.::satu Ramadhan::.

salam Ramadhan semua...

ini bukan lah kali pertama aku berpuasa di kampungku di Pahang.tp sebelum ni aku xdapat nak ingat sgt sbb aku still kecik (maksudnye masa aku sekolah rendah dulu)..since aku masuk asrama, matrix n masuk universiti ni,aku berpuasa bersama rakan2 dan hanya pulang untuk merayakan eidul-fitri beberapa hari sebelumnya..sangat membosankan kan??

beberapa hari yang lepas,aku telah menerima ijazah pertama aku yg diadakan 2 hari berturut2 iaitu - peringkat jabatan & fakulti di HUKM, Cheras pada 6/8/2010 dan peringkat universiti di kampus induk Bangi pada 7/8/2010..alhamdulillah,segala proses pengambilan skrol,transkrip dan gambar dapat diselesaikan sebelum aku pulang ke kampung untuk menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak bersama mak dan ayah..and xdilupakan bersama semua sepupu-sepapat ku dan wan..

hidup di kampung,fuh..sudah pun ku jangkakan..pagi2 lagi keringat ku dah dikerah..kami tinggal dirumah baru pak ngah.so,kwsn blkg rumah masih penuh dgn semak samun.dengan semangat yang baru,aku memegang cangkul dan pertama kali mendengar perkataan 'mer0peh'..ehee.aku pun xtau cane nk eja.kalu org Pahang tau kot cane nk pronounce benda ni.'mer0peh' ni maksudnye membersihkan tanah daripada segala anak2 pokok and rumput menjalar..nasib baik kawasan xluas mana..alhamdulillah,aku berjaya bersihkan n memasang pagar..in the next post,insya-Allah aku upload gambar kawasan blkg umah kami tu..

dalam perancangannya,mak nak tanam sayur kat situ..tgk lah mcm mana..harap2,dptla bantu aku turunkan berat badan aku..peluh yg keluar,jgn cakap lah..berbaldi2..ehee..

thanx Allah,kerana berikan aku kesempatan merasa kelainan di bulan yg mulia ni..semoga aku dapat bertadarus secara berterusan..masa kat uni dulu,try jugak buat,tp xpernah dapat habiskan 1 quran..asek sangkut je..yela kan,tym memalam tu,ade je aktiviti menjalar keluar,g bukak pose kat sane la,kat sini lah..mana nk sempat buat segala..balik2 da penat..huhu..sgt sedih..

anyway,apa2pun aku doakan semoga kita semua dapat menjalani ibadah berpuasa pada tahun ni dengan lebih taqwa n tawadhu'..lama aku tinggalkan ilmu agama,terasa sejuk bila refresh semula semuanya..alhamdulillah...tahun depan,bila aku da start kije,aku sendiri xtau aku sempat terawih penuh atau tidak.yela,kije shift ni kan xmenentu...=((

tgk lah hari2 yg setrusnya,aku akan cuba untuk upload post baru supaya aku sendiri dapat ingat and kenang saat2 yang best macam ni..jangan lupa bersahur & menjaga segala deria dr menjejaskan kesempurnaan ibadah puasa kita..

renung2kan dan selamat beramal!!

p/s: selamat menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak aku ucapkan pada family aku (Umie,abah,mak,ayah,long,kakti,jojo,kak iela,amah,adik ain,mak sedara,pak sedara,sepupu2 semua) walau kat mana pun korg semua..pada Ahmad Syatila,semoga bulan yg mulia ni membawa perubahan yang lebih bermakna buat kita semua..

.::the horrible car crashed::.

Last Monday was my first time to be in Batu Pahat, as I'm following my eldest brother and his chomeyl wife plus little cute prince Shafiq Nazhan utk daftar diri as a staff in one of the university kat situ..and we just get back home in Kajang on the next day..

masa on d way nak balik,one of my friend text me and ask samada I nak join die pergi visit our old friend (kawan masa sekolah dulu) who was sick in HKL or not..and I agreed as I really wants to be with my friend since I sgt merindui mereka..and we set to meet up at HKL on Wednesday..

when the day comes,I pun keluar rumah about 10 in the morning and heading to Desa Baiduri to pick up Syatila just to accompany me..kitorg smpai HKL about 1pm and it was fun to meet them it again..i mean Anie and Faiz..we do chat a bit about the past and a bit about each current doing...everyone has grown up really well and amazingly there's some of our schoolmates who had been married...jealous I..calon pun masih samar2..T_T

after visiting hours is over, I planned to have further chit-chat with Anie, tapi masa tgh2 jln,she lost our path..she get into another direction and I just having a nice lunch with Syatila at Station 1..lepas da puas I menghabiskan duit die (eee,teruk nye I), I pun hantar la Syatila pulang...

like everyone said,cerah xselalunye sampai ke petang,ke mcm mana tah.tap lebih kurang la tu bunyik nye...lepas da happy2 tu datang la bala pulak membontoti I..I nak balik rumah kat Prima Saujana and mmg da dekat sgt da pun dgn rumah, suddenly I was bumped into horrible car crashed with some kind of stupid van...

I was in the fast lane and this stupid van from siput lane tiba2 masuk lane I..it was ok to change the lane..but it was clearly to state that the van driver is stupid as he make it real super slow..no,its not slow,instead he drove his van just right on the line between the two lane...I honked him but pity him,he was deaf!!he don't move and in super fast meter..100km/h..sama je kelajuan dgn kete2 kat depan pun..cuma si stupid tu je yg stupidly masuk depan I..

at last ni lah jadi nye...


tgh tu teruk sbb betul2 kne bucu van and die dalam posisi nak masuk lane I and I pulak da pusingkan steering ke kiri sikit yg konon2 nye nk mengelak dr van stupid tu...I tekan break pun da lambat n dgn klajuan yg super tu,I pun xterkata...terasa mcm main bumper car masa accident tu..alhamdulillah I xde kecederaan berat..cuma proximal ankle I jela yg terseliuh cket plus bengkak kat 2 jari kaki as a result from tekan break kuat...and of course,it wa very traumatic...

i xtau nak call sape instead of Syatila to come and see me..while waiting for him to come,call man tow kete g IPD Kajang and i made a police report..si siput the driver van tu blah dulu sbb die bawak budak sekolah and nak hantar before gelap..xtau la samada die pergi report ke x..sbb police xde call I pun..I tau,kalu ikut law,I mesti kne fine punye sbb I dok blakang..tp I tetap xpuas ati ngan siput ina tu..pakcik tua!!!Cina tu sendiri tau dia salah n xberani nk bcakap dgn I..walaupun at first,he try to show off his "lelaki"ness dgn I..jgn harap..I know how to drive and I was in the right position...

lepas da settle semua,Syatila sent me back...I called Jojo (the owner of the car.my second brother) to ask him what to do..he settled everything the day after and we still waiting for the workshop to repair the car..my eldest brother(dia outstation kat Pahang) pun risau...kesian die..I hope everything will be fine and back to normal again...sy sangat trauma and really pray to Allah so that such incident won't ever happen again to me or any of my family members..it was creepy and horrible experience to hold...

p/s: good for me to learn on how to drive slower...

.::return::.

each sentence in the essay,will meet it's full stop..

everything was solved and has return to the normal state..

alhamdulillah..

.::the craps you create::.

some people might find easy for them to express their feeling and opinion as they wish and like..but it isn't so much suit to my style of expressing my emotions.normally I would go and find 1 trusted people of mine and then I will start to tell everything plus all the tears..ehee~~~

because of ignorance of the issue, it gives me deeper wound in the end of the day as I won't talk about my feeling to people.and the troublemaker,won't let me live happily as they really hate my way..I don't know why...


and most of the time I think I don't need to explain the reason for my action..because,for the certain thing it wasn't happened due to my wrongdoing..it is because people don't like me..so,was it my problem to solve it on behalf of THEIR hateness???

hey,out there..if you think that you don't like me,I HATE you either..
for those yg xtau apa2,don't judge.keep your mouth shut.if you cant resist from talking about me,ask me yourself.I'm not like you,telling people all the waste and craps...I won't tell you as I think it is none of your business!!

p/s:sometimes,kesedihan dalam hati ni xada siapa yg tau..rumah terbakar,org blh panggil bomba utk padamkan api tu..kalau hati?

.::something that I missed for the mean time::.

since my last paper as a student last June,I think I wasn't that much productive at home..I'm not a free flying young bird anymore since I was bound to my new task-nanny thingy..yes,it was fun undeniably..taking care of my little nephew Nazhan ain't boring at all and it gave me a new kind of experience in further understand baby's need and language..


down deep in my heart,I miss my list-to-do thing..I love to go out and see people's doing and going back home only when I'm feeling to.I could stay in a coffee house up to 8 hours watching people while surfing internet..its a waste isn't it?but I do not mind as my heart pond of it rather than being at a proper place but have to face and deal with someone who I don't wish to be with..


oh ya,could you imagine.there is 'money-eye' people in our society,keeping a relationship nice and good if they are bundled with money and things..and this kind of people too would suddenly terminate the relationship just because there's nothing more you could give to them..huh!never ever sincere of what they're doing..



syatila always remind me on this type of people but ignorance always be my first choice.."jangan senang sangat bagi duit kat org,bila awak xada duit nanti awak akan faham maksud saya"..I gave away everything I could and she's doing good to me.and when I have nothing to give,she throw me a harsh words..yet,she beat me up..what the world served~~


anyway,I don't mean to brag over here.or asking you to kill that person for me or what..hoho..just a few nice words for Allah to open her heart and make it even softer.sometimes I got jealous of other's but just in a time I realize that I have all that I want too~~

.::trying to figure out::.

since my last paper,I got nothing much to do unless staying at home,taking care of my little Nazhan and start to learn cooking from my SIL-Kak Tie...as told by my former classmate,the result will come out on Friday..and today is Friday..

but the day goes like this:
6.30am - preparing breakfast for my sister
7.15am - do laundry and house chores
9am - watching movie(marah2 sayang)
10am - as boringness increases,i rode my bike to Subang and play with Zarif
1pm- rode back to Prima Saujana,Kajang as my SIL's brother (abg Pein) wanna drop his wife at home before he attend his meeting at 2.30pm
2.30pm - Bank Islam,Bangi.to claim for a new lost card but cant proceed today.
asked to come back again on Monday..sigh
3pm - waiting for the rain to stop..it was a real heavy rain..
me and Syatila:having a nice chat after a long pause..
5pm - reach home..he continues reminding me on how much he care about me..
how much he wants me to be tough and patience..
5.30pm - only then im aware that i didnt take my slip yet..then,he promise to fetch me on Monday for that..

huh,how amnesia i am..atoiyai~~

before he left,there's1 boy calling me.i feel disturbed and he answer the call for me..Syatila said that we were engaged and never wants 'theboy' to call me ever again..

he told me his plan and how far he has arranged every single thing for us in future..i could see his enthusiasm in getting my full attention,now..i dont know~~

my head and my heart isnt seem to have bilateral-synchronize-harmonious opinion..it makes my body feel a bit tired..i have to figure out everything step by step,again,from the start...oh Lord,smooth my path~~

i miss Nazhan..his smile,his voice,his 'telatah'..he left me for Johor since,yesterday.yes,it was yesterday.and i missed him damned much!!he will come back tomorrow.hope the time flies faster than usual...

for now,i need to call off my study to JPA..hope i wont forget it again~~

.::mute::.

senyap bukan bermakna mengalah!!

i was in Bangi (at my sis Ain's rent house) with my little nephew Nazhan..we are here only for a week,then insya Allah we'll move to a more comfortable and convenient place in Prima Saujana, Kajang for almost 2 months..

what did i do with all this "nomadic" lifestyle??

im a nanny..full time nanny..hoho..it was fun!!really fun!!

then?

sementara tu,i still have to sit for exam LJM..all nursing students have to sit for this exam as we have to have license to practice before we could be hired in any institutions..this will be held on 23rd June..

then?

my graduation day...yeay!!

on 7th August (Saturday)

xsabar sbb ada someone yg akan datang!!tihihi..

then?

planned to apply for temporary job maybe at clinic or..eemm.

does anyone needs employee to be employ for only 2months before i was called off for the staff nurse post...

anyway..

life at home with new kind of environment.

with beloved peoples around

with new hopes..

wish you will be blessed by god and i will never regret of anything~~