.::trying to figure out::.

since my last paper,I got nothing much to do unless staying at home,taking care of my little Nazhan and start to learn cooking from my SIL-Kak Tie...as told by my former classmate,the result will come out on Friday..and today is Friday..

but the day goes like this:
6.30am - preparing breakfast for my sister
7.15am - do laundry and house chores
9am - watching movie(marah2 sayang)
10am - as boringness increases,i rode my bike to Subang and play with Zarif
1pm- rode back to Prima Saujana,Kajang as my SIL's brother (abg Pein) wanna drop his wife at home before he attend his meeting at 2.30pm
2.30pm - Bank Islam,Bangi.to claim for a new lost card but cant proceed today.
asked to come back again on Monday..sigh
3pm - waiting for the rain to stop..it was a real heavy rain..
me and Syatila:having a nice chat after a long pause..
5pm - reach home..he continues reminding me on how much he care about me..
how much he wants me to be tough and patience..
5.30pm - only then im aware that i didnt take my slip yet..then,he promise to fetch me on Monday for that..

huh,how amnesia i am..atoiyai~~

before he left,there's1 boy calling me.i feel disturbed and he answer the call for me..Syatila said that we were engaged and never wants 'theboy' to call me ever again..

he told me his plan and how far he has arranged every single thing for us in future..i could see his enthusiasm in getting my full attention,now..i dont know~~

my head and my heart isnt seem to have bilateral-synchronize-harmonious opinion..it makes my body feel a bit tired..i have to figure out everything step by step,again,from the start...oh Lord,smooth my path~~

i miss Nazhan..his smile,his voice,his 'telatah'..he left me for Johor since,yesterday.yes,it was yesterday.and i missed him damned much!!he will come back tomorrow.hope the time flies faster than usual...

for now,i need to call off my study to JPA..hope i wont forget it again~~

.::kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan::.

walaupun saket org tgk pada luarannya

tp kite tau yg kita berdua mula bahagia...

p/s:yeay!!shahir menang....dpt lagu tema baru..wink2~~

.::i'm s0rry::.

referring to the last post...

ehee

i'm sorry..

yep..seriously and not kidding...

really truly very apology...

ok..

dah!!

i know,it's quite harsh and impolite way of expressing my feeling towards you.

but since no one to hear me talking

then I write it..

ok,sorry...

guys out there!!

i do say s0rry if you guys xselesa membaca post tersebut..

i ingt nk delete je tapi

tibe2 rase xmaw delete

sbb 1 day I could read it again and think of my bad-bad attitude..

abg,

im sorry

thank you for everything..

ha,satu lagi.

pasal msg dalam inb0x fb tu pun,

I'm sorry~~

haha

.::get well soon::.

dah 4 hari demam baru nak pegi klinik??

kan da kena marah dgn doc..

eleh,tp bg MC sehari je p0n..

next time tggu 4bulan k..

smbil menyeringai..

nasib baik die nampak baik...

so redha je la...

mcm biasa..

PCM, Maxolon ngan Dulcolax..ooops!!

ada masalah pembuangan juge..

so alang2 tu mintak je lah..

bukan bayar pn..

smlm da cuti..

arini dpt lah bekerja dgn sempurna...

lgpn mlm tadi

injected with high-dosage unbearable spirit..wink2

oohhh

da sehat

walaupun still ada mslh olfactory and taste..

its occay

start to think tentang research!!

research74x~~~

\("(^_^)")/

.::happy morning::.

It's true!!

Life is all about pairing

Up and down

Happiness and sadness

Awesome and jerkiness

Good surprise and bad 1

Desire and REALITY!!

I love it

Life had taught me on how to be a tougher survivor

Day by day~~

oh!!

Thank God

What a surprise

Today...

I'm sitting in silence

While the sun rise

Through the window

The air embraced me tightly

Giving me a kind of calm feeling

yes, i'm back

I'm reaching the positive quadrant of emotions again!!

Thanks to you~~

picture grabbed from google

Have a merry morning everone..cheer up!!

Warm hug and big smile for you...

lalala~~~

.::a friendship::.

Lately, ada je problem yg datang..

The problem is, I'm not kinda girl who loves sharing my own personal problem with people. Because I believe that nobody else able to understand what you think or feel..

What a negative perception i owned..

eheh..

What a good friend i do have all these while but never realize their existence..

haish, my bad, my bad..

That's why la kot aku slalu depressed..

Keeping it to myself doesn't really help me as it gonna worsen my condition..

As this 2 days, i slowly learn on how to live my life again.

I can't really explain in here, but the most important thing is,

I know who really cared over me..

One have said:

"Lie is actually lies in the middle of believe.. "

When you put trust in people, don't forget that they are not you.

They will never be fair to you.

You are the one who determines the best for you!!

One of my best friend told me:

Sol, it's normal to have these kind of problems in relationship.

Make it simple and do not burden yourself.

Do not think too much, be patience.

"Mengalah doesn't mean you were kalah." i love the phrase.

He said:

Men doesn't like to be pushed and looked down. (But I think, girls do so) Just be aware of what you are doing, play safe.

He said too:

Men hardly confess their wrongdoing but give him some space to think over.

I'm not blaming him for all, but I did apologized from him.

it's ok...

Give him space.. space..

And the last thing he said:

Men hates to be 'maki'.

But then, don't make me angry!! that's all i need.

Understanding.

Tp aku pun, cpat je marahnye.. =p

The most important thing, he asked me to:

"sabala..jangan tensen..ceriakan diri anda...g la shopping ke, makan ke, nengok movie ke.."

The problem is, I've tried yesterday and I failed.

Planned nak g Sogo, shopping. Tgh jalan2, tukar.

Planned nk tgk movie "Princess and the Frog" kat Leisure mall pulak.. Jalan depan sikit, cancel lagi.

Last2 aku g TESCO blakang kolej ni je..

I'm in no mood~~

Betul la kate Mairul(kawan baru kenal masa program community),

the secret to be success is to be positive.

as positive as you can be!!

be positive Soleha~~~

Whatever it is, i'm a bit relieved and try to conceive what he told me to do. don't cry baby!! it's a WASTE!!!

Thanks to you, my good old friend (Azreen)!!

.::beraye dalam bas::.

Tepat jam 8.45 mlm,aku tiba di Perhentian Putra... terus g serbu kaunter tiket tanye kat mane bas yg aku akn naik pasni...ye la, bas tambahan... da penuh,die gerak lah..9.15 mlm aku pn gerak...

Ptg td abg bwk aku g bukit permai lg... best, walaupun xsetinggi bukit ampang and xada restaurant, scenery die still tip top!!!

Abg janji aku balik cuti nt die nk bwk aku g tgk movies from morning sampai mlm... i'll redeem it hook or by crook...

Neway, berbalik pd story raye aku... jalan raya tersangat lah famous sbb semua org berpusu2 berkumpul dan berlumba2 bermain di atas nya... tp diorg xmoh ajak bas main sekali...so, terpaksa lah bas merangkak2 ditepi bahu jln sahaja... disebabkan ke-nyet2-an pergerakan, maka aku tiba di Kelantan by 7.50am... abah aku pn siap2 bertakbir dah kt surau... seb bek amah ada nk amek aku...huhu..

Da la xsolat subuh, semayang raye pn xdan...uwaaaaaa~~~

Masa atas bas aku duk dgn sorg akak ni... kak Anis.. die ni buat bisnes computer... cm best je... tau2 je la, aku ni gile bisnes... sbb xde duet je, so hasrat aku terbantut.... xpe2..aku tgh usaha kn ni... uols pn tggu k... my bisnes-thingy is coming soon... abg invest his money for d first time...ang i hope it to be as success as i wish...

K lah... nk beraya plk...salam eid Adha...

.::termination::.

Tepat jam 10.45pagi td, maka tamatlah sem 1 final year aku...

hoho...

Happy!!!!!!!!!!! happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

semua org da balik raye..

amah da balik 2minggu lpas lg..

adek plk minggu lepas..

jojo, kak iela and zarif da balik semalam...

tinggal aku terkapai2 tunggu pukul 9.30 mlm ni,naik bas tambahan...first time dalam idop aku naik bas tambahan..teruk nye rase...

Neway,

d time yg aku plg xsuke da pn tiba... i dun like d feeling but i have to face it anyway...

happy to get back home and at the same time feeling down to say good bye to 'kL'...

dun u get me?

i got u...

ekekekkekek...

k lah...wish u a happy eid adha... jaga jari jangan main pisau or lari2 takot terjatuh kat tempat sembelihan lembu plk..

wa ilalliqa' ma'as salamah...