.::trying to figure out::.

since my last paper,I got nothing much to do unless staying at home,taking care of my little Nazhan and start to learn cooking from my SIL-Kak Tie...as told by my former classmate,the result will come out on Friday..and today is Friday..

but the day goes like this:
6.30am - preparing breakfast for my sister
7.15am - do laundry and house chores
9am - watching movie(marah2 sayang)
10am - as boringness increases,i rode my bike to Subang and play with Zarif
1pm- rode back to Prima Saujana,Kajang as my SIL's brother (abg Pein) wanna drop his wife at home before he attend his meeting at 2.30pm
2.30pm - Bank Islam,Bangi.to claim for a new lost card but cant proceed today.
asked to come back again on Monday..sigh
3pm - waiting for the rain to stop..it was a real heavy rain..
me and Syatila:having a nice chat after a long pause..
5pm - reach home..he continues reminding me on how much he care about me..
how much he wants me to be tough and patience..
5.30pm - only then im aware that i didnt take my slip yet..then,he promise to fetch me on Monday for that..

huh,how amnesia i am..atoiyai~~

before he left,there's1 boy calling me.i feel disturbed and he answer the call for me..Syatila said that we were engaged and never wants 'theboy' to call me ever again..

he told me his plan and how far he has arranged every single thing for us in future..i could see his enthusiasm in getting my full attention,now..i dont know~~

my head and my heart isnt seem to have bilateral-synchronize-harmonious opinion..it makes my body feel a bit tired..i have to figure out everything step by step,again,from the start...oh Lord,smooth my path~~

i miss Nazhan..his smile,his voice,his 'telatah'..he left me for Johor since,yesterday.yes,it was yesterday.and i missed him damned much!!he will come back tomorrow.hope the time flies faster than usual...

for now,i need to call off my study to JPA..hope i wont forget it again~~

.::transitional phase::.

i hate when i can't hate you~~

p/s: ouch,tersepak kerusi..terkena kat jari kaki yg cedera tuh...ouch!!ouch!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

.::pernah x??::.

pernah x u all kena panic attack sebelum ni?

sgt memenatkan

pernah x u all buat salah and then u all nak cuba betulkan keadaan tu,

u all betul2 perlukan support

but then no one yg paham u all

the sad thing,u all xabes2 dipersalahkan atas kesilapan tu..

pernah x u all mintak maaf

tp maaf korg tu di anggap cam sampah je bg org tu?

pernah x u all try guna walau apa cara sekalipun

utk dapatkan semula apa yg korg pernah ada dulu

selepas korg kehilangannya??

pernah x korang geram sgt

sampai the whole body shaking..

pernah x korg rasa

yg korg tgh berada betul2 kat tgh2 persimpangan

and xtau nk decide which 1 is the right way to go..

pernah x u all rasa sesak nafas

padahal korg punye heart rate and respiration rate semua normal..

pernah x u all rasa u all da buat yg terbaik utk semua

tp pd pandangan mata org lain

semua korg buat tu salah

xada yg betul melainkan yg salah belaka...

pernah korg dok dgn org yg syg korg

die tgh sy0k bercerita

bertanya pasal korg,amek berat psl korg

tp dlm kepala otak

dok pk pasal org lain yg korang pernah sayang

and jerit SENYAPLAH!!!! kat dalam hati...

ah,ngar0t..

nk study tp topic respiratory system ni buat I rasa mual

nak tdo!

oh per0t,please benti berbunyik..

.::bosan::.

hari2 bukak blog org lain

semua ckp pasal family

ttg life as a university student yg sgt huha~~

tp,setiap kali aku punya entry mesti mood 'love'

sgt membosankan!!

my blog is the most sadist and bored-est blog in the universe...

main game lagi best!!