.::nak bukak buku baru::.

Salam tahun baru and salam semangat baru uols..

Fuh2..banyak nye habuk kat sini..da berkulapuk..eeuwww!tu menandakan,sy da lama gila xdtg jenguk dashboard blog sy ni..bukan da malas nak berkongsi cerita.tp banyak sgt benda berlaku smpai nk capture dengan tulisan sgt2 lah xsempat..hanya org2 terdekat ngan saya je tahu every-single-thing that’ve happened to me.especially to my dear adek2 and lovely-umie..i heart all of u darlingssss~

As they say: “Let bygone be bygone”

He had chosen to break up and go on with our own path without attaching to each other parties. Ever again..and sy xada choice lain even though it hurt me like a thousand stabs of a sword in the heart.. it’s true, I’ll answer people that I’m tough enough and doesn’t care as he left. And the real truth is, just don’t ask me more or else, you have to attend me until I finish with the tears matter.done!

I really love into business. But like my umie said,I’m not that ‘kind of business’ person. Huh! With the stone-head and rebel-attitude of me says: just do what you wanna do. Otherwise, you’ll be in terrific regret..haha,macam kanak2 xcukup umur kan ckp macam ni. just imagine, there’s a giant genie popped up in front of your face and talk to you.karOt!

Sedar x sedar, sy da kerja kat Transwater,Glenmarie ni for almost 4months. Yela, it’s better for me rather than not doing something good kan– xproductive nye hidup.xsuke.xsuke. baru2 ni tibe2 dtg smangat nak start bisnes online. Ada la juga bcakap dgn beberapa org kawan.

Some of them said:
-Business can’t be parallel done with any other kind of job in the whole world. take it serious and be serious with it. Only then you’ll succeed.
-If it’s just an online business, plus I’ve just started with the thing, make it relax. Do it as a side –income first. Jangan benti kerja lagi.

What I think is:
-Betul. Sebab nak main ngan IT-thingy ni, sy bukan cekap sgt lagi. So, really takes longer time. Kalau kerja 8 to 5, memang xsempat lah nk update and pantau everything. Mmg la kat tempat kije ada access internet, tp xbest la pulak kan kalau buat kerja lain masa working hours. Haish,jujur la kononnye ni. Tp bukak jugak kan.lalala~tp,what if online bz ni xbg pape income?nak makan apa??haaaa..
-Statement kedua ni ada ramai jugak yg ckap kat sy. And agak betul jugak. Kalau pandai arrange masa semua, insya-Allah the bz will go smooth. The important thing is, I have to be tough enough! And the fact is, I was just tough enough occay~hehe..

peace!!

So, after this I won’t say much about my relationship-thingy until I recover and ready to share in here. Just support me whatever I do. And please remind me if I look like slipping from the right course..ur care is much appreciated!

-xoxo-

.::something that I missed for the mean time::.

since my last paper as a student last June,I think I wasn't that much productive at home..I'm not a free flying young bird anymore since I was bound to my new task-nanny thingy..yes,it was fun undeniably..taking care of my little nephew Nazhan ain't boring at all and it gave me a new kind of experience in further understand baby's need and language..


down deep in my heart,I miss my list-to-do thing..I love to go out and see people's doing and going back home only when I'm feeling to.I could stay in a coffee house up to 8 hours watching people while surfing internet..its a waste isn't it?but I do not mind as my heart pond of it rather than being at a proper place but have to face and deal with someone who I don't wish to be with..


oh ya,could you imagine.there is 'money-eye' people in our society,keeping a relationship nice and good if they are bundled with money and things..and this kind of people too would suddenly terminate the relationship just because there's nothing more you could give to them..huh!never ever sincere of what they're doing..



syatila always remind me on this type of people but ignorance always be my first choice.."jangan senang sangat bagi duit kat org,bila awak xada duit nanti awak akan faham maksud saya"..I gave away everything I could and she's doing good to me.and when I have nothing to give,she throw me a harsh words..yet,she beat me up..what the world served~~


anyway,I don't mean to brag over here.or asking you to kill that person for me or what..hoho..just a few nice words for Allah to open her heart and make it even softer.sometimes I got jealous of other's but just in a time I realize that I have all that I want too~~

.::trying to figure out::.

since my last paper,I got nothing much to do unless staying at home,taking care of my little Nazhan and start to learn cooking from my SIL-Kak Tie...as told by my former classmate,the result will come out on Friday..and today is Friday..

but the day goes like this:
6.30am - preparing breakfast for my sister
7.15am - do laundry and house chores
9am - watching movie(marah2 sayang)
10am - as boringness increases,i rode my bike to Subang and play with Zarif
1pm- rode back to Prima Saujana,Kajang as my SIL's brother (abg Pein) wanna drop his wife at home before he attend his meeting at 2.30pm
2.30pm - Bank Islam,Bangi.to claim for a new lost card but cant proceed today.
asked to come back again on Monday..sigh
3pm - waiting for the rain to stop..it was a real heavy rain..
me and Syatila:having a nice chat after a long pause..
5pm - reach home..he continues reminding me on how much he care about me..
how much he wants me to be tough and patience..
5.30pm - only then im aware that i didnt take my slip yet..then,he promise to fetch me on Monday for that..

huh,how amnesia i am..atoiyai~~

before he left,there's1 boy calling me.i feel disturbed and he answer the call for me..Syatila said that we were engaged and never wants 'theboy' to call me ever again..

he told me his plan and how far he has arranged every single thing for us in future..i could see his enthusiasm in getting my full attention,now..i dont know~~

my head and my heart isnt seem to have bilateral-synchronize-harmonious opinion..it makes my body feel a bit tired..i have to figure out everything step by step,again,from the start...oh Lord,smooth my path~~

i miss Nazhan..his smile,his voice,his 'telatah'..he left me for Johor since,yesterday.yes,it was yesterday.and i missed him damned much!!he will come back tomorrow.hope the time flies faster than usual...

for now,i need to call off my study to JPA..hope i wont forget it again~~

.::final vacation::.

Last Saturday,unintentionally I was landed at PD..after sending the car at Serdang,someone told me to get prepare for a short holiday in PD..it was 2pm at the time we moved. so that i left kL with my only shirt and slack i worn plus my only back-pack (laptop + notes + make-up)..at least,xlah sehelai sepinggang~~

i was there for twice before..but only now i knew the detailed way to go..hee,sebab kitorg due2 xtau jalan,so main redah jelah..skrg da tau!!we reached there about 3pm and i was invited by his family members to do sauna..even though i ever did sauna before,but this kind of sauna almost killing me..haha!!selama ni i selalu buat sauna dalam box je,kepala kat luar..this time,i went into sauna room with very hot vaporized air and i can feel all the heat burning up my face receptor sensory..it was damn HOT!!biasanya boleh tahan 30minutes,this time i only can bear up to 15minutes~~

huhu,padan muke i!!

right after oversweating session and 10minutes rest,i enjoined the rest of them get down into the pool..i tibai his niece punye track suit..huhu...i thought the pool was filled up to my level of height,once i jumped in,haha...the funny thing is i almost get drown~

seb bek dok main tepi2 saje,sempat gak berpaut..selamat!kantoi xpandai berenang,only tau menyelam!!bak kata dia lah..huh~

i swam about an hour only..ikut kan ati xmaw naik lagi,but he insisted me to get out of the pool since the pool was crowded by many handsome and tough guys..(diorg datang utk kursus kot)..ehee jeles la tu!

it was time to take a nap in the room..1 thing i wanna share with all of u.the room was facing right to the sea with breathtaking view..rase macam xnak balik kL je bile dok kat situ..emm~~

its only a while for me to enjoy the scenery as i still have paper on Monday to sit..i pun study lah dengan bersungguh2 nye...while he left me and go for the sea with his bro-in-law..sampai ati xajak~~

ni view right from the front balconi..

ni another view..sgt tenang.tp daylight time je la,malam penuh sesak yg amat!!

after maghrib,we went down to the nearest shop to get some rice and a mat..since we were having an unplanned BBQ that night,we only have chickens,cencaru/ikan jaket and ikan merah..cet,mcm la kenal sgt ikan..tu pun i tau sbb his sister told me...lalala~~

while waiting for them prepare all the foods,i myself walked down through the beach and,and it was very pleasant feeling..pheww..walking with bare foot on the beach sand,hear to breeze of night air and looking far to the endless point of the sea~

the calmness flew all the tensions in my head away...

there are kids running around,creatively trying to build a sand castle,couples having a nice walk and chats,teens doing camping and not forgetting,majlis perbandaran giving fine to whose setting a burn for BBQ in the hole of the sand..hehe,we overheard the discussion,they have to pay for RM150 for that..xpasal2 je membazir..serve them right..you've polluted the environment you know!!seb bek kitorg ada BBQ set tuh..huhu

we returned to the apartment by 10.30pm..everyone looks tired..setakat ni,everything sounds good and nice right??no,it won't last..selalu mcm tu,bila sy nak gembira,mesti ada benda yg bunuh kegembiraan sy tuh..sy xsuka..sgt xsuka!!

he brought me to a such place..instead he has another one he adore the MOST!!!

the worst part,he knew I knew it..

menjengkelkan~

horrible~

frustrating~

he bought me a shirt to change..

people do say,kalau kita bagi hadiah baju,means the relationship will be end up very3 s0on..he ignores me!!

i don't know~

in the middle of the night,we were out to the sea for a walk and hopefully for a nice chatting after a long while we always arguing each other...

we have steamboat and syrup for that..

PD is just like Bukit Bintang for kL..the people enjoy the night most!

some of them play beach ball,some of them get fish and some of them try to catch a crab..i xtau la betul ke x penggunaan catch kat sini..sbb diorg bukan pergi tunda pun,diorg g tangkap..so,u know~~

(^_^)

pic credited to google..

we sat and try to REbuild the dreams we once hold in the back and make everything clear...

tp bila pagi,he's not stay long with the mood..pagi2 lagi da kena marah..so,i yg kepala batu ni pun nk tunjuk degil jugak..i xbreakfast..ingatkan nk pujuk,die smbung tdo pulak lpas tu..huh..so,im starving for the day up to 12pm..sgt menyakitkan perut i taw!!da la emosi xstabil,lapar pulak tuh..

after checking out,we stopped at R&R seremban to have lunch..thank God,at last dapat jgk makan~he sent me home at Subang and that was the end of a good memories to hold...

this is Kak ti-his eldest sister..i curik gmbr ni kat facebook syatila..

to his eldest sister,Kak ti..sy mintak maaf and i understand you've sacrificed a lot all these while..your kids are all very nice t0o...thank you for treating me just like your own blood last night and yes,it's true..God've shown me many times..i have a long journey yet to go..all this 'pain' will be my good teacher for me..i'll be strong enough in future..

love and life can never be separated..but you choose your life rhythm and you are the one who are able to pick up the right love to color your life...

.::sometimes::.

sometimes...just really sometimes...you wonder what this other person is doing..

if they are thinking about you?

if they worry about you?

you keep wondering what they are doing at this exact moment.

if they are watching a movie or are out with friends.

if they are eating or falling sick.

if they are looking at the same sky and searching for the same falling star to make the very same wish as you do..

if they see a couple walking in the park and remember bout you and times you were walking together,holding hands and laughing just like this couple does.

sometimes you wonder if they are missing you like you miss them.

if they want to talk to you.

if they want to hold you.

if they just want to look into your eyes and find the answer to all the questions they may have in mind.

if they have any..

but then sometimes...just really sometimes...

they do not call you

do not mail you

and do not reply to your text messages

and the only things left for you is this wondering:

don't they miss you at all?

what might keep them so busy that they cannot find a minute..

just one minute to make you feel remembered,cared for,loved?

someone once said that

in each relationship one person always love more

maybe it is true.

there is always someone who loves a bit more.

a bit more passionate.

a bit more strong.

a bit more emotional.

a bit more....

sometimes...maybe not only sometimes..

you are the one who loves more

and then you want to see if they will miss you if you disappear

for a moment

an hour

a day

a week..

you might want to make them wondering.

BUT

what if it does not make any difference for them??

sometimes...just really sometimes...

it is better to stop wondering....

.::cantik dan tak cantik::.

benda ni maybe korg da biasa baca..

tp nak jgk post kat cni sbb nak bg seseorg tu sedar!!

hahaha...amek ko nk sgt..aku post kat cni jgk..

sbb prangai ko mcm ni~~

Kalau perempuan cantik pendiam

lelaki akan kata: wow!ciri2 isteri idaman...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik pendiam

Lelaki akan kata: tak reti berkomunikasi agaknyer...

Kalau perempuan cantik berbuat jahat

Lelaki akan kata: mst ada krisis nih...kesiannyer...

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Lelaki akan kata: hmm...taktik nak ngorat la tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik dpt lelaki handsome

Lelaki akan kata: ok la...bagai pinang d belah dua...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik dpt lelaki handsome

Lelaki akan kata: kesian...mst dah kena bomoh lelaki tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik d tinggal kekasih

Lelaki akan kata: buta kayu btol mamat tu!!

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Lelaki akan kata: patut pon kena reject...

Kalau perempuan cantik bawa BMW

Lelaki akan kata: ntah dato' mana bela ni...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik bawa BMW

Lelaki akan kata: mesti anak org kaya ni

Kalau perempuan cantik menuang air ke gelas lelaki

Lelaki akan kata: wah...caringnyer...

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Lelaki akan kata: eleh,gedik la tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik bersedih hati

Lelaki akan kata: don't worry,i will make u happy forever...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik bersedih hati

Lelaki akan kata: ckit2 nangis!!gembeng tol..ngade2 la...

Kalau perempuan cantik pandai masak

Lelaki akan kata: dah la lawa,pandai masak plak tu...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik pandai masak

Lelaki akan kata: ntah sedap ke tak tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik main2 miskol

Lelaki akan kata: syoknye!!rindu la tu...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik main2 miskol

Lelaki akan kata: ko ni takde keje lain ke??!sibuk ni tau tak!!

Kalau perempuan cantik hantar email hari2

Lelaki akan kata: sukenyer...!!

Kalau perempuan tak cantik hantar2 email

Lelaki akan kata: asyik2 email dia...boring!

bukan nk kutuk kaum adam,sama jgk ngan pompuan pn sbenarnye..

so,be fair and honest..

jgn mainkan perasaan org..

oklah..da nak tdo dulu..

to all my friends yg nak exam,wish u all the best..

may your efforts get paid...

with Allah's will,u'll pass..

ameen..