

Contohnya,die da bagi duit yg cukup n phatian yang sepatutnya...cuma aku xpuas ati sbb die xpnah nk msg aku slagi aku xmsg die...eeeeeee...geraamnya,sbb aku slalu dok compare ngan 1st time kitorg knal...xpnah senyap fon aku...skrg,huh...xpnah nk bebunyi plk...kdg2 aku nk wt die bunyi,aku finder die..so nt maxis anta la msg kt aku...eeeee,saket nye ati...

Tp tu nk cite btape kbaikan yg die dh buat slame ni,aku xpandang cket pn...tp yg aku besar n kesahkan adalah die xbg msg kt aku...

Semalam 1st time aku g makan nasi padang...aku rase masakan die sama je mcm nasi berlauk yg berlambak kat msia ni..cuma their presentation of lauk n how they serve to the customer je menunjukkan itu adalah budaya yg di bawa dr Padang...ok,yg aku nk highlight kt cni adalah aku dah la expect arini jumpa sbb nk luahkan rasa yg terbuku kt ati ni...tp die bwk g tmpat exclusive mcm tu plk...tym makan ok lg,control ayu,macho,semua ada lagi..but toward d end,aku ckp jugak ape yg aku planned earlier....so,terjadilah drama sadis kt ctu...seb baik xramai org,tp still...ada orang...and they were looking at us like watching a tv...hoho...pdn muke aku...tu la,xmenyabo2 nk meluahkan perasaan..

Whatever it is, aku xkesah sbb posisi aku dilindungi oleh badan die...so,aku xkesah la sgt..walaupn aku tau org blakang tu pndg2...and yg paling penting kt cni,aku puas ati sbb semua yg aku pendam da pun terkeluar....wahahahhahahaha...pueh ati den...

Tp yg aku nk tekan kt cni,bkn psl aku yg suke ber'drama' kt tmpt makan...tp tentang UNDERSTANDING....masa aku baru smpai kt restoran tu,aku nmpk die da agak kurus...naik turun berat bdn die,snang sgt nk detect...pipi die da xde kembung2 sweet da...perut die dr cc pn da agak kempis...kesiannya...tp bile aku pk2 balik,mmg die xbsalah,tp sbb aku yg xpaham...aku yg pk bkn2...cuba aku phm die dr awal,mesti die xsusah ati,xkurus mcm tu...

Ye lah,cuba you all bayangkan..working hours die yg sebenarnya start pkul 10pm up to 3am and sometimes 4am...bu then,he needs to wake up by 10am and have to make some extra work until 5pm...mmg la kalau ikot org yg kije ofis tu,lbih kurg je...tp cuba you all ltak diri dlm keadaan die...brape jam je die tdo sehari?only about 4hours...dah la kerja main dgn besi2...very menyayat ati tgk keadaan die...dahla die kerja sbb die xnk aku mintak duet dgn parent aku...and sjak die kerja,sgala keperluan aku,die yg sediakan...die kate,nk blajar erti tanggungjawab 'suami'...

Oooooooooooh...sho shweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet la baby...

Mula2 dlu mungkin aku blh hesitate dgn keikhklasan die,tp ni da almost a year die amek tggungjawab tu...mmg kadang2 aku tsepit jgk,tp slama masa tu,aku xpnah putus makan...terima kasih sayang....so,korg...kalau betul2 nk kekalkan hubungan korg,jgnlah pk apa sumbangan yg korg da korbankan utk pasangan...sbb tu akan buat you all rasa insufficient dgn apa yg you all dpt...you all suppose to love them and hargai setiap benda yg die dah buat utk kite...sangat bahagia....baby,i let you to fly freely but dun forget to come back k...LYVM...