.::it's me & never be you::.

we never always be at good...

I've sent my eldest brother to the airport last Friday..

I went to Jojo's home with adek Ain by Thursday that supposed Ahmad Syatila promised me to take me there..

it's ok..I'm fine..

on the same day, we went to Pantai Remis..

sangat menyeronokkan..

Adek Ain took me to Amah's place at Serdang by Saturday morning..

I brought no laptop, no books to read, nothing..

nothing to do..

He went to Perak just only to attend his friend's little brother wedding...

it's ok..I'm fine..

a day for me to sleep.. yesss!!

BUT, a happy moment will never last long even if you were pretend to smile and laugh out loud...

bad dream started..

monster has come into my world and stand just right in front of me..

no love, no feeling, no kind words, no good touch...

it's a real thing in a real reality I've to go through...

crying, shouting, hitting, kicking, humiliating...

was it satisfied??

never leave me alone..

it's only happen if he was about to die..

will do anything for me...

do not care what love's risk takes him to...

will be by my side FOREVER...

that was in my du'a..

that was in my mind..

that was in my heart..

that was all I want...

it's ok..I'm fine..

i'm not good enough for you maybe..

i'm not a perfect one for you maybe..

i'm just an ordinary lady in your eyes maybe..

i'm horror, yes for sure!!!

thank you!!!