.::hidup sendiri::.

Assalamualaikum semua..tajuk arini bukan cam cerita2 yang lepas..asyik mood sedih je kan..'hidup sendiri' ni bukan maksud nye sy ni keseorangan or kesepian..haha..macam desperate lak bunyi nye..

maksud nye kat sini,I was about to step into a new phase of my life further.. this coming Tuesday(3rd May 2011),saya akan start kerja kat 1 software company in Kelana Jaya.even tho this isn't my first experience working,but yet this would be much different as this is not temporary as before and I got into this job on my own effort.ingat lagi masa hari nk g interview tu,sesat sampai ke Puchong pergi nya..haha..nasib baik adik Ain teman.kalau x,mmg da lama benti kete tepi jalan,nanges dulu baru sambung jalan balik..muahahaha~

at first,ingat x dapat bcoz gaji basic yang I mintak tu is a bit high for the post.so,I accepted the offer to teach a standard 3 students in Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Sultan Ismail Satu(1)..the offer goes for 20days with RM50 a day.that would be covered by PIBG of the school.unfortunately, I got a call on the 4th day of teaching asking me to come on the next Tuesday..payah gak nak decide.in the end, I decided to quit and go to Kelana Jaya..berat hati nak tinggalkan diorang..they had given so much fun and well-memories..just sempat capture beberapa pictures aje ngan they all..hope they will grow beautiful and wonderfully..alasan lainnye,boleh ke sy berjauhan dgn parents tercinta n 'hidup sendiri'??

hmmm...berbalik pada cerita yang awal tadi..dah nak gi sangat kat sana,mesti kena ada tempat tinggal kan..so,first time la sy bukak mudah.my..it's quite helpful.walaupun takes time nk cari sbb banyak sgt ads yang 2years ago pun ada lagi..but still,I was so thankful to the website.masa call tu pun,orang yang angkat tu mcm ramah n ok la.happy la kan kalu dapat housemate yang baik..ye dak??i hope so..ameen..rumah ni walking-distance je dgn office..even tho kne kongsi beramai2,tp ok kot sbb nk jimat punya pasal..kata nak survive sendiri..so,I will try my best to be good and well-behave..ala,lagipun umah abg dekat sgt ngan Kelana Jaya tu..no worries at all..anytime I could give him a call or just drop to his house..main ngan Zarif...yeay!!!!!!

ops,nak tau x berapa rental amount utk umah sewa yg sy dapat ni?haha..tgk cni baik2 eh..RM100/month sahaja..and I duduk kat condo tau..best kan..thanks Allah for His bless and best-known..

ok lah..barang xkemas lagi..malam sok da nak naik bas..kenapa malam??sempat ke nak gi kerja pagi2 Selasa tu??hish..sebab pagi2 sok sy nak g klinik dulu..check perut..selalu sgt experience abdominal-colic pain kan..just to rule out the possible factors.mencegah lebih baik daripada mengubati..ye dak??pastu nak g jumpa guru besar lagi.last week dia g China..cam xsopan pulak kalau benti kije xjumpa dia dulu..walaupun dah call..macam kita masuk rumah orang la.kne beri salam mintak izin nak masuk..and kalau da nak balik pun,kena la beradab juga..

so u all..sila doakan kesejahteraan saya and semoga sy selamat ye..mari kita baca doa ni sesama..bak kata umi terchenta,doa ni baik utk diamalkan and bagus juga dibaca lepas solat Dhuha.iaitu-

"Ya Allah ya tuhan ku.Tuhan yang maha Pengasih dan maha Mengetahui..

jika rezeki ku itu berada di langit,Kau turunkan lah..

jika ia berada di bumi,keluarkan lah.

jika ia jauh dariku,Kau dekatkan lah dan

jika ia dekat dengan ku,Kau permudahkan lah..."

take care semua..salam sayang..

.::surat untuk kayangan::.

Dear hubby,

its been such a bad day for me today..my boss had mis-interpret the shout i just posted in fb wall yesterday..she felt disappointed and very angry with the shout(instead of me)..but i swear dear,i don't mean those words for her.even though i have witness to stand for me,they couldn't say a thing when she throwing such a nasty words to me.because,you know.when she's mad nobody can try to defend unless when she's cool edi..

1 of my colleage ask me to make clear of the thing with her..but,you know me well rite?i'm not that kind of person who's really mind of what do people think of me..because for me,it's a waste to spend my time on someting i

eby,i really feeling unwell.i want ur big warm hug and calming chest to rely on..i want to cry so that u can cool me off..i love working here.but i don't find peacefullness in my doing.

even you are my hubby,but we rarely could see (walaupun sy xtau pn sape awak masa ni) to pamper each other...so that i hope my worry-some may get away as the letter reached you..i'll waiting for you to come back.

then kita pergi jalan2 and as life is JUST short,please come back soon ya sweetheart...

.::penangan merempit::.

kisah gaji ni pun da satu hal..aku xtau apa masalah diorang yang nak melambat2 kan paymet we all yang temporary and trainee ni..kalau gaji korang,lambat sehari pun da membebel kan.kitorg da 15 hari kot.bukan mintak duit ko pun.tu duit aku kot..haish..nak cerita kisah sakit ati ngan company ni,xtau bila abes menaip.huhu...so,cukup lah smpai sini je..

helmi (office-mate) nk pinjam external dvd player..seingat aku,benda tu ada kat umah kat Jln Kuching tu..dari pukul 6ptg smpai 7.30mlm aku geledah umah tu.bukan semata2 mencari brg tu je.siap belek2 lg brg2 masa study dulu..sgt rindu~

sbb da pnat sgt,aku pun keluar lpas maghrib..where should i head to?back home?my heart don't feel like to go back yet..i rode my motorcycle to kedai mamak Desa Baiduri..having my dinner there until 8.30pm..what am i doing there?actually,i miss him..

sblm balik,aku lalu depan umah dia.dia ada!!ding3~

tiba2 dtg idea.nak mintak camera lah.tunggu punya tunggu tetiba anak buah dia (along) lalu kat tmpat aku tunggu tu..so,aku mintak tlg dia carikan camera aku atas almari pak andak die.tp xjumpa.so,she asked me just to meet him and ask myself.she'll be there to accompany me if i'm afraid..but i refused to see him.no,not because of i hate him.but i'm afraid of being insult (hu?betul ke word ni?) for i still love him..i don't know why.

so,after telling his niece that i need the camera before i leave for Kelantan by the end of this month,i leave..and,i can see him staring at me from his house.and looks like he do wants to talk to me as well.(walaupun cam ayat perasan,biarlah.lalala~)

nak dijadikan cerita,aku pun balik ikut federal..tiba2 moto meragam.jadi cam masa aku nak g lepak ngan kawan kat TTDI Jaya 2minggu lepas..ngam2 sampai kat laluan moto tepi plaza tol 5posen tu,terus mati enjin..xmo idup2 da..so,tunda la masuk dalam area plaza tol tu..disebabkan aku xada sape2 yang aku knal kat situ EXCEPT him,aku pun call die.lucky me he wants to come..surprise me,he know the point and he fixed the lose plug.in just 20minutes,aku da boleh gerak balik subang.we chit-chatting all the way sampai kat mid valley sbb kat situ je ada tmpat utk dia nk u-turn..nak aje ckp,'i'll miss u'..haha..

smpai je kat pintu gerbang selangor kaler kuning tu,BANG!!!!!!!!

bunyi kaca pecah kuat gila kot.tau2 aku dah terduduk atas jalan yg kat laluan motor tu.i try to wake up myself.xboleh.aku nangis and ada org tlg aku berdiri kat tepi jalan.ramai gila kot org benti tolong.thanx Malaysians.kebetulan ada polis traffic lalu.diorang bagi tisu.pelik lak aku.buat apa?banyak gila.diorg kata ada darah mengalir dari tangan aku..huhu...banyak nye..terus pekak telinga aku.xdgr apa yg org ckp da..diorg tman aku g kat bus stop(safer place),kat dpan cket.in my head,he is the only person i can hook up on by now.i asked him to come again.mmg la dia ada bebel kata jauh la nak pusing balik and all.tp dia still datang.em,nape la aku salu sgt nyusahkan org..im sorry.i don't mean to do this.

bila dia smpai,dia pun tkejut tgk darah kat tgn aku.so,die smbung bebel lagi..dari td aku rasa sgt2 sakit.tp bila dia ada kat dpan mata,aku tgk dia je kot.lupe sgale sakit.die tgk lutut aku.sbb baju kurung aku tekoyak.dia kata kne jahit ni.aku dgr sipi2 je.and aku xlayan pun.aku tgk dia je..bila lagi.ni je kot masanye..=))

dia suh aku relax,ilangkan gabra dulu sblm we all gerak balik..kaki aku terseliuh kat lutut.tketar2 aku jalan..mngalir tiba2 air mata.dia lap air mata aku...sgt rindu dia~

tp leh kawal diri lagi..kita kan kawan.not more than that.and aku mintak tlg dr kau pun atas dasar kawan..dia teman aku balik.tgn aku cramp.yela,bayangkan luka kena angin kuat masa bawak motor..mengalir lagi la air mata aku kan..huhuuu..minah rempit da tersadung..inilah penangan merempit.moto pun tau pnat..sampai da ltih nk bawak aku kot.sbb tu dia tbaring atas jalan...ngeh3~

byk dia psan kat aku.yg aku dpt tgkap,msg die suruh aku hati2..ok,insya-Allah i will.tp kalau kat kawasan umah kau,maybe aku akan 'ter'lupa ur pesanan.kalau x,xadalah alasan for me to see u..walaupun sakit,sanggup kot...weeeeeeeeee~~

yang paling aku xpaham,nape aku hulur tgn salam ngan die?like we used to,in our old days??

and him!!nape die cam tunggu aku salam die??(ke,die sambut sbb xmo malukan aku?)tp die tunggu..nk je aku ckp,"jgn tinggal aku lagi boleh x??"tp control2..

dia kata:kalau ada pape,msg je kt inbox fb.aku dgn bengapnye tanye.'boleh ke sy msg awak?kite bkn friend kat fb pn.'..haha,bong0k.PM mmg la blh..adoi..die kata die mmg saje xnak block aku dr profile die..anyway,aku harap kau xbuat benda2 pelik yg menyebabkan aku meroyan xtentu arah occay..sbb,aku stalker kau yang tegar!walaupun im d one yg remove ko dr friend aku..ngee~

sampai arini(post day-3),luka aku still sakit..and lutut aku still x betul2 lagi..nak g mengurut..tapi kat mana nak carik..special for post-accident massage..i really need 1.badan rasa cam lebam2 and sakit..anyway,xtau nk classify happy ke,sedih for this incident..haha,sakit da Soleha ni..

tp tu xbermakna,aku xboleh pergi SACC mall utk jumpa Shahir..he's here for ABPBH roadtour.after zohor nt,insya-Allah aku gerak..Shahir,tunggu saye!!!

.::apa lagi ni Soleha::.

ada org tanye aku.

ni 1st time kerja ke?

aah..

nodding and I can read that he's surprised.

dalam pale aku:alien ke aku ni slama ni.umur da 23 baru nk start kije.tp,aku bru je grad.ok kot.lantak lah..

bila org tanye:

awak suka dok umah ke,suke jenjalan?

with my facial expression: dua2.i'll be any which depends on who's by my side.

soalan seterusnye:

mana best.study ke,kerja?

dua2 juge..lalala~

study best sbb tym class xlah strict mcm kerja.then blh pergi lepak bila2 masa saje sbb kawan2 always there.tp tym exam-sape suke?

kerja pulak best sbb thrill kot.its all on ur wise thinking decision.tp yg trase sgt sengal bila dah mcm robot.g kije 8-5.pstu balik.dok diam2.nk g jln,nk pergi mne n dgn sape?ada kengkawan yg ksian kn diri ni pun,duk jauh kot.nk lepak pn,xberbaloi.dak opis,diorg ada gak ajak join men futsal ngan badminton.aku yg xnak..ke aku yg xreti nk men-so-sial-kan diri..huh.

aku cuma rindu..but really cant live with it.moto hidup skrg:

""buatlah apa pun,asal happy.jgn mengelamun walau sminit.haha""

anyway,

not forgetting.ada la jugak org yg sudi nk tman aku spanjang 4bulan aku dok kat shah alam tu.thanx to Nu'man and Fakrul.malas nak pk apa korg pk.hihi..kalu korg tade,tau x mana moto aku bwk aku?jauh xingat wooo..

xlarat nak list tempat2 yg maha banyak smpai moto pn meletup cdi-nye..haha..thanx3~

smlm aku nek bas,balik klantan.

umi ngan abah kurang sehat.sedih sgt masa dengar suara umi dalam fon mintak aku balik.kalau blh,ari sabtu lagi die nak aku balik.tp ada wedding reception abg Adrian kt Bangi.balik pun da mlm.dgn ujan yg sgt lebat.sorry umie~

and yg happy nye.aku sampai je umah,diorg nampak segar sgt.tinggal batuk2 cket lagi.hope to be here for longer.but got to go back in shah alam.i promise u both my darling-ckup bulan 'kekti' balik semula neh..sedia berkhidmat.

sunyi sgt ke idup aku ni?zarif ada,kak iela ngan jojo pn ada.adek ngan amah ada.umie ngan abah pun salu call.Allah pun ada.apa lagi ni Soleha??

.::DA41::.

like it has been a decade for me working temporarily here in Glenmarie while waiting for vacant nursing post in government.it does gave me a headache.it is not because i don't find it beneficial,but the spec of work doesn't suit my preference best.

today i was called for an interview at PPUKM.as the title said:the interview was meant for DA41.

the session went very well.the juries (the dean,timbalan dean and my beloved HOD) are all kind enough.menyebabkan saya jadi sgt berharap!

but only a few will be chosen for the post.there are 9 of us.and as told,the post ONLY for those who attend with CGPA>3.5..and i'm just out of the criteria..

someone had remind me: don't lose hope.keep on building a new one.Allah has planned the best for you.ask Him to give you strength!

anyway,thanx for the nice chat(interview actually).i've learned another lesson.

Allah,bless me and only You,my guidance and the One that I can hook up on.

-kak Jenny,congrates for you.Hani,Arif,Zul,kak Fatin,Azwa,Husna and Kham-just love to be with all of you.like we used to-

.::nak bukak buku baru::.

Salam tahun baru and salam semangat baru uols..

Fuh2..banyak nye habuk kat sini..da berkulapuk..eeuwww!tu menandakan,sy da lama gila xdtg jenguk dashboard blog sy ni..bukan da malas nak berkongsi cerita.tp banyak sgt benda berlaku smpai nk capture dengan tulisan sgt2 lah xsempat..hanya org2 terdekat ngan saya je tahu every-single-thing that’ve happened to me.especially to my dear adek2 and lovely-umie..i heart all of u darlingssss~

As they say: “Let bygone be bygone”

He had chosen to break up and go on with our own path without attaching to each other parties. Ever again..and sy xada choice lain even though it hurt me like a thousand stabs of a sword in the heart.. it’s true, I’ll answer people that I’m tough enough and doesn’t care as he left. And the real truth is, just don’t ask me more or else, you have to attend me until I finish with the tears matter.done!

I really love into business. But like my umie said,I’m not that ‘kind of business’ person. Huh! With the stone-head and rebel-attitude of me says: just do what you wanna do. Otherwise, you’ll be in terrific regret..haha,macam kanak2 xcukup umur kan ckp macam ni. just imagine, there’s a giant genie popped up in front of your face and talk to you.karOt!

Sedar x sedar, sy da kerja kat Transwater,Glenmarie ni for almost 4months. Yela, it’s better for me rather than not doing something good kan– xproductive nye hidup.xsuke.xsuke. baru2 ni tibe2 dtg smangat nak start bisnes online. Ada la juga bcakap dgn beberapa org kawan.

Some of them said:
-Business can’t be parallel done with any other kind of job in the whole world. take it serious and be serious with it. Only then you’ll succeed.
-If it’s just an online business, plus I’ve just started with the thing, make it relax. Do it as a side –income first. Jangan benti kerja lagi.

What I think is:
-Betul. Sebab nak main ngan IT-thingy ni, sy bukan cekap sgt lagi. So, really takes longer time. Kalau kerja 8 to 5, memang xsempat lah nk update and pantau everything. Mmg la kat tempat kije ada access internet, tp xbest la pulak kan kalau buat kerja lain masa working hours. Haish,jujur la kononnye ni. Tp bukak jugak kan.lalala~tp,what if online bz ni xbg pape income?nak makan apa??haaaa..
-Statement kedua ni ada ramai jugak yg ckap kat sy. And agak betul jugak. Kalau pandai arrange masa semua, insya-Allah the bz will go smooth. The important thing is, I have to be tough enough! And the fact is, I was just tough enough occay~hehe..

peace!!

So, after this I won’t say much about my relationship-thingy until I recover and ready to share in here. Just support me whatever I do. And please remind me if I look like slipping from the right course..ur care is much appreciated!

-xoxo-

.::aurat::.

tadi baru tengok balik imam muda episod 5...tentang aurat.sgt buruk terasa diri ni..selalu berbangga dengan ilmu yang ada.tp susah sgt nak aplikasikan dlm kehidupan seharian..kita mengaku islam.tp amalan xikut pn apa yg Islam sarankan.kata sembahyang,tapi xmencegah pun dari melakukan dosa.baru2 ni da sakitkan hati abah..kekti mintak maaf sgt.walaupun kekti xtau apa puncanya,kekti mintak maaf...kata mengaji Quran,tp apa yg ada dalam Quran xtau apa pun.kononnya sekolah agama dulu,tp bila suruh berbahas semua guna pendapat logik sendiri..

berbalik pd episod imam muda td tu,diorg kupas isu aurat..isu aurat ni mmg sgt sensitif..ms sekolah dulu da diajar,aurat perempuan adalah seluruh badannya kecuali wajahnya dan 2tapak tangan shj...bukan dgn lelaki bukan muhrim je,sama la dengan kawan2 yang bukan Islam pn..

ramai org sekarang ni,pakai tudung da perasan kuat sgt imannya.bak kata sorg peserta imam muda tu,kita bukan menuup aurat,kita da banyak bungkus aurat..betul jugak tu..tp mereka yg pakai tudung ni lebih mudah untuk terima hidayah Allah,memperbaiki kelemahan diri,insyaAllah..malah ada antara kita yg kata:'walaupun sy xpakai tudung,tp hati sy baik"...=))ikikiki

apa punya ayat la nak defend diri sendiri...

dari sahabat, Saiyidina Ali r.a. berkata:

serendah2 ilmu adalah apa yang dikeluarkan oleh mulut,

dan setinggi ilmu adalah apa yang dizahirkan oleh anggota badan...

apa2 pun sy tau sy sendiri masih byk lagi kekurangan dan keburukan.harap2 masa yg free sekarang ni,dapat dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya..ameen..

.::kekuatan::.

askar yang bertarung dalam 100 kali peperangan dan berjaya menawan tentera lawan dalam kesemua peperangan adalah LEMAH..

kerana

askar yang KUAT DAN BIJAK adalah askar yang mampu menawan tentera lawan tanpa perlu berperang..

.::aidilfitri 1431H::.

sebulan Ramadhan seronok sgt sebab kali ni dapat puasa kat umah.bukan sbb dapat makan sedap2 je.tp boleh grab semua kelebihan Ramadhan has offered.lucky me for having such a concerned umie and abah.start dgn subuh kt masjid, sunat tasbih dengan datin Bi Samihah,belajar masak tym nak berbuka n terawih dkat surau umah.10 mlm terakhir pulak,dpt buat tahajjud. alhamdulillah,lepas beberapa tahun xkhatam Quran,we finished it just in time.sedih kan jadi sy??huuhu..sy tulis kat cni supaya sy dapat kenang and insyaAllah continue the activities I done with my parents at home during Ramadhan 1431H.semoga amalan pada bulan Ramadhan tahun ni,boleh dikekalkan pada tahun2 yg akan dtg.ameen~

umie ngan abah ku syg~~

"maaf zahir batin".ayat ni dah jadi kebiasaan masyarakat Melayu kita bila menjelang hari Raya Aidilfitri.macam da jadi simbolik sgt,bila raya je,baru la semua nak mintak maaf bersungguh2.zahir dan batin.adakah maksudnye,ramai antara kita yg dengan sengajanya mengumpul 'salah' dari awal Dzulkaedah sampai tiba Syawal semula kan.then saling mohon maaf antara satu sama lain.ehee..bukan kita nak ambil kesempatan.cuma sebagai umat Islam,kita mesti/wajib memelihara silaturrahim antara sesama manusia.sy pun cuba mengingatkan diri sendiri.

firman Allah:

"Mereka itu akan ditimpa kehinaan di mana saja mereka berada, kecuali jika mereka itu menyambung hubungan baik dengan Allah SWT dan hubungan baik dengan sesama manusia”.

(Surah Ali Imran:112)

Sabda Rasulullah SAW:

"Tidak akan masuk syurga orang yang memutuskan silaturrahim”

(HR. Muslim)

Daripada Abu Hurairah R.A. katanya,Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

"Demi diriku dalam kekuasaanNya, kamu tidak akan dapat masuk syurga sehingga kamu beriman dan kamu tidak dikatakan beriman dengan sempurna sehinggalah kamu berkasih sayang. Sukakah kamu jika aku tunjukkan sesuatu apabila kamu melakukannya nescaya kamu akan berkasih sayang? Sebarkanlah ucapan salam dikalangan kamu".

(HR. Muslim)

mungkin kita lebih mudah untuk memperoleh kemaafan dan memberi kemaafan pada hari raya ni k0t.maka,sy dengan rasa rendah dirinya, menyusun sepuluh jari menunduk ke bumi memohon ampun dan maaf dengan penuh keinsafan atas semua kekhilafan,kealpaan,perangai yg menyusahkan,kata2 yg menyakitkan & segala macam kesalahan lagi.

semoga siti Nursolihah bt Adnan beroleh rahmat dan dikurniakan hidayah dari Allah sbt supaya dapat menjadi hamba-Nya yang lebih baik dan bertaqwa.dilembutkan hatinya,dapat berbakti pada kedua org tuanya & selamat dunia akhirat...

p/s: terima kasih pada semua yg sudi mendoakan sy.semoga di hari yg baik,bulan baik ni,kita beroleh kemenangan.Swlamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semua..

.::tazkirah::.

Assalamualaikum semua..

almost 10hari sy xupdate post kat blog sy ni..terasa cam banyak gila benda yg nak dikongsi...(ayat biasa sang blogger bila da lama xbuat post baru..ehee)

the last post was about my experience 'berkebun' kat kampung...lpas sminggu Ramadhan,sy pun balik Kelantan,which means back to my parents' home sweet home..

selama kat kg,sy xpernah pergi terawih kat masjid..malas nak cerita kenapa.(^_^)v

since jejak je kaki kat kB,umie terus ajak g solat subuh kat masjid.memula ingat xseronok.sbb sy sgt memilih imam.kalu xberkenan tu,effect nya pd kualiti ibadat sy tu,sgt terjejas.alhamdulillah,kat masjid tu imam die best.dari qiraat bacaan die dahla sedap,xpanjang n xla pendek sgt ayat yg die bc.tp yg penting ayt yg die baca tu,sy blh la paham cket2 maksudnye n sgt masuk ke dlm ati pesanan die.

lpas solat,ada follow dgn tazkirah subuh.pertuturan die sgt fluent n jelas!xberulang2 n mudah difahami.

lpas da abes,ingatkan da blh smbung tidur.tp pkul 8.30 da gerak nak solat tasbih.solat ni diimami oleh sorg penceramah bebas, Datin Bi Samihah.umie cakap,die mmg follow datin ni dr tahun lpas lg.cuma this year,program die lbih aggressive.kalu dulu,die buat ujung minggu je.Ramadhan ni,die buat hari2 n ditempat yg berlainan.

stakat ni,sy da ikut 3x je baru..program die buat sgt best.sbb kita bukan pergi nak buat solat sunat tasbih je.mmg die akan selitkan dgn tazkirah,kisah2 nabi n para sahabat,akhlak,and macam2 lagi.macam pagi ni yg sy pergi,dia buat kat dalam dewan Teratai Kota Darulnaim.

kalau you all semua nak tau,Kota Darulnaim ni lebih kurang sama dgn kompleks kerajaan kt Jln Duta tu.cuma nya die punya kawasan much more compact.tp bangunan die masyaAllah,sgt cantik dgn ukiran seni Islam.dewan die blh muat 500org.tp td ada 200 org je sbb arini hari org bekerja..lepas sunat tasbih,kita baca yassin.nak tunggu buat sendiri,penat!!heheee..

kali ni program ni dianjurkan oleh Puspanita cwgn kB.diorg jemput sorg Syaikh,ahli Majlis Fatwa Negara Mesir & Kesatuan Eropah.ingt nak amek gmbor die td,tp cam segan sbb nmpk cm syok sendiri pulak nt..T_T

die ni bukan stakat blh ckp Melayu.siap fasih dgn slang kelantan.sgt kagum la dgn dia.die bincangkan topik "PERANAN WANITA BERKERJAYA DALAM MENJAGA INSTITUSI KEKELUARGAAN MENGIKUT PERSPEKTIF ISLAM"..

dia cakap xbanyak.tapi nak tulis semua yg dia ckp tu mustahil la kan.bg org2 yg berfikir,banyak sebenarnya pesanan dan peringatan yg Syaikh ni da bagi..antaranya:

- di belakang kejayaan seorang lelaki,pasti ada wanita.

- seorang ibu xmungkin melakukan sesuatu yg memudharatkan anak nya.

- menuntut ilmu itu adalah wajib bagi setiap orang,xkira lelaki mahupun perempuan. dan setelah itu,hendaklah beramal dengannya.

orang kafir sering memandang wanita Islam sebagai makhluk yg xdapat memberikan manfaat.yelah,dalam Islam kan kata,suami keluar mend=cari rezeki,isteri duduk rumah jaga kperluan suami & anak2..

namun pada hakikatnya,mereka tidak sedar kepentingan menjaga keharmonian sesebuah institusi kekeluargaan.

namun ingtlah!!

hal dunia hendaklah seimbang dengan hal akhirat~

p/s:ni kira sinopsis n peringatan utk diri sendiri jugak...kalu xtulis,nanti lupa...renung2kan & selamat beramal!

(^_^)v

.::salah ke??::.

sy bukan cakap apa yg sy mahukan.

sy cuma nyatakan keinginan ibubapa saya.

apa yg mereka mahukan,hanya untuk kebaikan sy.

salah ke?

tapi..

bukan ke awk tau apa yg sy cari??

.::the 23rd::.

no cake,no cards,no celebration.

words are more than enough this year..the thought is much more pricey than a thing..

lagipun saya jauh,di kampung nenek..

xkn nak suruh diorg pos kot..

today i'm 22years and 365days..

taht is,23 years young..huhu..

da tua ke?

atau baru je masuk alam dewasa?

smlm

dia: apa hajat tahun ni??

saya: err..terdiam kejap(lbih kurg 7saat n jwb) saya nak belajar berdikari,knal diri sendiri n xm0 byk sgt bergantung/berharap pada org lain..

dia: awak xnk kawen ke?

saya: apa kaitannya?(berpikir2 smpai tertidur..bgn masa sahur,da malas nak sambung pikir)

lpas baca Quran tadi,ada la terlintas kat kepala ni..

1) have i changed better day by day?

-cam byk je kena baiki.

2) did i learn from my mistake?

-cam selalu je ulang kesalahan yg sama.masa buat xsedar.da terhantuk baru nak terngadah..=((

thank you to all of you,those who sending me a beautiful wishes and prays..may Allah's bless will always be with you and yours will be grant by Him.insya-Allah!!

everything can be systematically planned in the planner..

even with all those A,B,C strategies bla bla bla..

BUT..we can never determine the future..Allah's plan is just better than ours..

Nabi Muhammad SAW bersabda: ikatlah unta kamu,kemudian bertawakkal lah..bukan nak suruh korg beli unta and ikat kat mana2..maksudnye...berusahalah bersungguh2 kemudiannya berdoa' kepada Allah.semoga dilapangkan dada kita untuk menerima segala keputusan-Nya.

as my pal said:

1) jangan menyesal

2) jangan mengeluh

3) jangan lupa Allah

always do remember:

be kind to urself

pic source dr cni..

semoga Allah mengampuni dosa2 aku yang lalu.

semoga diberikan ketenangan serta kelapangan dada dalam menuntut ilmu.

semoga dikurniakan nikmat iman dan Islam.untuk hidup dan matiku.

semoga dipermudahkan urusan,kemurahan rezeki yang banyak dan halal,dipanjangkan usia ytang bermanfaat.

semoga jodohku sebahagian drpd org2 yg s0leh dan dapat membimbing aku kejalan-Mu..ameen..

p/s: ni lah org kata.tym nak buat ibadat berkira2.tp tym mintak,xingat dunia..kalau dilistkan manually pakai pen,xcukup semangkuk dakwat..=))

.::jumpa harta karun!!::.

hari ni hari kedua puasa and hari kedua jugak bagi aku berkebun..adoi!!belum apa2,the whole tangan ngan badan aku sengal2..nak cakap made in kL,xjugak..

kalau semalam aku belajar me'r0peh' iaitu membersihkan tanah belakang umah tu dari segala macam daun2 kering,pokok menjalar dan lain2 (emm,pk lah sendiri.ehee)..arini aku belajar membuat batas sebab mak nak tanam kangkung,jagung ngan kacang bendi..mak aku buat sebelah n aku buat sebelah..mak boleh siapkan dalam masa sejam,aku buat 2jam..haha,err..dengan alasannya,I punye lagi panjang daripada mak punye..ehee..(panjang lebih sekaki je kot.padahal mmg lembab)..dah la rupa batas tu pelik..mak kata,kalau nk mencangkul tanah,ada caranya.biasanya org takik nipis2 n xdalam sgt..tp aku takuk tanah tu, 90degree..cane la xguna kudrat yang banyak..

lepas da siap tu,kitorg tanam la segala benda yang ada..walaupun penat,but I could draw a smile a while bila tgk balik tanah blkg umah tu..impossible thing had turned possible on me..and I did it well,yeah,well enough for a freshie like me..

but again..i lupa nak amek gambar..huhu..i try esok..

kat tengah2 kawasan aku bercucuk tanam tu,ada serumpun serai wangi..sgt serabut aku tgk..kalau dikira daun hijau ngan daun coklat yg da mati tu,aku rasa nisbah dia 1:2..macam semak da aku tgk..memula aku potong daun die ngan parang.tp buat pengetahuan sesiapa yg xtau macam aku,korg jgn cuba adegan ni tanpa memakai baju berlengan panjang sbb daun serai amatlah tajam..korg xkan rasa sakit memula tu.tp akan terasa la azab nye masa korg mandi..adoii!!!banyak gile calar...seb bek mak aku warning awal.kalu x,berbirat la tangan aku yang gebu ni.=))

nk dijadikan cerita,nenek aku yang kupanggil 'wan' ada cakap,kalau kita tebas serumpun serai wangi yang da tua (nak mamp0s.ehee),nasib baik,boleh jumpa intan..w0w!!terbeliak biji mata aku..err..semangat membara..walaupun aku xpercaya,tp ne tau..nasib baik,tejumpa,kaya..xyah susah2 aku g kije..berkebun la aku spanjang hayat.hehe,dasar pemalas!!

tebas2 punye tebas,err aku xtau la betul ke idak word yang aku guna ni betul ke x.tp,tu la yg aku buat.guna cangkul,tarik daun yg lebat tu..turn it down,cari akar.takik guna parang wan aku.simpan la yg mana blh guna..tp serious,wangi la bau serai tu..patut la nama die serai wangi..makcik aku kata,amek la simpan.rebus daun die.blh buat minyak wangi masa tunang..haha..jimat!!sape2 yg nak,jgn segan2 nak mintak ngan I ye..ada lagi ni..=))

last2,apa aku jumpa?cuba korg sume teka..

hampeh t0l...

tungguL kayu..pun da kering..aku rasa,abes semua nutrien die si serai tu amek..

apa lagi aku jumpa ye..

4ekor siput khinzir,2ekor anak katak,sekor yg rupa nya mcm cicak tp bukan cicak..

kaciwa sungguh!!

anyway,

its an experience for me to keep and learn..

k lah..gotta go for now..

p/s: sape2 yg rasa nk bg urutan percuma,silalah PM i ye...jasa anda didahulukan dengan ucapan terima kasih...ad0ii!!

.::satu Ramadhan::.

salam Ramadhan semua...

ini bukan lah kali pertama aku berpuasa di kampungku di Pahang.tp sebelum ni aku xdapat nak ingat sgt sbb aku still kecik (maksudnye masa aku sekolah rendah dulu)..since aku masuk asrama, matrix n masuk universiti ni,aku berpuasa bersama rakan2 dan hanya pulang untuk merayakan eidul-fitri beberapa hari sebelumnya..sangat membosankan kan??

beberapa hari yang lepas,aku telah menerima ijazah pertama aku yg diadakan 2 hari berturut2 iaitu - peringkat jabatan & fakulti di HUKM, Cheras pada 6/8/2010 dan peringkat universiti di kampus induk Bangi pada 7/8/2010..alhamdulillah,segala proses pengambilan skrol,transkrip dan gambar dapat diselesaikan sebelum aku pulang ke kampung untuk menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak bersama mak dan ayah..and xdilupakan bersama semua sepupu-sepapat ku dan wan..

hidup di kampung,fuh..sudah pun ku jangkakan..pagi2 lagi keringat ku dah dikerah..kami tinggal dirumah baru pak ngah.so,kwsn blkg rumah masih penuh dgn semak samun.dengan semangat yang baru,aku memegang cangkul dan pertama kali mendengar perkataan 'mer0peh'..ehee.aku pun xtau cane nk eja.kalu org Pahang tau kot cane nk pronounce benda ni.'mer0peh' ni maksudnye membersihkan tanah daripada segala anak2 pokok and rumput menjalar..nasib baik kawasan xluas mana..alhamdulillah,aku berjaya bersihkan n memasang pagar..in the next post,insya-Allah aku upload gambar kawasan blkg umah kami tu..

dalam perancangannya,mak nak tanam sayur kat situ..tgk lah mcm mana..harap2,dptla bantu aku turunkan berat badan aku..peluh yg keluar,jgn cakap lah..berbaldi2..ehee..

thanx Allah,kerana berikan aku kesempatan merasa kelainan di bulan yg mulia ni..semoga aku dapat bertadarus secara berterusan..masa kat uni dulu,try jugak buat,tp xpernah dapat habiskan 1 quran..asek sangkut je..yela kan,tym memalam tu,ade je aktiviti menjalar keluar,g bukak pose kat sane la,kat sini lah..mana nk sempat buat segala..balik2 da penat..huhu..sgt sedih..

anyway,apa2pun aku doakan semoga kita semua dapat menjalani ibadah berpuasa pada tahun ni dengan lebih taqwa n tawadhu'..lama aku tinggalkan ilmu agama,terasa sejuk bila refresh semula semuanya..alhamdulillah...tahun depan,bila aku da start kije,aku sendiri xtau aku sempat terawih penuh atau tidak.yela,kije shift ni kan xmenentu...=((

tgk lah hari2 yg setrusnya,aku akan cuba untuk upload post baru supaya aku sendiri dapat ingat and kenang saat2 yang best macam ni..jangan lupa bersahur & menjaga segala deria dr menjejaskan kesempurnaan ibadah puasa kita..

renung2kan dan selamat beramal!!

p/s: selamat menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak aku ucapkan pada family aku (Umie,abah,mak,ayah,long,kakti,jojo,kak iela,amah,adik ain,mak sedara,pak sedara,sepupu2 semua) walau kat mana pun korg semua..pada Ahmad Syatila,semoga bulan yg mulia ni membawa perubahan yang lebih bermakna buat kita semua..

.::the horrible car crashed::.

Last Monday was my first time to be in Batu Pahat, as I'm following my eldest brother and his chomeyl wife plus little cute prince Shafiq Nazhan utk daftar diri as a staff in one of the university kat situ..and we just get back home in Kajang on the next day..

masa on d way nak balik,one of my friend text me and ask samada I nak join die pergi visit our old friend (kawan masa sekolah dulu) who was sick in HKL or not..and I agreed as I really wants to be with my friend since I sgt merindui mereka..and we set to meet up at HKL on Wednesday..

when the day comes,I pun keluar rumah about 10 in the morning and heading to Desa Baiduri to pick up Syatila just to accompany me..kitorg smpai HKL about 1pm and it was fun to meet them it again..i mean Anie and Faiz..we do chat a bit about the past and a bit about each current doing...everyone has grown up really well and amazingly there's some of our schoolmates who had been married...jealous I..calon pun masih samar2..T_T

after visiting hours is over, I planned to have further chit-chat with Anie, tapi masa tgh2 jln,she lost our path..she get into another direction and I just having a nice lunch with Syatila at Station 1..lepas da puas I menghabiskan duit die (eee,teruk nye I), I pun hantar la Syatila pulang...

like everyone said,cerah xselalunye sampai ke petang,ke mcm mana tah.tap lebih kurang la tu bunyik nye...lepas da happy2 tu datang la bala pulak membontoti I..I nak balik rumah kat Prima Saujana and mmg da dekat sgt da pun dgn rumah, suddenly I was bumped into horrible car crashed with some kind of stupid van...

I was in the fast lane and this stupid van from siput lane tiba2 masuk lane I..it was ok to change the lane..but it was clearly to state that the van driver is stupid as he make it real super slow..no,its not slow,instead he drove his van just right on the line between the two lane...I honked him but pity him,he was deaf!!he don't move and in super fast meter..100km/h..sama je kelajuan dgn kete2 kat depan pun..cuma si stupid tu je yg stupidly masuk depan I..

at last ni lah jadi nye...


tgh tu teruk sbb betul2 kne bucu van and die dalam posisi nak masuk lane I and I pulak da pusingkan steering ke kiri sikit yg konon2 nye nk mengelak dr van stupid tu...I tekan break pun da lambat n dgn klajuan yg super tu,I pun xterkata...terasa mcm main bumper car masa accident tu..alhamdulillah I xde kecederaan berat..cuma proximal ankle I jela yg terseliuh cket plus bengkak kat 2 jari kaki as a result from tekan break kuat...and of course,it wa very traumatic...

i xtau nak call sape instead of Syatila to come and see me..while waiting for him to come,call man tow kete g IPD Kajang and i made a police report..si siput the driver van tu blah dulu sbb die bawak budak sekolah and nak hantar before gelap..xtau la samada die pergi report ke x..sbb police xde call I pun..I tau,kalu ikut law,I mesti kne fine punye sbb I dok blakang..tp I tetap xpuas ati ngan siput ina tu..pakcik tua!!!Cina tu sendiri tau dia salah n xberani nk bcakap dgn I..walaupun at first,he try to show off his "lelaki"ness dgn I..jgn harap..I know how to drive and I was in the right position...

lepas da settle semua,Syatila sent me back...I called Jojo (the owner of the car.my second brother) to ask him what to do..he settled everything the day after and we still waiting for the workshop to repair the car..my eldest brother(dia outstation kat Pahang) pun risau...kesian die..I hope everything will be fine and back to normal again...sy sangat trauma and really pray to Allah so that such incident won't ever happen again to me or any of my family members..it was creepy and horrible experience to hold...

p/s: good for me to learn on how to drive slower...

.::return::.

each sentence in the essay,will meet it's full stop..

everything was solved and has return to the normal state..

alhamdulillah..

.::the craps you create::.

some people might find easy for them to express their feeling and opinion as they wish and like..but it isn't so much suit to my style of expressing my emotions.normally I would go and find 1 trusted people of mine and then I will start to tell everything plus all the tears..ehee~~~

because of ignorance of the issue, it gives me deeper wound in the end of the day as I won't talk about my feeling to people.and the troublemaker,won't let me live happily as they really hate my way..I don't know why...


and most of the time I think I don't need to explain the reason for my action..because,for the certain thing it wasn't happened due to my wrongdoing..it is because people don't like me..so,was it my problem to solve it on behalf of THEIR hateness???

hey,out there..if you think that you don't like me,I HATE you either..
for those yg xtau apa2,don't judge.keep your mouth shut.if you cant resist from talking about me,ask me yourself.I'm not like you,telling people all the waste and craps...I won't tell you as I think it is none of your business!!

p/s:sometimes,kesedihan dalam hati ni xada siapa yg tau..rumah terbakar,org blh panggil bomba utk padamkan api tu..kalau hati?

.::something that I missed for the mean time::.

since my last paper as a student last June,I think I wasn't that much productive at home..I'm not a free flying young bird anymore since I was bound to my new task-nanny thingy..yes,it was fun undeniably..taking care of my little nephew Nazhan ain't boring at all and it gave me a new kind of experience in further understand baby's need and language..


down deep in my heart,I miss my list-to-do thing..I love to go out and see people's doing and going back home only when I'm feeling to.I could stay in a coffee house up to 8 hours watching people while surfing internet..its a waste isn't it?but I do not mind as my heart pond of it rather than being at a proper place but have to face and deal with someone who I don't wish to be with..


oh ya,could you imagine.there is 'money-eye' people in our society,keeping a relationship nice and good if they are bundled with money and things..and this kind of people too would suddenly terminate the relationship just because there's nothing more you could give to them..huh!never ever sincere of what they're doing..



syatila always remind me on this type of people but ignorance always be my first choice.."jangan senang sangat bagi duit kat org,bila awak xada duit nanti awak akan faham maksud saya"..I gave away everything I could and she's doing good to me.and when I have nothing to give,she throw me a harsh words..yet,she beat me up..what the world served~~


anyway,I don't mean to brag over here.or asking you to kill that person for me or what..hoho..just a few nice words for Allah to open her heart and make it even softer.sometimes I got jealous of other's but just in a time I realize that I have all that I want too~~

.::trying to figure out::.

since my last paper,I got nothing much to do unless staying at home,taking care of my little Nazhan and start to learn cooking from my SIL-Kak Tie...as told by my former classmate,the result will come out on Friday..and today is Friday..

but the day goes like this:
6.30am - preparing breakfast for my sister
7.15am - do laundry and house chores
9am - watching movie(marah2 sayang)
10am - as boringness increases,i rode my bike to Subang and play with Zarif
1pm- rode back to Prima Saujana,Kajang as my SIL's brother (abg Pein) wanna drop his wife at home before he attend his meeting at 2.30pm
2.30pm - Bank Islam,Bangi.to claim for a new lost card but cant proceed today.
asked to come back again on Monday..sigh
3pm - waiting for the rain to stop..it was a real heavy rain..
me and Syatila:having a nice chat after a long pause..
5pm - reach home..he continues reminding me on how much he care about me..
how much he wants me to be tough and patience..
5.30pm - only then im aware that i didnt take my slip yet..then,he promise to fetch me on Monday for that..

huh,how amnesia i am..atoiyai~~

before he left,there's1 boy calling me.i feel disturbed and he answer the call for me..Syatila said that we were engaged and never wants 'theboy' to call me ever again..

he told me his plan and how far he has arranged every single thing for us in future..i could see his enthusiasm in getting my full attention,now..i dont know~~

my head and my heart isnt seem to have bilateral-synchronize-harmonious opinion..it makes my body feel a bit tired..i have to figure out everything step by step,again,from the start...oh Lord,smooth my path~~

i miss Nazhan..his smile,his voice,his 'telatah'..he left me for Johor since,yesterday.yes,it was yesterday.and i missed him damned much!!he will come back tomorrow.hope the time flies faster than usual...

for now,i need to call off my study to JPA..hope i wont forget it again~~

.::mute::.

senyap bukan bermakna mengalah!!

i was in Bangi (at my sis Ain's rent house) with my little nephew Nazhan..we are here only for a week,then insya Allah we'll move to a more comfortable and convenient place in Prima Saujana, Kajang for almost 2 months..

what did i do with all this "nomadic" lifestyle??

im a nanny..full time nanny..hoho..it was fun!!really fun!!

then?

sementara tu,i still have to sit for exam LJM..all nursing students have to sit for this exam as we have to have license to practice before we could be hired in any institutions..this will be held on 23rd June..

then?

my graduation day...yeay!!

on 7th August (Saturday)

xsabar sbb ada someone yg akan datang!!tihihi..

then?

planned to apply for temporary job maybe at clinic or..eemm.

does anyone needs employee to be employ for only 2months before i was called off for the staff nurse post...

anyway..

life at home with new kind of environment.

with beloved peoples around

with new hopes..

wish you will be blessed by god and i will never regret of anything~~