.::hidup sendiri::.

Assalamualaikum semua..tajuk arini bukan cam cerita2 yang lepas..asyik mood sedih je kan..'hidup sendiri' ni bukan maksud nye sy ni keseorangan or kesepian..haha..macam desperate lak bunyi nye..

maksud nye kat sini,I was about to step into a new phase of my life further.. this coming Tuesday(3rd May 2011),saya akan start kerja kat 1 software company in Kelana Jaya.even tho this isn't my first experience working,but yet this would be much different as this is not temporary as before and I got into this job on my own effort.ingat lagi masa hari nk g interview tu,sesat sampai ke Puchong pergi nya..haha..nasib baik adik Ain teman.kalau x,mmg da lama benti kete tepi jalan,nanges dulu baru sambung jalan balik..muahahaha~

at first,ingat x dapat bcoz gaji basic yang I mintak tu is a bit high for the post.so,I accepted the offer to teach a standard 3 students in Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Sultan Ismail Satu(1)..the offer goes for 20days with RM50 a day.that would be covered by PIBG of the school.unfortunately, I got a call on the 4th day of teaching asking me to come on the next Tuesday..payah gak nak decide.in the end, I decided to quit and go to Kelana Jaya..berat hati nak tinggalkan diorang..they had given so much fun and well-memories..just sempat capture beberapa pictures aje ngan they all..hope they will grow beautiful and wonderfully..alasan lainnye,boleh ke sy berjauhan dgn parents tercinta n 'hidup sendiri'??

hmmm...berbalik pada cerita yang awal tadi..dah nak gi sangat kat sana,mesti kena ada tempat tinggal kan..so,first time la sy bukak mudah.my..it's quite helpful.walaupun takes time nk cari sbb banyak sgt ads yang 2years ago pun ada lagi..but still,I was so thankful to the website.masa call tu pun,orang yang angkat tu mcm ramah n ok la.happy la kan kalu dapat housemate yang baik..ye dak??i hope so..ameen..rumah ni walking-distance je dgn office..even tho kne kongsi beramai2,tp ok kot sbb nk jimat punya pasal..kata nak survive sendiri..so,I will try my best to be good and well-behave..ala,lagipun umah abg dekat sgt ngan Kelana Jaya tu..no worries at all..anytime I could give him a call or just drop to his house..main ngan Zarif...yeay!!!!!!

ops,nak tau x berapa rental amount utk umah sewa yg sy dapat ni?haha..tgk cni baik2 eh..RM100/month sahaja..and I duduk kat condo tau..best kan..thanks Allah for His bless and best-known..

ok lah..barang xkemas lagi..malam sok da nak naik bas..kenapa malam??sempat ke nak gi kerja pagi2 Selasa tu??hish..sebab pagi2 sok sy nak g klinik dulu..check perut..selalu sgt experience abdominal-colic pain kan..just to rule out the possible factors.mencegah lebih baik daripada mengubati..ye dak??pastu nak g jumpa guru besar lagi.last week dia g China..cam xsopan pulak kalau benti kije xjumpa dia dulu..walaupun dah call..macam kita masuk rumah orang la.kne beri salam mintak izin nak masuk..and kalau da nak balik pun,kena la beradab juga..

so u all..sila doakan kesejahteraan saya and semoga sy selamat ye..mari kita baca doa ni sesama..bak kata umi terchenta,doa ni baik utk diamalkan and bagus juga dibaca lepas solat Dhuha.iaitu-

"Ya Allah ya tuhan ku.Tuhan yang maha Pengasih dan maha Mengetahui..

jika rezeki ku itu berada di langit,Kau turunkan lah..

jika ia berada di bumi,keluarkan lah.

jika ia jauh dariku,Kau dekatkan lah dan

jika ia dekat dengan ku,Kau permudahkan lah..."

take care semua..salam sayang..

.::nak bukak buku baru::.

Salam tahun baru and salam semangat baru uols..

Fuh2..banyak nye habuk kat sini..da berkulapuk..eeuwww!tu menandakan,sy da lama gila xdtg jenguk dashboard blog sy ni..bukan da malas nak berkongsi cerita.tp banyak sgt benda berlaku smpai nk capture dengan tulisan sgt2 lah xsempat..hanya org2 terdekat ngan saya je tahu every-single-thing that’ve happened to me.especially to my dear adek2 and lovely-umie..i heart all of u darlingssss~

As they say: “Let bygone be bygone”

He had chosen to break up and go on with our own path without attaching to each other parties. Ever again..and sy xada choice lain even though it hurt me like a thousand stabs of a sword in the heart.. it’s true, I’ll answer people that I’m tough enough and doesn’t care as he left. And the real truth is, just don’t ask me more or else, you have to attend me until I finish with the tears matter.done!

I really love into business. But like my umie said,I’m not that ‘kind of business’ person. Huh! With the stone-head and rebel-attitude of me says: just do what you wanna do. Otherwise, you’ll be in terrific regret..haha,macam kanak2 xcukup umur kan ckp macam ni. just imagine, there’s a giant genie popped up in front of your face and talk to you.karOt!

Sedar x sedar, sy da kerja kat Transwater,Glenmarie ni for almost 4months. Yela, it’s better for me rather than not doing something good kan– xproductive nye hidup.xsuke.xsuke. baru2 ni tibe2 dtg smangat nak start bisnes online. Ada la juga bcakap dgn beberapa org kawan.

Some of them said:
-Business can’t be parallel done with any other kind of job in the whole world. take it serious and be serious with it. Only then you’ll succeed.
-If it’s just an online business, plus I’ve just started with the thing, make it relax. Do it as a side –income first. Jangan benti kerja lagi.

What I think is:
-Betul. Sebab nak main ngan IT-thingy ni, sy bukan cekap sgt lagi. So, really takes longer time. Kalau kerja 8 to 5, memang xsempat lah nk update and pantau everything. Mmg la kat tempat kije ada access internet, tp xbest la pulak kan kalau buat kerja lain masa working hours. Haish,jujur la kononnye ni. Tp bukak jugak kan.lalala~tp,what if online bz ni xbg pape income?nak makan apa??haaaa..
-Statement kedua ni ada ramai jugak yg ckap kat sy. And agak betul jugak. Kalau pandai arrange masa semua, insya-Allah the bz will go smooth. The important thing is, I have to be tough enough! And the fact is, I was just tough enough occay~hehe..

peace!!

So, after this I won’t say much about my relationship-thingy until I recover and ready to share in here. Just support me whatever I do. And please remind me if I look like slipping from the right course..ur care is much appreciated!

-xoxo-

.::the horrible car crashed::.

Last Monday was my first time to be in Batu Pahat, as I'm following my eldest brother and his chomeyl wife plus little cute prince Shafiq Nazhan utk daftar diri as a staff in one of the university kat situ..and we just get back home in Kajang on the next day..

masa on d way nak balik,one of my friend text me and ask samada I nak join die pergi visit our old friend (kawan masa sekolah dulu) who was sick in HKL or not..and I agreed as I really wants to be with my friend since I sgt merindui mereka..and we set to meet up at HKL on Wednesday..

when the day comes,I pun keluar rumah about 10 in the morning and heading to Desa Baiduri to pick up Syatila just to accompany me..kitorg smpai HKL about 1pm and it was fun to meet them it again..i mean Anie and Faiz..we do chat a bit about the past and a bit about each current doing...everyone has grown up really well and amazingly there's some of our schoolmates who had been married...jealous I..calon pun masih samar2..T_T

after visiting hours is over, I planned to have further chit-chat with Anie, tapi masa tgh2 jln,she lost our path..she get into another direction and I just having a nice lunch with Syatila at Station 1..lepas da puas I menghabiskan duit die (eee,teruk nye I), I pun hantar la Syatila pulang...

like everyone said,cerah xselalunye sampai ke petang,ke mcm mana tah.tap lebih kurang la tu bunyik nye...lepas da happy2 tu datang la bala pulak membontoti I..I nak balik rumah kat Prima Saujana and mmg da dekat sgt da pun dgn rumah, suddenly I was bumped into horrible car crashed with some kind of stupid van...

I was in the fast lane and this stupid van from siput lane tiba2 masuk lane I..it was ok to change the lane..but it was clearly to state that the van driver is stupid as he make it real super slow..no,its not slow,instead he drove his van just right on the line between the two lane...I honked him but pity him,he was deaf!!he don't move and in super fast meter..100km/h..sama je kelajuan dgn kete2 kat depan pun..cuma si stupid tu je yg stupidly masuk depan I..

at last ni lah jadi nye...


tgh tu teruk sbb betul2 kne bucu van and die dalam posisi nak masuk lane I and I pulak da pusingkan steering ke kiri sikit yg konon2 nye nk mengelak dr van stupid tu...I tekan break pun da lambat n dgn klajuan yg super tu,I pun xterkata...terasa mcm main bumper car masa accident tu..alhamdulillah I xde kecederaan berat..cuma proximal ankle I jela yg terseliuh cket plus bengkak kat 2 jari kaki as a result from tekan break kuat...and of course,it wa very traumatic...

i xtau nak call sape instead of Syatila to come and see me..while waiting for him to come,call man tow kete g IPD Kajang and i made a police report..si siput the driver van tu blah dulu sbb die bawak budak sekolah and nak hantar before gelap..xtau la samada die pergi report ke x..sbb police xde call I pun..I tau,kalu ikut law,I mesti kne fine punye sbb I dok blakang..tp I tetap xpuas ati ngan siput ina tu..pakcik tua!!!Cina tu sendiri tau dia salah n xberani nk bcakap dgn I..walaupun at first,he try to show off his "lelaki"ness dgn I..jgn harap..I know how to drive and I was in the right position...

lepas da settle semua,Syatila sent me back...I called Jojo (the owner of the car.my second brother) to ask him what to do..he settled everything the day after and we still waiting for the workshop to repair the car..my eldest brother(dia outstation kat Pahang) pun risau...kesian die..I hope everything will be fine and back to normal again...sy sangat trauma and really pray to Allah so that such incident won't ever happen again to me or any of my family members..it was creepy and horrible experience to hold...

p/s: good for me to learn on how to drive slower...

.::mute::.

senyap bukan bermakna mengalah!!

i was in Bangi (at my sis Ain's rent house) with my little nephew Nazhan..we are here only for a week,then insya Allah we'll move to a more comfortable and convenient place in Prima Saujana, Kajang for almost 2 months..

what did i do with all this "nomadic" lifestyle??

im a nanny..full time nanny..hoho..it was fun!!really fun!!

then?

sementara tu,i still have to sit for exam LJM..all nursing students have to sit for this exam as we have to have license to practice before we could be hired in any institutions..this will be held on 23rd June..

then?

my graduation day...yeay!!

on 7th August (Saturday)

xsabar sbb ada someone yg akan datang!!tihihi..

then?

planned to apply for temporary job maybe at clinic or..eemm.

does anyone needs employee to be employ for only 2months before i was called off for the staff nurse post...

anyway..

life at home with new kind of environment.

with beloved peoples around

with new hopes..

wish you will be blessed by god and i will never regret of anything~~

.::if my heart says it,i really mean it::.

its quite been some time for me to come back here writing all i want..there's no class to attend to during day time..and no body special to date with during night time..but,still got no enough space to spend to write in this my imaginary diary...entahlah kenapa..

sometimes,

when the things doesn't go as smooth as we wish,we declared it as a waste..

after a time,

then we realized,

a soldier couldn't make a move without 'yes' command from the chief...

either communicated or non-communicated command...

..istikharah..

this words was repeated to me everyday

to convince me that i'm his istikharah

what??

why??

oh my God!!

how can i believe in him??

it isn't a joke..

im sorry

i know he is not reading this

i have another person that i put my trust in

there's another person that i put my hope in

for sure,

the person is not you

you have everything

everything a girl need the most

you are a loyal creature to our God - an ordinary one,but its quite good enough

car - not one but three

house - not one but three

career - you are an executive manager engineer + successful businessman

& the most important thing - m0ney..(0_0')

special features:

you played me guitar

you know jamming - even though i never see it yet

you do car drifting - i enjoy it!!really..

you love family a lot - ur mom is no. 1!!

and now,you said you love me..

how can i answer you?

if my heart say "there's only 1 space for a man,and it has been filled up with love from Ahmad Syatila"??

i need you,God..

release me from love life a while..

finish up my study first!!

.::look into my interest::.

I've been thinking this for many times and I've discussed it in depth with someone I believe in... I nk try jela.. tp after sem baru da mula nt lah... guna modal die cket...

Really hope uols could give support and I'm not disappointed with it...

.::First time though::.

hola!!

people did say If you would not want to be forgotten as soon as you are dead, either write things worth reading or do things worth writing (Benjamin Franklin). - dipetik dari blog kakak ipar aku..ngeee.. People do said that life is a journey...there should be phases one might gone through...phases that can be good or bad to remember...even he's well prepared for the things or just tangkap muat to go on with the life....

IF I do reflecting my past,a myriad of things I want to share especially about my internal aspect of feeling...tapi bukan semua orang boleh faham kita kan...sekarang ni, aku punye atomic lappy lah yg xjemu2 dengar cerita sedih,gembira,excited n bmacam2 lg lah genre yg ada dari jari2 aku...siang malam,pagi petang..die xpernah complain bosan..cuma kadang2 dia mintak nak refuel battery je kalau aku bebel kat die berjam2...thank you my reddish little lappy...bak kate penceramah kursus kawen semalam,cara yang paling mudah nk menunjukkan rasa cinta adalah melalui panggilan...so from now on aku akan panggil lappy kesayangan aku ni dengan nama baby si comel...ngeeeee.ape?ingat kucing ke?..karot2!!!

Untuk post yg pertama ni malas nk tulis panjang2...lg pn kejap lagi ada class research..ntah apa la yg dr. Hamidah nk ajar lg..padahal semua org da siap buat proposal paper..tinggal present je lg...emmm...k lah u all...aku nk bersiap2...insya Allah aku akan kembali meneruska perjuangan ni lagi....