.::aurat::.

tadi baru tengok balik imam muda episod 5...tentang aurat.sgt buruk terasa diri ni..selalu berbangga dengan ilmu yang ada.tp susah sgt nak aplikasikan dlm kehidupan seharian..kita mengaku islam.tp amalan xikut pn apa yg Islam sarankan.kata sembahyang,tapi xmencegah pun dari melakukan dosa.baru2 ni da sakitkan hati abah..kekti mintak maaf sgt.walaupun kekti xtau apa puncanya,kekti mintak maaf...kata mengaji Quran,tp apa yg ada dalam Quran xtau apa pun.kononnya sekolah agama dulu,tp bila suruh berbahas semua guna pendapat logik sendiri..

berbalik pd episod imam muda td tu,diorg kupas isu aurat..isu aurat ni mmg sgt sensitif..ms sekolah dulu da diajar,aurat perempuan adalah seluruh badannya kecuali wajahnya dan 2tapak tangan shj...bukan dgn lelaki bukan muhrim je,sama la dengan kawan2 yang bukan Islam pn..

ramai org sekarang ni,pakai tudung da perasan kuat sgt imannya.bak kata sorg peserta imam muda tu,kita bukan menuup aurat,kita da banyak bungkus aurat..betul jugak tu..tp mereka yg pakai tudung ni lebih mudah untuk terima hidayah Allah,memperbaiki kelemahan diri,insyaAllah..malah ada antara kita yg kata:'walaupun sy xpakai tudung,tp hati sy baik"...=))ikikiki

apa punya ayat la nak defend diri sendiri...

dari sahabat, Saiyidina Ali r.a. berkata:

serendah2 ilmu adalah apa yang dikeluarkan oleh mulut,

dan setinggi ilmu adalah apa yang dizahirkan oleh anggota badan...

apa2 pun sy tau sy sendiri masih byk lagi kekurangan dan keburukan.harap2 masa yg free sekarang ni,dapat dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya..ameen..

.::something that I missed for the mean time::.

since my last paper as a student last June,I think I wasn't that much productive at home..I'm not a free flying young bird anymore since I was bound to my new task-nanny thingy..yes,it was fun undeniably..taking care of my little nephew Nazhan ain't boring at all and it gave me a new kind of experience in further understand baby's need and language..


down deep in my heart,I miss my list-to-do thing..I love to go out and see people's doing and going back home only when I'm feeling to.I could stay in a coffee house up to 8 hours watching people while surfing internet..its a waste isn't it?but I do not mind as my heart pond of it rather than being at a proper place but have to face and deal with someone who I don't wish to be with..


oh ya,could you imagine.there is 'money-eye' people in our society,keeping a relationship nice and good if they are bundled with money and things..and this kind of people too would suddenly terminate the relationship just because there's nothing more you could give to them..huh!never ever sincere of what they're doing..



syatila always remind me on this type of people but ignorance always be my first choice.."jangan senang sangat bagi duit kat org,bila awak xada duit nanti awak akan faham maksud saya"..I gave away everything I could and she's doing good to me.and when I have nothing to give,she throw me a harsh words..yet,she beat me up..what the world served~~


anyway,I don't mean to brag over here.or asking you to kill that person for me or what..hoho..just a few nice words for Allah to open her heart and make it even softer.sometimes I got jealous of other's but just in a time I realize that I have all that I want too~~

.::la tahzan::.

Kenapa aku selalu di uji??

Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam2 kan??

Kenapa ujian yang aku dapat ni berat sangat??

Kenapa aku rasa frust sgt ni??

Bagaimana harus aku hadapi masalah ni??

Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ni??

Aku dah xtahan!!

Kepada siapa aku harus berharap??

and sometimes, we even asked more questions that may be hard to answer by any..

but remember that Allah have known His creature than any other does...

He answered it in Al-Quran for an ages before we were born yet and only those who were given His blessed knew it..

and surely able to meet the peaceful He gave..

sejak kebelakangan ni,saya selalu bersendirian sampai saya sendiri pun xtau kenapa saya jadi begitu stress..

pic source from google image

friend..

everybody has their very own friends...even they might have a million of friends...

but only those who are lucky will make a true friendship..

1 of my buddy said:

tak akan ada sorang pun manusia dalam dunia ni yang jalan hidupnya xberliku..

bila kita dilanda masalah, jangan sesekali menyalahkan kejadian yang dah berlaku tu..

cuba muhasabah,cari di mana silapnya...

menyesal pada kesalahan yang telah dilakukan,tapi ingat!!

janagn menyesal yang kejadian tu pernah berlaku dalam hidup kita..

hargai nya..

dan yang penting,

jangan sesekali ada "KALAU" dalam hidup ni...

SABAR..

is the most repeated word she told me just now..

when you are trying hard to be patience,it doesn't mean you do not have to take any action..

make a plan and move on exactly like what you've planned...

never deny anyone...

they might be your most helpful person later in life...

thanks all~~~

and tonight i'll try to put an end to all this..

too much assumptions doesn't make a good profit though for me!!!

pray for me...(^_^)")

.::under estimated::.

bila org layan kita baik,kita ingt dia suka kita..

biar ape pun kita buat,konon nye mesti die xkesah..

tapi hakikat nye??

xbanyak org yg jujur dalam dunia ni,termasuklah aku sendiri..

tapi ape niat org tu sbnr nye?

bila kita nk buat something,selalu dia ada utk bg advice

saye xperlukan nasihat awak tu..

sbb sy tau,awk bukan bersungguh pun nak jaga saya

apa niat awak sebenarnye??

kite selalu nak yg terbaik..

tp pernah ke kita jadi yg terbaik utk org lain??

kite selalu berdoa utk kebaikan

tapi selalu jugak kita lupekan Dia...

nape asek mengeluh ni...

tak elok sungguh perangai~~

haish!!

arini da daftar utk nursing dinner..

hope it will be the ever happiest last dinner i've attend throughout this 4 years program..

insya-Allah..

.::copy::.

Kali ni blog ni hanya lah sekadar renungan kalau nk merenung lah...lagipun, sape lagi nak bagi peringatan kalau bukan sesama kita...nk jumpa ustaz, alasan xde masa. apa tah lagi nak gi dengar ceramah/usrah..jgn harap la kan..tapi kalau benda2 gini ada dalam laman web,insya-Allah ramai yang baca...

Saya bukan berniat nak suruh semua org cari sesiapa yg nak convert masuk Islam. just nak u all semua termasuk saya be prepared with any questions frequently asked from non-Muslims.

Dialog kat bwh nie pasal dakwah antare seorang muslim dgn calon mu'alaf, dan ini btol2 berlaku... saya copy from 1 of the comment dalam blog brother Hamka..hoho~~

ABDULLAH: Hello there! How are you man?

DEREK: Hello! Well, how are you?

ABDULLAH: I'm fine and you?

DEREK: I'm fine thanks.

ABDULLAH: Where are you from?

DEREK: I'm from L.A. (Los Angeles).

ABDULLAH: The land of Hollywood!

DEREK: Well that's right. Have you ever been to L.A.?

ABDULLAH: No, never. Why are you calling yourself the Black Magic?

DEREK: It's just a nickname, man!

ABDULLAH: I see.

DEREK: Where are you from? Are you an Arab?

ABDULLAH: Yes, I am from Saudi Arabia but I'm in Qatar now. What is your name?

DEREK: My name is Derek. What's your name?

ABDULLAH: My name is Abdullah.

DEREK: What does Abdullah mean?

ABDULLAH: Abdullah means the servant of Allah and it is the function of each individual on the face of the earth to serve llah according to what Allah wants from us. By the way, Allah is the proper name of God.

DEREK: How do we know what God or Allah wants from us?

ABDULLAH: All of this is outlined in the Qur'an and the Sunnah (Ways of Prophet Muhammad; his sayings, actions and aprovals). These are the two major sources of guidance in lslam. Could you please tell me more about yourself? How old are you?

DEREK: I am 19 years old, black and very uch interested in knowing more about lslam. First of all, what should a person do or believe in to become a Muslim?

ABDULLAH: Very easy, you just say that there is no god worthy of worshi but Allah and Muhammad is His Messenger, and you become Muslim,

DEREK: You mean Muhammad is his apostle? But a a Christian or non-Muslim, this sentence is not enough to make it clear to me.

ABDULLAH: Ok Allah sent Muhammad as His last Prophet and Messenger and revealed the Qur'an to him as the final revelation to mankind. Allah said that He perected His religion and called it lslam (see Qur'an 5:3). Islam means peaceful submission to the Will of Allah.

DEREK: I see.

ABDULLAH: Yes, and unfortunately most Christians don't know or they deny that the coming of Prophet Muhammad is foretold in their scriptures (See Deuternomy 18:18; 21: 21; Psalms 1 18:22-23; Isiah 42:1-13; Habakuk 3:3-4; Matthew 21:42-43; John 14:12-17,15:26,27; 1:5-16). Muslim theologians have stated that the person who is described by Jesus to come after him (in the above verses) is Muhammed (peace be upon him).

DEREK: OK Fine, but why was there a need for another prophet after Jesus and another revelation after the Bible?

ABDULLAH: All of the Prophets came to teach their peoples the Oneness of God. In the case of Jesus, he was only sent as a Messenger to the lost sheep of the house of Israel (see Matt. 15:24). What happened was that all of these prophets were not well received by the majority of the people. For instance, they started tampering with the teachings of Moses and Jesus, peace be upon them (see Qur'an 2:79). That is why Allah sent Muhammad with the last Message, (i.e., the Qur'an), to bring all of mankind back to the belief in and worship of One God, without partners or intermediaries.

DEREK: Is the Qur'an similar to the Bible? I mean, what is it composed of?

ABDULLAH: The Qur'an came as the last code emphasizing the same pure monotheistic teachings of Jesus peace be upon him, defending all the previous pure teachings of monotheistic beliefs and clarifying who Jesus was and who his mother was, showing that they were no more than great people.

DEREK: OK then, how-can we be sure that the Qur'an has remained the same since the time of Prophet Muhammad?

ABDULLAH: Allah Himself has guaranteed that He would guard the Qur'an from corruption (see Qur'an 15:9). Hence, the real and pure words of Allah are found in the Qur'an, which was revealed in Arabic, the language of Mohammed's people. Since then, not an iota has changed. This is unlike what has happened in the other religions. For example, if you look at the Bible, you find a lot of versions; the name Bible itself is indicative of those changes because Bible means a collection of books from different writers.

DEREK: But didn't God call it the Bible?

ABDULLAH: God calls the Scripture revealed to Jesus "Injeel" in the Qur'an for which the closest name in the Bible would be the word Gospel. The Bible was written may years after the time of Jesus in a language that was alien to Jesus; it was Latin Vulgate, a language that he never spoke. Isn't this strange? Interestingly, most of what was written in the New Testament was authored by Paul, who, according to James, the brother of Jesus in the Bible, had a polluted mind because he changed and contradicted most of the teachings of Jesus.

DEREK: I think you know more about Christianity than the Pope does.

ABDULLAH: You are wrong by saying that I know more than the Pope. I have simply investigated the Bible with an inquiring mind, which is something that all Christians should do.

DEREK: Is there any English version of the Holy Qur'an?

ABDULLAH: There are many translations of the meanings of the Qur'an.

The Qur'an was revealed in Arabic which means that the words of ALLAH are in Arabic. The translations are the words of human beings relating to the meanings of the Qur'an to the non-Arabic speaking masses.

DEREK: How does the Qur'an define God to mankind or how does the Muslim perceive God?

ABDULLAH: GOD is the One and Only True GOD, and the Creator of all. He does not beget nor is He begotten. He is unlike His creation in every respect. He is the All-knowing, The Powerful, The Merciful, The Irresistible, and The King of kings.

DEREK: But it is somehow difficult for me to perceive God as being the same as His creatures.

ABDULLAH: You are absolutely right to have difficulty perceiving this because human beings have a limited capacity. This is why ALLAH sent revelations to His Prophets and Messengers to tell us who He is. So if you want to know who God is, just read the Qur'an.

DEREK: Christians believe that Jesus was sent for the salvation of all mankind. If this is not true, then the foundation of Christianity is faulty. Right? What do you think?

ABDULLAH: That's correct. The Christians of today are following what Paul taught and also tend to follow what the priests tell them to do instead of following what Jesus said.

DEREK: Kindly explain the concept of salvation through the crucifixion of Jesus.

ABDULLAH: In Christianity, the Doctrine of Original Sin is the reason that there is a need for salvation through Jesus' crucifixion. However, this doctrine was invented by Paul and it is strongly negated in the Old Testament (see Ezekial 18:20, Jeremiah 31:30, Deut. 24:16). This doctrine is an attempt to escape the responsibility of righteousness with the belief that punishment is given to someone else to release us from our burden of sins (see Ephesians 1:7, Romans 4:25, 10:9, Corinthians 15:21) In the Qur'an, every soul is responsible for its own deeds, good or bad (see 74:38,41:46, 3:25, 6:154).

DEREK: What about the crucifixion itself?

ABDULLAH: The Bible says Jesus cried out in a loud voice beseeching God for help on the cross: "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" (Matt. 27:46) Does that sound like Jesus to you?

DEREK: No, then what about Jesus' appearance to his disciples after the crucifixion?

ABDULLAH: Jesus didn't die on the cross nor was he resurrected. If he were resurrected, then he would have come to his disciples in a spiritual body. As shown in Luke 24:36-43, he met them with his physical body after the event of his alleged crucifixion. In the Qur'an, it says that Jesus was not crucified, but it was someone else who was made to look like him (see 4:157,158).

DEREK: How did the story of the crucifixion of Jesus get into the Bible then?

ABDULLAH: Once again, Paul was responsible (see Timothy 2:8 and Romans 5:10).

DEREK: Well, I, very deep in my heart, believe that God can never look like his creation nor does he do what they do. What I believe is that God is the perfect one who is very much different from everything we see or touch. In other words, I think the writer can never look like his book.

ABDULLAH: You are right. There is nothing comparable to Allah (see Qur'an 112:4). The prophets came with a very clear message to worship God alone, without any partners or intercessors.

However, Paul took pagan beliefs and practices from the Romans and mixed them with the teachings of Jesus. Consequently, Paul was mostly responsible for elevating Jesus to the status of Son of God (see Acts 9:20) and God.

DEREK: Yes. Now I remember. The first Commandment is, " Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God is One Lord."

ABDULLAH: You're right. That's in Mark 12:29. Moreover, the Qur'an confirms that God is One: "Say He is Allah, the One and Only (God)." (Qur'an 112:1)

DEREK: What you are saying makes perfect sense. This is just incredible! You mean that for almost 2000 years what the Christians have been following is wrong?

ABDULLAH: Yes, especially their misunderstanding of who Jesus was.

DEREK: Oh my God! I've been deceived! Really, I feel religiously raped. I have been fooled simply because I followed blindly the religion that I was born with and didn't take care to investigate it thoroughly. But still inside me there is something holding me back from accepting lslam, even though lslam is clearly the True Religion.

ABDULLAH: Your last comment shows that you are a Muslim not a Christian and if you really love God and His Messenger Jesus, you will follow lslam and Prophet Muhammad. Break this barrier inside you and come back to the way of your ancestors. You are now free because you are looking for the Truth and our great prophet Jesus told us that we should look for the Truth and the Truth will set us free. So, you will be a free man as soon as you accept It. Be strong enough to accept lslam as the Truth, without any hesitation on your part and you will taste real freedom and real happiness that you have never tasted before.

DEREK: Frankly, I am concerned about the negative way lslam and Muslims are shown in the media. In the West, there is a stigma attached to being a Muslim and I'm not sure I'm ready to live with that stigma.

ABDULLAH: This is why I have chosen to tell people about the right picture of lslam.

DEREK: Then, what is the right picture of lslam?

ABDULLAH: The right picture of lslam is conveyed in the Qur’an, which is exemplified by Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him. The reality is that it is not fair to judge a religion by the actions of its followers alone because there are good and bad followers in every religion. The correct thing to do is to judge a religion by its documented revelation from God and the prophet who brought that revelation.

DEREK: I see. I agree with you, but I'm still concerned about the reaction of my family and friends if they know that I am a Muslim.

ABDULLAH: On Judgement Day, no one will be able to help you, not even your father, mother or any of your friends (see Qur'an 31:33). So, if you believe that lslam is the True religion, you should embrace it and live your life to please the One Who created you. Be an illuminating torch for them. Do not delay your coming to lslam. If you die before becoming a Muslim, then it's too late (see Qur'an 2:132, 3:102, 3:85). So grab this opportunity now. You can only remedy this pain inside you by becoming a Muslim and being able in the future, God willing, to come and perform pilgrimage (Hajj).

DEREK: You are very wise man, I want to say that when I sometimes see on the satellite, especially in the season of Hajj, people of different colors and different races sitting side by side and praying to God, I feel pain deep inside my heart and I feel something urging me to talk with someone to know more about that great religion that can gather all the races in the same place. Thanks to you, I have found that person. So please help me become a Muslim!

ABDULLAH: Brother let us take it step by step. First, enter lslam by saying: I BEAR WITNESS THAT THERE IS NO GOD WORTHY OF WORSHIP EXCEPT ALLAH. AND I BEAR WITNESS THAT MUHAMMAD IS HIS SERVANT AND MESSENGER. I BEAR WITNESS THAT JESUS IS HIS PROPHET AND MESSENGER. Let us say this again, I BEAR WITNESS THAT THERE IS NO GOD WORTHY OF WORSHIP EXCEPT ALLAH AND I BEAR WITNESS THAT MUHAMMAD IS HIS SERVANT AND MESSENGER. I BEAR WITNESS THAT JESUS IS HIS PROPHET AND MESSENGERS. I BEAR WITNESS THAT JESUS IS HIS PROPHET AND MESSENGER.

DEREK: I BEAR WITNESS THAT THERE IS NO GOD WORTHY OF WORSHIP EXCEPT ALLAH. I BEAR WITNESS THAT MUHAMMAD IS HIS SERVANT AND LAST MESSENGER. I BEAR WITNESS THAT JESUS IS HIS SERVANT AND MESSENGER.

ABDULLAH: By the way, Jesus' name is not Jesus. It is a latinized name. His real name is Eisa. Now you will say the same thing in Arabic, the language of the Qur'an. I will transliterate for you. ASH'HADU AN LA'ILAHA ILLA ALLAH WAASH'HADU ANNA MUHAMMMADAN RASOOLULLAH WA ASH'HADU ANNA EISA ABDULLAHI WA RASOOLUHU.

DEREK: ASHADU AN LA ILAHA ILLALLAH WA ASHADU ANNA MUHAMMADAN RASULULLAH WA ASHADU ANNA EISA ABDULLAH1 WA RASOOLUHU.

ABDULLAH: Brother, say ALLAH is the greatest because you are a Muslim now. You are not a Christian anymore. Your are in the House of lslam. If I were with you, I would hug you as my brother in lslam. How do you feel now? A burden has been removed from you and you feel like you are so light, isn't this right?

DEREK: If you were with me now, you would have seen my tears reaching my neck. You are a great brother. I feel that I have just come to life, This is exactly how I feel from now. I don't have to listen the silly words of the priests in the church, who knowingly or unknowingly lead people astray. I hope to be a good servant of ALLAH.

ABDULLAH: You know what came out of you was disbelief and it was replaced by belief. You are so clean now, because when someone embraces Islam sincerely, Allah forgives all of his past sins. So, go to the Islamic center that has Muslims from all over the world and announce your lslam there, and continue to learn more about lslam from them. In addition, find a book on prayer in lslam and practice it. This is essential. Now after you are through with me, you must take a shower to purify yourself from previous wrong beliefs. Remember to stay away from bad company and be with righteous Muslim people. Also, beware of those so-called Muslims who call to nationalistic ideas or racial thoughts, which are rejected in lslam. I love you as a brother in lslam and I hope one day I will see you and hear your voice.

DEREK: I will for sure do what you have asked. And tomorrow I will go to the Islamic center. Thank you for showing me the Truth. I will do my best to meet people who know about lslam for sure. May God help you guide more and more people to the true word of God. There is no God but ALLAH and Muhammad is his Apostle... Well it is as difficult for me as it is for you to leave you.

ABDULLAH: Well brother, you will not leave me for a long time. I will soon be with you through my supplications. God willing. Pray for me, brother.

DEREK: Well, I thank you, I love you although I do not know you yet. But it is enough for me to remember that one day, a very dear man has picked me up from the mud of life. Please teach me another Islamic word in Arabic so as to make use of it in the Islamic center.

ABDULLAH: Assalamu Alaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu and Astaghfirullah.

DEREK: What do they mean?

ABDULLAH: May the Peace, Mercy and Blessings of Allah be upon you. This is used as a greeting to all Muslims. The last word means, Allah forgive me. Well, I have to leave you now but be sure it will not be for long.

DEREK: Assalamu Alaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu and Astaghfirullah for being astray from the Truth all those years. May God bless you. You have occupied a great place in my heart and I will never forget you. Bye and talk to you later. Your brother in lslam, Derek, but I will call myself Eisa from now on.

ABDULLAH: OK Eisa. I will leave you some final words of inspiration. Certainly, the ultimate goal of every individual is to be in Paradise forever. This reward of Paradise is too great to not have a price. That price is true faith, which is proven obedience to Allah and following the Sunnah of Prophet Mohammed (pbuh). THIS IS THE ROAD TO PARADISE. Let's stay in touch! Assalamu Alaikum!

DEREK: O.K. Assalamu Alaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

Semoga lebih ramai umat Islam seperti brother Abdullah...

.::my origin::.

when people ask me, where's your origin?
i paused and looked into my friend's eye waiting for on-behalf answer...

i was born in kuala lipis
and been there about a year or two
grown up in kuala lumpur
and been there since i was 3 until recently...
but my parents lives in Kota Bharu, Kelantan
and i never been there unless during my school holiday

saya selalu kena marah ngan seseorang ni
dia kata,saya ni seorg yg mudah lupakan jasa
sedih

xpernah terlintas kat hati nak bezakan
antara kasih ibu mengandung dengan seorang ibu yg menjagaserta membesarkan saya
both of them are special in their very own ways
and worthless compared to anything in the world

saya ada satu kisah yang nak dikongsi ngan you all..
cuba baca dan hayati..kita ambil iktibar so we'll be a better daughter / son to our parents:

“Nurse, boleh saya tengok bayi saya?” ibu muda yang baru bersalin itu bersuara antara dengar dan tidak kepada seorang jururawat.

Sambil tersenyum jururawat membawakan bayi yang masih merah itu. Si ibu menyambut dengan senyum meleret. Dibuka selimut yang menutup wajah comel itu, diciumnya berkali-kali sebaik bayi tersebut berada dipangkuan.

Jururawat kemudian mengalihkan pandangannya ke luar tingkap. Tidak sanggup dia bertentang mata dengan si ibu yang terperanjat melihat bayinya dilahirkan tanpa kedua-dua cuping telinga.

Namun gamamnya cuma seketika. Dakapan dan ciuman silih berganti sehingga bayi yang sedang lena itu merengek. Doktor bagaimanapun mengesahkan pendengaran bayi itu normal, sesuatu yang cukup mengembirakan si ibu.

Masa terus berlalu…

Pulang dari sekolah suatu tengahari, anak yang tiada cuping telinga itu yang kini telah memasuki alam persekolahan menangis memberitahu bagaimana dia diejek rakan-rakan. “Mereka kata saya cacat,” katanya kepada si ibu.

Si ibu menahan sebak. Dipujuknya si anak dengan pelbagai kata semangat. Si anak menerimanya dan dia muncul pelajar cemerlang dengan menyandang pelbagai jawatan di sekolah. Bagaimanapun tanpa cuping telinga, si anak tetap merasa rendah diri walaupun si ibu terus memujuk dan memujuk. Ayah
kanak-kanak itu bertemu doktor. “Saya yakin dapat melakukannya jika ada penderma,” kata pakar bedah. Bermulalah suatu pencarian bagi mencari penderma yang sanggup berkorban.

Setahun berlalu…

“Anakku, kita akan menemui doktor hujung minggu ini. Ibu dan ayah telah mendapatkan seorang penderma, tapi dia mahu dirinya dirahsiakan, ” kata si ayah. Pembedahan berjalan lancar dan akhirnya si anak muncul sebagai manusia baru, kacak serta bijak. Pelajarannya tambah cemerlang dan rasa
rendah diri yang kerap dialaminya hilang.

Rakan-rakan memuji kecantikan parasnya. Si anak cukup seronok, bagaimanapun dia tidak mengabaikan pelajaran. Pada usianya lewat 20-an, si anak menjawat jawatan tinggi dalam bidang diplomatik.

“Sebelum saya berangkat keluar negara, saya ingin tahu siapakah penderma telinga ini, saya ingin membalas jasanya,” kata si anak berkali-kali. “Tak mungkin,” balas si ayah. “Perjanjian antara ayah dengan penderma itu
masih berjalan. Tunggulah, masanya akan tiba.” “Bila?” tanya si anak.

“Akan tiba masanya anakku,” balas si ayah sambil ibunya
mengangguk-angguk. Keadaan terus kekal menjadi rahsia bertahun-tahun lamanya.

Hari yang ditunggu tiba akhirnya. Ketika si anak berdiri di sisi keranda ibunya, perlahan-lahan si ayah menyelak rambut ibunya yang kaku.

Gelap seketika pandangan si anak apabila melihat kedua-dua cuping telinga ibunya tiada.

“Ibumu tidak pernah memotong pendek rambutnya,” si ayah berbisik ke telinga anaknya. “Tetapi tiada siapa pernah mengatakan ibumu cacat, dia tetap cantik, pada ayah dia satu-satunya wanita paling cantik yang pernah ayah temui. Tak percaya… tanyalah pada sesiapa pun kenalannya.”

P/s : Kecantikan seseorang bukan terletak pada fizikal tetapi di hati. Cinta sejati bukan pada apa yang dilakukan dan dihebah-hebahkan tetapi pengorbanan tanpa diketahui.

Selagi ibu kita ada didunia ini, ciumlah dia, cium tangannya, sentiasa minta ampun darinya, berikan senyuman kepadanya, bukannya dengan bermasam muka, kasih ibu tiada tandingannya, ingatlah “SYURGA DI BAWAH TELAPAK KAKI IBU”, penyesalan di kemudian hari tidak berguna, selagi hayatnya
ada,curahkanlah sepenuh kasih sayang kepadanya..

“Saya Sayang Ibu”

nothing to be explain
sometimes we don't have to speak but always be different when you start listening
i need some understanding and support
yes,from you,my loved one

anyway, i do and will always love
umie, mak, abah & ayah of course
never be replace
and i'm sorry for hurting you IF ever...and i know, i did..
i'm sorry...

.::being a human::.

Your study place is the best environment for you to learn everything..you were exposed to all sorts of experiences that prepare you to become a very good 'person' in future... all skills and knowledge that you gained will never gone to waste even though you once think it benefits you zero at a time...

But, be sure that you know what you are doing and why you are doing the thing..

Then, you are learning a good 'goods' for yourself..

I know,i kinda person who doesn't really involved in any academic activities.. not because i don't like to but i don't have that strong believe in myself that i can carry out the task if im the one who is leading the rest of my colleague.. Until 1 day, there is one kind person came to me and said:

"There's no need to be afraid of your own mistakes.. Do the mistakes and learn from it!!"

Now is the time for me to be in the real world. This is my final semester and i have to prepare in order to give the best for my own sake..

My friend, i'm only a human.. His creature named insan... Please remind me if i do forget my duty or too far from the line...Don't be afraid to let me know...Just be bold occay!!!

Thank you guys~~

.::my side::.

mungkinkah ada sesiapa yang sudi berada di sisi saya ketika:

...saya terjaga dari tidur?

...saya ditimpa berita buruk?

...dilimpahi kegembiraan?

...dihujani kesangsian dan menginginkan pendamai?

...saya memerlukan tempat berpaut?

...saya mendambakan kasih selaut?

mungkin kah ada insan yang bersimpati??

.:: people say::.

Anger is an emotion. Semua org pun tau..ape daa!! Based on wiki, anger is a natural and MATURE emotion experienced by all humans at times, and as something that has functional value for survival. But it neither be positive nor negative. Until YOU made it that way!!

True when people did say:

"It's dangerous when following one's heart IF one's heart was consumed by petty desires and personal revenge"

We are 1 when we were in front of each other

BUT

We don't even know who we are when we are apart

WHY??? (hate it)

But there is another people who did say:

"Anger can only be subdued if it expressed in WORDS and if those words are recognized by people"

A friend of mine suggesting this to me in order to handle my anger:

- determine whether or not it worth it if you get angry at things

- thinks of the consequences that may be lead by the anger

- put myself in the person's shoe (the person yang akan dimarah)

- make sure you calm down yourself first by practicing good breathing pattern

- take ablution (the power of water) try it!!

- ask person's opinion or simply just tell the other person especially the one you really trust in

Sometimes aku tertanya

Can I receive healing from God everytime?

The answer is, definitely YES...

with conditions:

Don't forget to pray and be good to people

Berusaha and then bertawakkal

"Anakku, apabila yang dikejar itu sesuatu yang tinggi dan mulia, maka banyaklah akibatnya dan panjanglah jalan untuk menuju ke sana" - Imam Ghazali (credit to here)

Kan senang if kita ikut je ape Islam da ajar.

Bila kita rasa marah, istighfar.

And the best yet the hardest part, buat bodo sudah..lalalala~~

.::hurt me again::.

kenapa?

kenapa aku? kenapa aku ada sifat buruk ni?

kenapa aku minta orang lain memahami aku sedangkan aku xpernah cuba untuk memahami orang lain?

kenapa aku merayu pada benda yang pasti bukan milik aku?

kenapa aku xpernah berusaha untuk berubah sedangkan aku sedar kelemahan diri?

kenapa aku selalu mengulangi kesilapan hinggakan diri aku sendiri terhina?

kenapa aku terlalu suka melihat keperitan orang lain demi kebahagiaan diri sendiri?

kenapa aku xpernah bersyukur dengan semua yang ada?

kenapa aku??

aku dibesarkan oleh ustazah

aku dididik dengan ilmu agama yang cukup

aku pergi sekolah agama bertahun2

mak, umie n abah ajar aku mengenali Tuhan

tapi kenapa aku xpernah menggunakan ilmu yang ada?

aku ni takabur

aku ni riak

aku ni hina

aku ni insan yang xpernah bersyukur

ya Tuhanku,

andai ku tahu..

ampunilah aku...

entry ni ditulis sebab ada 1 insan mulia dah sedarkan aku dengan kata-katanya:

'selama aku dengan kau pun, kau bukan tunjuk aku jalan ketuhanan pun'

terima kasih..

.::ciri2 lelaki idaman::.

Korang ingat x cerita cinderella, sleeping beauty and etc. I mean, cerita2 dongeng yang ada heroin yang cantik dan hero yang bapak ensem and macho.. Its like I've started imagining those kind of things since emmm...since the moment I watched those kind of movies lah...orang kate, angan2 tu penting for real thing to happen...

I'm sure uols pun pernah terfikir benda yang sama dengan I kan.. alaa..ngaku jelah... even though paper exam in just next 2 hours from this second, tetibe je rasa nk menulis ciri2 lelaki idaman yang aku selalu harap2 kan... setiap perkara yang ditulis tidak mempunyai sebarang kaitan dgn yang masih hidup atau pn telah pergi...

1. Prihatin

Aku nak laki yang boleh dengar dengan teliti dan ini bukan bermaksud lelaki yg bertelinga lebar ok.. tak nak yang masuk telinga kiri keluar telinga kanan.

2. Penawar

Dia mesti rajin dan pandai memberikan kata-kata keramat untuk dijadikan penawar hati. walaupun sometimes kurang rupa, tidak mengapa.. sebab aku ni senang sangat menghadapi kemungkinan untuk ditimpa sakit dari sakit mata sampai sakit jiwa raga. So, hati ni amat perlu dijaga; dan hanya kata-kata manis dan betul susunan nahunya akan menjadi penawar segala bisa.

3. Kebebasan

Kebebasan tu bukanlah sampai melanggar batas-batas hukum, tetapi berupa hak. Contohnya bila pergi window shopping... biarkan aku pegang, belek, sentuh, angkat dan letak barang2 yg aku suka tanpa bantahan... Kalau da kawen nt, bila berada di dalam kedai perabot, aku berhak untuk mengangkut sebanyak mana barangan yang dikehendaki, kecuali tokey kedai tu..lelaki cuma perlu senyum saja. Jika hendak melarang pun, gunakanlah suara selembut bayu.

4. Wangi

Biasalah, fitrah perempuan..dicipta untuk menyukai sesuatu yang bersih dan cantik.. lagi2 nak jalan sebelah aku, xkn nk g tgk wayang dgn org macam pelarian...Kalau nak markah lebih tinggi, kenakan wangi-wangian selalu, mandi dan berendamlah dalam botol minyak wangi.

5. Sopan

Dalam erti kata yang lain, mereka sentiasa rela dan redha menyerahkan wang ke tangan aku. Bukan untuk dikuasai, tapi inilah cara paling baik untuk menjaga kesihatan bersama dan kemaslahatan umum seperti mengawal jumlah asap rokok yang disedut sang suami. Paling penting langkahnya pun tidaklah terlalu panjang dan matanya pun tidaklah terlalu liar untuk memandang perempuan-perempuan lain.

6. Beriman

Sumpah, inilah aspek utama yang akan dilihat walaupun kadang2, perbuatan time dating tu macam da xkenal sape2 kt dunia... dan xdilupakan, lelaki itu juga perlu membawa anak-anak ke rumah ibadat, bukannya sekadar menjadi driver menghantar anak2 sahaja.

7. Bijak

Yang dapat melihat pelbagai pengaruh buruk cuba merosakkan hidupnya tapi tanpa ragu-ragu berkata "TIDAK"... tapi pastikan yang perkara itu, bukanlah aku...

8. Tolak ansur

Yang ni sape2 pn xakan teragak2 untuk memilikinya... jarang lelaki nk buang ego dan tunduk pada kesalahan mereka. biasanya mereka ni datang dari golongan yang idup xjejak tanah... aku akan pastikan lelaki aku itu tidak malu berkata; “Saya minta maaf, sayalah yang bersalah.”

9. Pemurah

Pemurah kat sini, maksudnya yang sentiasa tersenyum, merendah diri dan mesra dengan sesiapa sahaja tanpa mengira darjat dan kedudukan. satu lagi ciri yang aku selalu cari...mungkin lelaki hari ni xpernah dengar 'senyum adalah sebahagian daripada sedekah'... xpe, kalu xdapat pn, nt aku boleh ajar...

10. Sedar diri

Lelaki idaman aku ni jgk perlu sentiasa berusaha untuk menjadi contoh terbaik kepada anak-anak. bukan hanya beromong kosong macam cerita si luncai dan biri2 nye..eh, betul ke? ape2 jelah...

Aku rasa cukup lah kot ciri2 yang tersenarai ni... lg pn, da nk kena siap2 g exam... wish aku good luck k... oh, sesape yg rase die ada ciri2 yang tercatat kat atas ni, sile lah tinggalkan jejak anda supaya blh dihubungi kemudian hari...

Ingatlah, semua tu hanyalah CIRI-CIRI LELAKI IDAMAN.... bila kata idaman..ia memang amat jarang menjadi kenyataan kan..aku ada terbaca satu laman ni, dan aku dak petik dah pun untuk dijadikan tatapan uols... ianya berbunyi:

"SESUNGGUHNYA..LIDAH WANITA ITU AKAN MENJADI SEMAKIN TAJAM APABILA LIDAH LELAKI MENJADI SEMAKIN BERCABANG!!!"

.::kiamat::.

Aritu aku ade cerita2 dgn die pasal bab2 agama ni..yela,nk g dgr tazkirah,da agak susah...tinggal kite je yg kena saling mengingati...betul x?and kali ni,aku nk kongsi ngan korg pulak...ni salah satu topik yg best utk sedarkn kite sedikit drpd xde lgsung...

Antara tanda-tanda kiamat kecil berdasarkan hadis(credit to here):

* Penaklukan Baitulmuqaddis.

Dari Auf b. Malik r.a., katanya, "Rasulullah s. a. w. telah bersabda:"Aku menghitung enam perkara menjelang hari kiamat."Baginda menyebutkan salah satu di antaranya, iaitu penaklukan Baitulmuqaddis." - Sahih Bukhari

* Zina bermaharajalela.

"Dan tinggallah manusia-manusia yang buruk, yang seenaknya melakukan persetubuhan seperti himar (keldai). Maka pada zaman mereka inilah kiamat akan datang." - Sahih Muslim

* Bermaharajalela alat muzik.

"Pada akhir zaman akan terjadi tanah runtuh, rusuhan dan perubahan muka."Ada yang bertanya kepada Rasulullah; "Wahai Rasulullah bila hal ini terjadi?" Baginda menjawab; "Apabila telah bermaharajalela bunyi-bunyian (muzik) dan penyanyi-penyanyi wanita" - Ibnu Majah

* Menghias masjid dan membanggakannya.

"Di antara tanda-tanda telah dekatnya kiamat ialah manusia bermegah-megahan dalam mendirikan masjid" - Riwayat Nasai.

* Munculnya kekejian, memutuskan kerabat dan hubungan dengan tetangga tidak baik.

"Tidak akan datang kiamat sehingga banyak perbuatan dan perkataan keji, memutuskan hubungan silaturahim dan sikap yang buruk dalam tetangga." - Riwayat Ahmad dan Hakim

* Ramai orang soleh meninggal dunia.

"Tidak akan datang hari kiamat sehingga Allah mengambil orang-orang yang baik dan ahli agama dimuka bumi, maka tiada yang tinggal padanya kecuali orang-orang yang hina dan buruk yang tidak mengetahui

yang makruf dan tidak mengingkari kemungkaran - Riwayat Ahmad

* Orang hina mendapat kedudukan terhormat.

"Di antara tanda-tanda semakin dekatnya kiamat ialah dunia akan dikuasai oleh Luka' bin Luka'(orang yang bodoh dan hina). Maka orang yang paling baik ketika itu ialah orang yang beriman yang diapit oleh dua

orang mulia" - Riwayat Thabrani

* Mengucapkan salam kepada orang yang dikenalnya sahaja.

"Sesungguhnya di antara tanda-tanda telah dekatnya hari kiamat ialah manusia tidak mahu mengucapkan salam kepada orang lain kecuali yang dikenalnya saja." - Riwayat Ahmad

* Banyak wanita yang berpakaian tetapi hakikatnya telanjang.

Diriwayatkan dari Abu Hurairah r.a. "Di antara tanda-tanda telah dekatnya hari kiamat ialah akan muncul pakaian-pakaian wanita dan apabila mereka memakainya keadaannya seperti telanjang."

* Bulan sabit kelihatan besar.

"Di antara tanda-tanda telah dekatnya hari kiamat ialah menggelembung (membesarnya) bulan sabit." - Riwayat Thabrani

* Banyak dusta dan tidak tepat dalam menyampaikan berita.

"Pada akhir zaman akan muncul pembohong-pembohong besar yang datang kepadamu dengan membawa berita-berita yang belum pernah kamu dengar dan belum pernah didengar oleh bapa-bapa kamu sebelumnya, kerana itu jauhkanlah dirimu dari mereka agar mereka tidak

menyesatkanmu dan memfitnahmu" - Sahih Muslim

* Banyak saksi palsu dan menyimpan kesaksian yang benar.

"Sesungguhnya sebelum datangnya hari kiamat akan banyak kesaksian palsu dan disembunyikan kesaksian yang benar" - Riwayat Ahmad

* Negara Arab menjadi padang rumput dan sungai.

"Tidak akan datang hari kiamat sehingga negeri Arab kembali menjadi padang rumput dan sungai-sungai." - Sahih Muslim

Renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal...wallahu a'lam...